It's been almost a month since I was discharged. i've been in a daze, uni has taken a backseat, I've been procrastinating over projects, falling further and further behind, and then avoiding uni altpgether because of the anxiety around going in and failing.
i miss the girls in the clinic so much it hurts. i still do daycare twice a week, but i miss the... Read More
I'm back in the priory, I decided to really make a go of it this time, and I have to tell you, it's really worked. I put my faith in the program 100% and it's paying off. I've gained 3 kilos so far, and every one I gain is like getting a piece of myself... Read More
so, I went to a psychic today. It was my first experience of anything like it, and it occurred out of curiosity and a desperate need to make changes in my life. i realise now that nobody can make those changes but me.
So after 2 months of living in the flat, we finally get the internet today! Except, we didn't, so i'm sitting in my mum's kitchen writing this blog instead.
I've had an incredible year and a bit on SG, and i realise I never celebrated my SG anniversary, but it doesn't mean I forgot. I met some amazing people, photographers, members, hopefuls and SGs and... Read More
i swear that my photoshoots with lee gillies are cursed.
first time, i got so lost, i was 2 hours late, i forgot my heels, got a congestion charge fine, a bus lane fine and smacked someone's wing mirror off.
becuase i was late, i paid half the money for 2 more hours in the studio as we'd used up all our time, and then... Read More
moving to greenwich has been awesome but i've never felt more isolated in my life. i have no friends here, no job, nothing to do but clean, walk and spend money.
i feel so detatched from my friends, i feel an overwhelming lack of intimacy in my life, and my anorexia is dragging me down again.
my... Read More
Thanks for the note. I didn't think you were fibbing about having good days; my frustration is that I really don't think I have much support to offer. You are a beautiful person (or at least so you seem to the extent that I can tell from reading your blog) and I wish there was something I could do that would help you. I'm sorry if I offended - the point wasn't to use you for something to talk about, but just to express my own feelings.
love it!!!!!!!!
