selahh

I like going to work. Not because It's necessily fun, but more because it gets me out of my mother's house. I know i shouldn't complain, i don't have to pay rent, and there is food that i don't have to buy. I just hate not being able to leave except for work and doctor's appointments ( i have a lot of those). Sure, i...
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I'm a mess. But I've got new meds and my set is being reviewed by staff. My hair is freshly dyed. The sun is shining. I like to pretend I have the kind of troubles that can just melt away.

first shoot with Alissa yesterday. I very much enjoy her. Set isn't that creative, but it is luscious. Very excited

i need some good chron and a hug

first panic attack in ages. i can't believe i forgot how awful they are. i just want to draw and draw but somehow i can't. this is horrible. i feel like the life is slowly dribbling out of me.



i want to scream. i can't stand living,