Completely single again. Been so for about a month now-ugh. But the one bright side to it I guess is that even though I am lonely-I have removed a large part of my stress by unloading the on/off again relationship that had been in my life at least. 
I have a couple of crushes now-but that is what they are going to remain as prob...
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perilouspup:
its just a little pin prick 
Ok, so me & the one BF are trying to make it work again-just us this time-no more other BF for me (although, he's been out of the pic for awhile) & no other girl for him. And me & the other BF have still been split for awhile.
I started three new canvases. it's been 3+ years since I've picked up a paint brush...
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I started three new canvases. it's been 3+ years since I've picked up a paint brush...
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skoosh:
OMG! OMG!! OMG!!!! YES COME TO NEW ORLEANS!!!!!!!! IT'S NICE AND TOASTY DOWN HERE!!!!! YOU SHOULD TOTALLY COME!!!!!!!
chride:
You're definitely welcome in Baton Rouge at the GC....Btw, you totally look like Amanda Palmer from The Dresden Dolls.
Hmmm. Single again. Nothing but betrayal & distrust now. Ugh 
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dangerman:
Welcome to the club. Its a small, angry, bitter club, but a club nonetheless! 
Sorry to hear that though.
Sorry to hear that though.
frost:
well, i still love you. 
I hate everyone & everything! That's it-& I'm totally allowed to!
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northsider:
Now you're talking my language... Angry all the time? Hello!
papina:
Wow, I don't remember making this blog entry. Huh, oh well.
The drinking has been getting alot better-learning to curb myself, but still needing to quit completely at some point obviously.
Working alot more now to try & come up with all the money i need to pay for everything that the state is requiring. This is the scariest part because most of this I'm on a very short time limit on & unfortunately the economy...
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Working alot more now to try & come up with all the money i need to pay for everything that the state is requiring. This is the scariest part because most of this I'm on a very short time limit on & unfortunately the economy...
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thefreddy:
That's really messed up about your bf. How long will he be away?
papina:
He'll be going for 3 years the last he heard. I mean I still have my other (open relationships), but this is the one that I really adore-so it's gonna be very difficult. 
Ok then,
I have unfortunately let my drinking, stressors, lovelife (sometimes I can get alittle too clingy), financial problems, work, community service, aftercare, etc. affect me so much to where my anxiety & depression problems have been kicking up again. I haven't really had seriousworries with these since I first moved to Chicago. I mean, they have always been there since I was a...
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I have unfortunately let my drinking, stressors, lovelife (sometimes I can get alittle too clingy), financial problems, work, community service, aftercare, etc. affect me so much to where my anxiety & depression problems have been kicking up again. I haven't really had seriousworries with these since I first moved to Chicago. I mean, they have always been there since I was a...
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leannan:
i know what you mean. have you tried working out? that was the alternative from my doctor - work out or be medicated. it helps, surprisingly.
hope you have a fabulous weekend. xoxo.
hope you have a fabulous weekend. xoxo.
clearedtoland:
The Lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside still waters. He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oils: my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever. The Twenty Third Psalm.
The Twenty-third Psalm is one of the most powerful pieces of writing in existence, and it can do marvelous things for any person. Charles Allen, author of 'God's Psychiatry' says that he has suggested this psalm to many people and, in every instance in which he know of it being tried, it has produced results. He says that this psalm can change your life very quickly.
Allen suggests that you read this psalm 5 time a day for one week. Read it the first thing when you wake up in the morning. Read it carefully, meditatively, and prayerfully. Read it again immediately after breakfast. Do exactly the same thing, immediately after lunch, again after dinner, and, finally, the last thing before you go to bed.
Don't just go through the motions and chant it quickly. Instead, think about each phrase, giving your mind-time to soak up as much of their meaning as possible. At the end of just one week, things would be different, he says.
Ralph Waldo Emerson said, "A man is what he thinks about all day long." Norman Vincent Peale says, "Change your thoughts and you change your world." The Bible says, "For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he" (Proverbs 23:7).
The Twenty-third Psalm is a pattern of thinking, and. when the mind becomes saturated with it, a new way of thinking and a new life results.
I'll be praying for you.
The Twenty-third Psalm is one of the most powerful pieces of writing in existence, and it can do marvelous things for any person. Charles Allen, author of 'God's Psychiatry' says that he has suggested this psalm to many people and, in every instance in which he know of it being tried, it has produced results. He says that this psalm can change your life very quickly.
Allen suggests that you read this psalm 5 time a day for one week. Read it the first thing when you wake up in the morning. Read it carefully, meditatively, and prayerfully. Read it again immediately after breakfast. Do exactly the same thing, immediately after lunch, again after dinner, and, finally, the last thing before you go to bed.
Don't just go through the motions and chant it quickly. Instead, think about each phrase, giving your mind-time to soak up as much of their meaning as possible. At the end of just one week, things would be different, he says.
Ralph Waldo Emerson said, "A man is what he thinks about all day long." Norman Vincent Peale says, "Change your thoughts and you change your world." The Bible says, "For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he" (Proverbs 23:7).
The Twenty-third Psalm is a pattern of thinking, and. when the mind becomes saturated with it, a new way of thinking and a new life results.
I'll be praying for you.
Unfortunately, I have fallen back off the wagon again a couple different times. Ugh.
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norritt:
addiction is tough to handle
at least you know you have a problem
at least you know you have a problem
xxjcblackheartxx:
it seems everyone has a vice in life even if its not for the world to see
Okie dokie, so my internet is back on again-Woohoo! I always forget to pay things until they get turned off or something on me 
. It's not that I'm irresponsible, just alittle scatterbrained.
Also, celebrated my bday the last few days & had a ball doing it. Yes, I did allow myself to drink & party those 3 days, But I am back to normal...
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. It's not that I'm irresponsible, just alittle scatterbrained.Also, celebrated my bday the last few days & had a ball doing it. Yes, I did allow myself to drink & party those 3 days, But I am back to normal...
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perilouspup:
my girlfriend & i noted the sexpo in the reader (which was frighteningly on the same page as godapalooza), but we're probably going to be a bit busy with work and whatnot.
happy birthday, which mexican restaurant did you go to?
happy birthday, which mexican restaurant did you go to?
papina:
Uncle Julio's Hacienda. Yum Yum! I luv the frog legs there! 
Hmmm....Gonna try & quit drinking yet again. It's still a huge problem in my life & needs to be fixed. I've tried many different times but that's the easy part-the hard part is making it actually stick. So fingers crossed-here we go again.
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kay:
It is a struggle. I'm with you on that one. Good luck darlin.
~cheers
~cheers
northsider:
Happy birthday!
Ok, I don't know about anyone else, but I'm gonna throw this out there. I get really agitated w/ the fake bisexual girls or the ones thatare just curious & just fuck w/ your head. I mean they make out w/ you, they flirt, give you their number & whatever-but aren't really down. This is very frustrating to me, since I can't seem to find...
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papina:
Ah, yes, but I am very picky w/ my women & I always wind up feeling like a pedafile when looking @ these yiounger hipster girls......dunno.....0.
prairiedog:
I hear the same complaint from a lot of bi-women. For some reason, most of the girls I end up dating are bi, and all of them have complained about the difficulty of finding other girls to play with. There's lots of fakes out there (like you said), and most of the lesbians hate bi girls, or think they're "just confused". All of them have also said that they can't figure out women, and that girls are more crazy than guys, so sucks for them, but in a perverse way, it makes me not feel so bad.