mei is still around, out there, don't worry. swimming in the ocean, caught in scratching lovely waves until the deeper and cooler. safe like on the shoulders of unpredictable parents, bigger than you will ever know. shoes have become unnecessary, i have calluses almost to the bone. maybe i am getting old, but i begin to wonder if i will ever have a child. or...
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alienheep:
So is Mei still around? 
oso:
you are the most awesome person ever.
strange how summer happens so fast, how the air is gray and sharp one day, sun-thick and lolling the next. the flowers are each events, drops of food-coloring twisting knots in the crevices between rocks. the temperature doesn't actually change, because there are blankets and parkas and overheated fast-food restaurants in the wintertime, ice and skirts and running in the shade in the summer. sometimes...
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l_f:
Amazing how your latest entries speak so much life - even more than your older ones. Language became just an accessory. Yes, it sounds like you were in a serious search...
sydfloyd:
How you been?
i decided that it was time to leave so i needed a car. one of the older ladies in town had died recently, leaving an old white honda civic, and i'd made friends with her daughter, who ended up holding the estate sale. i bought the car for $500, and named it platelet, and we aimlessly floated around the nation's circulatory system for a little...
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redduke:
I enjoyed that immensely, and I think it has inspired me to do something.
theo_fizztek:
to me this is still the most interesting thread on the SG network...what a darling !!!
sometimes i hang out around the phone booth in town, watching people make their calls. there's a tiny little light there, that casts a weak-fallen-star glow onto their varied faces. in a phone booth, people look like mannequins in shop windows, simultaneously supremely on display and beautifully disinterested. the phone-lines suck away their attention, visualizing the invisible eyes of the contacted party. sometimes peoples' conversations...
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trebor:
I love how in your writing you can take an ordinary scene one might see everyday and transform it into something beautiful and poetic.
dr_lizardo:
It's too bad that we don't get Mei journals to listen to when the place we're calling has us on hold.
whoa. here she is. insanity.
everything has changed. i'll tell you later.
for now: here she is.
everything has changed. i'll tell you later.
for now: here she is.
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fatality:
I am so excited that you're back!
lunale:
feels good to see you around again
life, as always, continues apace. zoom. the other night walking home i sang a song about seahorses and rocking chairs and fire hydrants. it was just me and the earliest birds out at 3am. i'm so busy these days.
you remember that moment playing heads up seven up as a kid, when you waited and waited, tensed, your entire being centered around that one eager...
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you remember that moment playing heads up seven up as a kid, when you waited and waited, tensed, your entire being centered around that one eager...
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cobalt:
There's a song by Built to Spill called "Twin Falls Idaho" which exactly captures the moment during 7-up that you're referring to. 
dagan:
I'm often amazed at how many birds are out and singing at 3 AM...
i wrote a long entry, and then i erased it to feel the power of making something irrevocably disappear.
last night i dreamed of chocolate.
i'm reading nietzsche again.
i am lonely.
last night i dreamed of chocolate.
i'm reading nietzsche again.
i am lonely.
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stickyrice:
Beautiful, as often. Nietzsche will make you lonely. It's his job ... the syphilis didn't help. I am lonely too, but not because of him. Or not exclusively.
That e-mail you mentioned is being formulated; my blasted book and other crises have kept me occupied. Also, I have spent some time staring at your bee-sting photo. I hope this is not creepy. The enchanting, damaged face.
I'd like to be chop-sticking a morsel into your mouth at Slanted Door (or somewhere less trendified) right now! Wine. But in the absence, words. Shortly.
LM,
R
That e-mail you mentioned is being formulated; my blasted book and other crises have kept me occupied. Also, I have spent some time staring at your bee-sting photo. I hope this is not creepy. The enchanting, damaged face.
I'd like to be chop-sticking a morsel into your mouth at Slanted Door (or somewhere less trendified) right now! Wine. But in the absence, words. Shortly.
LM,
R
utgardsloki:
I feel some intimidation about making comments for you... because you are such a beautiful writer... oh well
i got better.
then i got sick again. now i'm full-blown sick with a bad head/chest cold. i feel so gross. at least it's better than being sick while i was at school. if i lay around all the time here, there's no problem.
i'd write more but my brain's in a nasty fog right now.
then i got sick again. now i'm full-blown sick with a bad head/chest cold. i feel so gross. at least it's better than being sick while i was at school. if i lay around all the time here, there's no problem.
i'd write more but my brain's in a nasty fog right now.
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glamerdork:
sick = 
I was sick a few weeks ago and it was no fun. My boyfriend is currently sick and his cold just won't go away. Tis the season to be a sickie, apparently.
I was sick a few weeks ago and it was no fun. My boyfriend is currently sick and his cold just won't go away. Tis the season to be a sickie, apparently.
dragod:
S
Hope you are feeling a little bit better.
To an agnostic from a lapsed catholic buddhist,
friend to friend
I hope you continue to recover at a good pace.
All things considered, the odds on the big board
in Vegas are that Ms. B is on her Bike for a little bit
in the fresh air that usually means tomorrow is arriving.
Step it up pilgrim. Somebody has to be an inspiration
around here, and I have retired. B
Hope you are feeling a little bit better.
To an agnostic from a lapsed catholic buddhist,
friend to friend
I hope you continue to recover at a good pace.
All things considered, the odds on the big board
in Vegas are that Ms. B is on her Bike for a little bit
in the fresh air that usually means tomorrow is arriving.
Step it up pilgrim. Somebody has to be an inspiration
around here, and I have retired. B
i spent five minutes carefully seeding a tangerine, so i could savor it while i read. the first section tasted like some kind of strange perfume, tart, heady, and dark. so i stuffed the rest of it into my mouth all at once and nearly choked on juice and amusement and tangerine fibers.
there's a sense in which that, too, is savoring.
there's a sense in which that, too, is savoring.
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wren:
I think that sometimes cramming food in your mouth whole is one of the greatest things to do.
adjones67:
mei,
not to sound cheesey but you are a beautiful gal. i love the natural look. dont change a thing. i look forward to your next shoot
not to sound cheesey but you are a beautiful gal. i love the natural look. dont change a thing. i look forward to your next shoot
here's the deal, folks.
thank your lucky fucking stars that you live in this world.
it's the most beautiful thing imaginable. because it's the only thing imaginable.
today i sat down on the sidewalk outside of a vacant lot and cried in the sun, because i was just overwhelmed with all of this.
the taste of anise candy and the sounds of stepping on leaves....
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thank your lucky fucking stars that you live in this world.
it's the most beautiful thing imaginable. because it's the only thing imaginable.
today i sat down on the sidewalk outside of a vacant lot and cried in the sun, because i was just overwhelmed with all of this.
the taste of anise candy and the sounds of stepping on leaves....
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flux:
That sounds glorious.
samyouwell:
sexy, profound, liberated, poetic...
I could go on....
but i won't..
I like you....
I need to open the valves in my mind to see life like you do...
However you gave me a split-second of it just then....
thanks
I could go on....
but i won't..
I like you....
I need to open the valves in my mind to see life like you do...
However you gave me a split-second of it just then....
thanks
ok, y'all have convinced me to start posting recipes. here's the one i had for dinner tonight:
1 1 1/2-pound butternut squash, peeled, halved lengthwise, seeded, halved crosswise, then cut lengthwise into 3/4-inch-wide wedges (i actually used the "bulb" parts of two squashes, reserving the "stem" parts for roasting as rounds with clove and brown sugar. but whatever)..
1 fennel bulb, trimmed, cut lengthwise into...
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1 1 1/2-pound butternut squash, peeled, halved lengthwise, seeded, halved crosswise, then cut lengthwise into 3/4-inch-wide wedges (i actually used the "bulb" parts of two squashes, reserving the "stem" parts for roasting as rounds with clove and brown sugar. but whatever)..
1 fennel bulb, trimmed, cut lengthwise into...
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kingbugs:
hi.
crispy:
No worries. I have that effect on people. 
today i cleaned the kitchen floor in a short skirt. it was too hot out for anything else - 75 degrees in october. humid, too. i scrubbed and scrubbed. wet dirty knees and my hair in my face. singing, too, an octave up from the stereo. i hit all the high notes.
then i cleaned my room. swept the wood floors and put up some...
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k8e:
Ha busy aren't you domesticated
I haven't even left my room yet... some of your enthusiasm must have rubbed off on me, just got sudden urge to get up have a shower stop wasting Sunday! Pull back the curtains and realise it's 3.00pm !! ! !! ARGH
aren't you domesticated
I haven't even left my room yet... some of your enthusiasm must have rubbed off on me, just got sudden urge to get up have a shower stop wasting Sunday! Pull back the curtains and realise it's 3.00pm !! ! !! ARGH
stickyrice:
The whole thing sounds like a hit-the-high-note day.
I only wrote, and hit a few of the mid-range notes.
I only wrote, and hit a few of the mid-range notes.