so, i live with 5 girls.
i really don't get along with the majority of girls out there in the normal world. well, i get along with everyone. i just don't really enjoy their company i suppose. if i lived with bad ass chicas like all the lovely ladies of SG, it might be different.
but i don't.
i'm sick of the bitching, the whining, the constant needing to "hang out" and "talk". about stupid meaningless shit that i don't give a flying fuck about. i don't care about your boyfriend who you clearly have the worst relationship every with and has broken up 29 times with you or pissed you off because you found an earring in his bed....again. i don't care that you think you are fat and feel bad about the cookies that you ate earlier. i care about alot of things, really, i do. but i need some fucking intelligent conversation.
i feel like i am constantly having stupid bullshit talk with the people i live with. half the time its just fucking awkward and i'd like to avoid it at all costs. also, sometimes, I JUST DON'T WANT TO TALK TO ANYONE. i'm not a loner. but i work every day, and sometimes i get sick of being around 10ur938409 people and i just want to chill out. i'm a very independent person. on my day off half the time i'd rather wander downtown listening to music, grab coffee, shop, or do whatever on my own.
a strange realization i came to, since i moved here in may. or mainly just since the fall....i really havn't been hanging out with anyone. i'm at work until 6 every day, and i work with my friends, so i guess i feel like i hang out there. haha other than that i see my roommates, the guys down the street, and other than that..yeah. its wierd. it doesn't even bother me. haha i guess i needed a break from people for awhile. i've gotten sick of the coming and going of friends so i've been sticking to those close by whose company i enjoy and trust. and i havn't minded. i used to fill my life with so many different people and plans, but i realize now.....it was just a fill in. there are a few VERY VERY close friends who i've grown apart from and it makes me incredibly sad, because we lived together and shared an amazing part of our lives....but i guess that happens. and maybe one day we'll come to a point in our lives where we can share that again.
stuff is wierd. but its ok. and there was a time when i wasn't ok with it. and i'm glad that i am.
wow..i am vague sometimes. haha
anyways, back to what i was saying. being alone and having privacy, EVER is impossible. because two girls that live upstairs have to walk through my room to get to their rooms. i fucking hate it.
i knew coming into this situation last may that i would hate it because i knew i'd have no privacy and the fact that i don't like living with girls. i've always lived with guys, or a combination of guys and girls, and that is how i'd like it to be. ugh. all of this estrogen is kicking my ass....its not that bad now i guess. i just got really annoyed because my room was entered and exited 6 times in the past 7 minutes. so i decided to vent since i was already logged on to sg. on the other hand, i took this room because i knew noone else would and i'm just a peacemaker like that. plus, i'm probably the most open person in this household and i don't get offended or embarrassed at all if i'm just laying around in my underwear (which is...always) or doin my thang and someone walks in. this is the only part that amuses me about this strangely placed little bedroom. :-)
when i move to richmond i am definitly getting a place of my own and i can't waaaaaaaaaaaait. i've never had my own place but i feel that for this next year or so of my life that i live there its the best way to go. foooo'sho. its going to be a sexy, hippie, macabre style little shindig that will smell constantly of nag champa and coffee. and i can't wait :-D
errr...also. about the moving thing. i'm going to be needing to purchase a car here soon. problem is, when i went through my whole little wild and crazy 2 month move to virginia beach, i got arrested. and i never went to court. therefore i have three misdemeanors on my record that aren't taken care of, granted...its for stupid shit. but i'm sure the judge doesn't care about that. haha my question, will i still be able to register a car that i buy at the dmv with this on my record??
i need answers!
anywho i'm in a pretty fabulous and relaxed mood right now. i'm in one of my random "making an effort to cut down on my terrible drinking problem" phases. so this is my 3rd sober night/day in a row. the most i've made it in almost 2 months. i feel good. i've just been hanging at home, reading a grateful dead book, finding new music, getting enough sleep for once. its been kinda nice.
i'm doing another shoot with lightfall photo tomorrow. i got a fabulous new pair of fetish boots i havn't gotten to wear yet. so i'm bringing those along. definitly excited to see how these turn out!
um....i think i'm going to go make pancakes now or something, because i am le'hungry.
hope you are having a good day loves!
i really don't get along with the majority of girls out there in the normal world. well, i get along with everyone. i just don't really enjoy their company i suppose. if i lived with bad ass chicas like all the lovely ladies of SG, it might be different.
but i don't.
i'm sick of the bitching, the whining, the constant needing to "hang out" and "talk". about stupid meaningless shit that i don't give a flying fuck about. i don't care about your boyfriend who you clearly have the worst relationship every with and has broken up 29 times with you or pissed you off because you found an earring in his bed....again. i don't care that you think you are fat and feel bad about the cookies that you ate earlier. i care about alot of things, really, i do. but i need some fucking intelligent conversation.
i feel like i am constantly having stupid bullshit talk with the people i live with. half the time its just fucking awkward and i'd like to avoid it at all costs. also, sometimes, I JUST DON'T WANT TO TALK TO ANYONE. i'm not a loner. but i work every day, and sometimes i get sick of being around 10ur938409 people and i just want to chill out. i'm a very independent person. on my day off half the time i'd rather wander downtown listening to music, grab coffee, shop, or do whatever on my own.
a strange realization i came to, since i moved here in may. or mainly just since the fall....i really havn't been hanging out with anyone. i'm at work until 6 every day, and i work with my friends, so i guess i feel like i hang out there. haha other than that i see my roommates, the guys down the street, and other than that..yeah. its wierd. it doesn't even bother me. haha i guess i needed a break from people for awhile. i've gotten sick of the coming and going of friends so i've been sticking to those close by whose company i enjoy and trust. and i havn't minded. i used to fill my life with so many different people and plans, but i realize now.....it was just a fill in. there are a few VERY VERY close friends who i've grown apart from and it makes me incredibly sad, because we lived together and shared an amazing part of our lives....but i guess that happens. and maybe one day we'll come to a point in our lives where we can share that again.
stuff is wierd. but its ok. and there was a time when i wasn't ok with it. and i'm glad that i am.
wow..i am vague sometimes. haha
anyways, back to what i was saying. being alone and having privacy, EVER is impossible. because two girls that live upstairs have to walk through my room to get to their rooms. i fucking hate it.
i knew coming into this situation last may that i would hate it because i knew i'd have no privacy and the fact that i don't like living with girls. i've always lived with guys, or a combination of guys and girls, and that is how i'd like it to be. ugh. all of this estrogen is kicking my ass....its not that bad now i guess. i just got really annoyed because my room was entered and exited 6 times in the past 7 minutes. so i decided to vent since i was already logged on to sg. on the other hand, i took this room because i knew noone else would and i'm just a peacemaker like that. plus, i'm probably the most open person in this household and i don't get offended or embarrassed at all if i'm just laying around in my underwear (which is...always) or doin my thang and someone walks in. this is the only part that amuses me about this strangely placed little bedroom. :-)
when i move to richmond i am definitly getting a place of my own and i can't waaaaaaaaaaaait. i've never had my own place but i feel that for this next year or so of my life that i live there its the best way to go. foooo'sho. its going to be a sexy, hippie, macabre style little shindig that will smell constantly of nag champa and coffee. and i can't wait :-D
errr...also. about the moving thing. i'm going to be needing to purchase a car here soon. problem is, when i went through my whole little wild and crazy 2 month move to virginia beach, i got arrested. and i never went to court. therefore i have three misdemeanors on my record that aren't taken care of, granted...its for stupid shit. but i'm sure the judge doesn't care about that. haha my question, will i still be able to register a car that i buy at the dmv with this on my record??
i need answers!
anywho i'm in a pretty fabulous and relaxed mood right now. i'm in one of my random "making an effort to cut down on my terrible drinking problem" phases. so this is my 3rd sober night/day in a row. the most i've made it in almost 2 months. i feel good. i've just been hanging at home, reading a grateful dead book, finding new music, getting enough sleep for once. its been kinda nice.
i'm doing another shoot with lightfall photo tomorrow. i got a fabulous new pair of fetish boots i havn't gotten to wear yet. so i'm bringing those along. definitly excited to see how these turn out!
um....i think i'm going to go make pancakes now or something, because i am le'hungry.
hope you are having a good day loves!
umm, u might have to clear up your record before you can get your car. did u say the arrest happened in a different state? Maybe they wont know then, but its going to be an anoying risk to take!
have fun on your shoot hon! cant wait to see what u come up with