so the boy and i had the "post-mortem" tonight. (for you non-theatre people, that refers to the meeting a production crew has after a show closes to discuss how it went.)

we talked about everything that needed to be talked about. and i'm feeling really positive about it all now. i was totally wracked with nerves, wondering how it was going to go. and i went away feeling like we made some progress.

i hate to say it out loud, for fear of jinxing it... but i think there is still something there.
i hope that isn't me reading way too far into something.
i kinda want him back. i've never wanted anyone back before, and never really thought it would be feasible to even consider the idea.
right now, i can't say what will happen until we've interacted a few more times. but i'm not ruling anything out. so until then, i'm going to continue focusing on healing and growing.

so stay tuned for more on that another time!

in other news... speaking of healing and growing...it's nice to reconnect with old friends. sometimes distance puts everything into perspective. welcome back to the junkyard, darling. *hoists beer*

last night i went to my diner and sat and talked with my manager and the overnight waitress and another waiter and the 4 cops on graveyard shift until 4 am. it was fun. it's funny, when i'm working there, i can't wait to leave. but when i'm off, sometimes that's the only place i feel comfortable. love hate relationships are so WEIRD!

anyway, my bedroom is trashed, and i have my "last" week of work starting tomorrow. so i'm gonna drag my ass away from the computer for once and reset myself for the week. love you sg!