I have got to get off this roller coaster, I'm sick of the ride, knowing where all the drops and loops are.
Everytime I try and talk to her it feels good, and then it doesnt, as there is this lingering feeling of "She doesnt care the way she once did and I'm disillusioned into thinking there's room to go back." In fact, I should only believe the truth: "There is no going back, nor is there going forward." Laura is gone and she isnt coming back.. how can I back this up?? I can't. Can I believe otherwise? No... Or can I back it up to prove there's no hope, and I just don't want to believe. I havent seen her face in 5 months and I still love her. Ive taken other girls out on dates, and it just does NOT matter. I was in love, I am in love... and every time I talk to her, its like I get a hint that she does not love me anymore, but she won't say it. She didn't 3 months ago, and I don't want to ask her again because 1: There's no point and 2: I don't want to hear she doesn't. Then te coaster gets backto the top and I feel great and I dont need her and I have my friends and I come to the realisation that theres plenty more out there, I'm 23 this year for fucks sake there is all the time in the world... then the coaster hits a loop and i send her a text... back to the start... is it possible i think too much? Could ignoring her be the only answer? The balls in her court and I can't play anymore. We talk, maybe we shouldn't.. some things might be better left unsaid, time is the healer... End.
Everytime I try and talk to her it feels good, and then it doesnt, as there is this lingering feeling of "She doesnt care the way she once did and I'm disillusioned into thinking there's room to go back." In fact, I should only believe the truth: "There is no going back, nor is there going forward." Laura is gone and she isnt coming back.. how can I back this up?? I can't. Can I believe otherwise? No... Or can I back it up to prove there's no hope, and I just don't want to believe. I havent seen her face in 5 months and I still love her. Ive taken other girls out on dates, and it just does NOT matter. I was in love, I am in love... and every time I talk to her, its like I get a hint that she does not love me anymore, but she won't say it. She didn't 3 months ago, and I don't want to ask her again because 1: There's no point and 2: I don't want to hear she doesn't. Then te coaster gets backto the top and I feel great and I dont need her and I have my friends and I come to the realisation that theres plenty more out there, I'm 23 this year for fucks sake there is all the time in the world... then the coaster hits a loop and i send her a text... back to the start... is it possible i think too much? Could ignoring her be the only answer? The balls in her court and I can't play anymore. We talk, maybe we shouldn't.. some things might be better left unsaid, time is the healer... End.
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Eliminating the down factor in the rollercoaster means it's all awesome time.
Also I hope your tummy feels better.