ash

Oh honey I feel for you I do....the last time I saw my grandmother she barely recognised me because her Alzheimer's had got so bad but she gave me this huge wad of cash because she knew my dad's brother would be making sure he got all her money when she dies. That was five years ago and I don't even know if she's alive now.

I hope you get to go to Florida to see her. Hell if you were my granddaughter I'd think you turned out pretty fuckin awesome

Well for now I would say Music, and as strange as this seems my boys from Slipknot do it everytime. I can listen to their albums and get my head rite, lol go figure

My art is fixing up an old truck and I can work on it when im stressed. It gives me something positive to focus on instead of the other shit.

Yes I believe you can or at least close. You always need that face to face but feelings can emerge. If I remeber people used to court by written letters years and years ago. Never played xbox live

Im not i make snap judgments like many others

Hope all is well

i dont remember what i wrote, but i was meaning to say was that the girl who played the oldest sister, looks a lot like you; not the dude that played Caspian.

and drama sux.

I'll say it again. Amazing video.

I guess you are right. I'm just used to my dad being the one driving me insane.

Sioux mentions you all the time in her blog, so I thought I'd come and say hello.



And Happy Belated.

-TM

nope no kids.. the wife n' I just wanted to see iit.

Just saying hello. I finally got to do something fun since I got here . Went to go see a Valcano well a huge deep pit cuased by one lots of steam though and went into these tunnels called Lava Tubes. It was all lit up and there was area you take a light to use becuase its pitch black in there. Got some pics but I used my cell phone so you can't see as good if you were there. But all in all not a bad day.

Oh hell yeah beauty effects stuff.

I had a friend get off in court b/c the judge told him " Life's easier for good looking people". I know it can drop you off people's radar alot at times, get them to drop their guard. Let me go all "Spider Man" - with great power - beauty- comes great responsibility.

I once pumped gas and realized I had no money. I dropped my license off and came back with the money. End of issue.

Worst joke? I don't know, I'm generally too nice of a guy to let bad stuff go...

I lack entertaining pics, too bad we don't have video of 3 hours ago.

As for being beat down, I hate to say it, but yeah, you gotta get up. Otherwise, how you figure you're gonna beat life's ass back? And it's as simple as this in any contest - if you're getting tired, odds are your opponent is too. Roll with the punches long enough, and your chance will come. When that opportunity arises, tackle it for all you're worth and don't let go! Guard your grill sweetie, it'll be ok...eventually.

i will never understand people. if you look at a person like a dog it simplfys things but in reality we are all not dogs we may have basic needs but people are more or less evil. we all have the ability to hurt and to cheat but not everyone dose. i like to believe that everyone is good and that there are just points in our life were we make bad decisions.
but i agree that if your unhappy in your life the only one you can really look to is yourself. your the person who got you there and your the person who can get you to were you want to go but sometimes its just not that simple.

ash i love you! i wish i could help ya out more and shit. but gimme a call if you want to do something i have been board out of my mind now that i'm on the *clean* track

God, I still remember my wisdom teeth... I don't envy you your pain, I can tell you that. Glad someone will get around to pulling them evetually, though.

~Not being a parent, I'm not sure if I can really answer this, but my point of view at the moment is that you should maybe change some of the things you do, but not who you are. Some of the things you like doing don't have to go away entirely when you have a kid, but some consideration for their well-being has to be taken into account while you do them. And who gives a fuck about "conventional" motherhood; if you change who you are because you have a kid, what kind of example are you setting? Could you even honestly teach them anything if the lessons are coming from someone you aren't?
~I'm not entirely sure what you mean here. Mistakes happen, and real friends can usually get over those with an apology and an honest discussion, but maliciously fucking over someone with intent is a different story. If it was an accidental fucking (hah, I like that phrase), then sometimes it may take time for the fucked party to get over it, but without cruel intent they usually will see the circumstances for what they were and at least gain an understanding of what happened. How's that for vague?

The mail carrier is supposed to pick up mail from the house but he does not always.
I actually take my camera with me everywhere but work, because I work in a plastics plant and cameras are not allowed in there. So when I feel like taking a picture of something I do. I have about 180 pictures on my camera right now to upload, but I do not know when I will get around to it. I was cheking out the camera to see what all I can do with it as I have only had it a few months and have been pretty busy.
I love sending and recieving mail, its great fun. And I do not have fun anymore so it gives me something, that I like, to do.

Honestly, at this point I think I'm leaning toward Chicago (even though I really loved the city of Baltimore while I was there), but I'm not sure if I can afford to live there. The only other school I'm waiting on now is San Francisco State, and I would only go there if they offered me a great money-making internship. N.C. State rejected me, which might be just as well because, as you said, North Carolina isn't that great -- I lived there until I was five and even then I remember getting into a fight with a racist kid in my kindergarten class; in retrospect, I think my parents saw that all over and made sure I understood that it was wrong because they knew I would run into it with kids whose parents taught them the same bullshit.

How're the teeth?

Happy Zombie Jeebus day