I wanna get to the point where I don't feel like other people have to take care of me all the time. I'm so irresponsible and chaotic and I don't know how to not be. I'm scatterbrained, incredibly messy, overly emotional, forgetful. I'm never on time, I lose/break everything, I'm terrible with money. I pretend like I don't, but I drink way too much and... Read More
I used to be negative about using medication for depression and such, until the tricks I learned in therapy were no longer working to turn things around. That's when I realized that our brains don't always give us the chemicals we need to function properly. A couple years on anti-depressants finally got my life moving forward, because just getting through the day wasn't taking up all of my energy. A few years ago, I was diagnosed with mild ADD, and though I haven't gotten ideal results, I've found the sustained release Ritalin helps me deal with distractions better and get refocused on what I'm trying to do. There is an ADD group, but I'd definitely talk to your doc before listening to anything there.
Most of this garbage I write
That these people seem to like
Is about you
And how I let you infect my life
And if they got to know you
I doubt that they would see it
They'd wonder what i showed you
How you could leave it
A friend in Chicago said that I should... Read More
A very wise friend of mine posted this Bukowski quote the other day-
"its always a process of letting go, one way or another"
I am wrapped up in that process right now. I'm trying to let go of this fear and doubt that has been consuming me. I am trying to take a leap of faith. It is fucking terrifying. I have the hardest... Read More
And yeah, having my hair like that all day REALLY made me need to learn how to french braid my own head! In fact, I think I'm going to look it up right now. Haha.
I've never seen you with long hair -- you're always so adorable with the various tiny cuts. Have you ever? Piiiiics? ;]]
You are totally not alone as far as the Bin Laden thing goes. I came home to find tons of "Bin Laden's execution" spam on my Facebook and it made me sick. I am happy he is gone, but I don't see the need to watch him die..I know all the photos and videos that are circulating are fakes and that creeps me out even more.