Having a small freak out. I'm sure it'll all work out fine... But freaking out nonetheless.

More later. Just had to get that out of my system.

its pouring rain at the moment... and i'm about to embark on a knitting adventure (legwarmers!!! how very 80's of me ) with a cup of tea and some bad television. who's with me?!

this week has been a bit of a drain, but i managed to have a nice long nap after work today and i'm feeling pretty good!

i think i want to have some nice photos taken of my backpiece sometime soon. it'd be nice to have something like that to help remind me how good it looked, when i'm old and wrinkly! haha!

not much else to say at the mo...

sleep well and sweet dreams when you get there!

zn:xx

I can't stress enough how much I want it to be the end of September right now. I want to be living with Andy full time and not living with my housemate who has just officially gotten back with her douche bag boyfriend.

On a nicer note... Tomorrow is my day off work, so I plan on staying up late to play video games with Andy... And have a sleep in in the morning. Then hanging with my mum for a belated mothers day celebration

I have been at work cutting hair all day and now I'm sitting on the train on my way home and I can feel that there is hair in my shoe. Between my toes. Feels pretty disgusting. Eww!

I hope dinner is already cooked when I get to Andy's!!!

Hope you're all having a good start to your week

zn:xx

My pole is finally up in my garage! Woo! I've Spent the afternoon doing some strength training and avoiding my housemate and her hobbit.

Crimsonpetals came round for dinner and wine and catch ups on Saturday night which was fun but the hangover the next day was not so fun.

Sunday was spent at Tambourine, at garterbelts&gasoline which was great. I got a little bit sunburnt but it's faded quickly

Tomorrow I'm goin to Dreameorld with Andy we haven't been since we were kids so it should be exciting with all the new rides to try out!

Heading back to practice some tricks on the pole that have been kicking my ass. My housemate and her hobbit have gone out for a while so I want to get finished up and have a shower and leave before they get home.

There is something wrong when you can't even be comfortable in your own home... But we're in a bit of a bind since its probably not comfortable for her right now either. I told her today that I don't like being there when he is. Now that doesnt mean he can't come round... It just means I need some warning so that I can get out of there before he arrives.

Anyways, have a great night!

zn:xx

gah!!!

my housemate is 'seeing how things go' with her douche ex-boyfriend. i literally want to vomit a little, every time i see him. sincerely, he reminds me of gollom. slimey little hunchback of a man who is very unattractive.

as much as i want J to be happy, i can't even bring myself to be even remotely civil to her little sack of shit.

how does this affect me really? well since he has had to leave the house he was living in (after hooking up with J's arch enemy who they all used to live with - wich didn't go well... no surprises there) he has had to move back to his parents house... which means he is at my house more often. and when i see him i am overcome with hatred and can't even say hello or look at him. FAAAAARK!!!

this is going to cause some upset in the house for sure.

after telling her that he didn't love her, she spent all this time hating herself for 'doing something wrong' and *causing* the end of the relationship. once he heard that she was kinda seeing someone else... he came back telling her that he thought he was falling for her again (they've still been sleeping together all this time)... so she ditches the other guy, only to be told that douche was getting together with the old housemate... breaking her heart again. and now since that didn't work out, he wants to give it another go...

she is unfortunately a bigger idiot than i ever imagined she could be shit heads like him just don't change.

She's a shadow of the girl i met. now she doubts herself constantly and has zero self esteem. even little things that used to make her happy like her tattoos now seem to be a regret (all because he doesn't like them).

i have never wanted to punch someones face so much!!!

wish me luck at biting my tongue (not something i usually have a lot of control over usually)... my next blog may be a description of how i tell him to get the fuck out of my house!!!


g'night.
zn:xx

My niece, who is 10 years younger than me had her first child tonight his name is Lucas, and I'm still waiting to hear all the details, but I'm so happy for Kayla all went as well and was apparently an 'easy' birth. Whatever that means! I'm now a great aunty for the third time... But it's not like I wasn't a great aunty before! Hehe... See what I did there?!

I watched glee and drank 3/4 of a bottle of wine tonight. Tomorrow is my day off and I'm in good spirits, tho that could just be the wine and singing

g'nite
zn:xx

So! Today is my first official day of full time work after 20 months of shitty casual work in a pub as a gaming attendant. I'm back in a salon! I've worked a few days there over the past two weeks, just getting a feel for the place and meeting some of the clients.

I have killer holiday pay owing to me so I've decided to pay off my credit card and get rid of it, and if there is anything left over I'll probably treat myself a bit

New job means weekends free! So girly pamper day will happen in a few weeks time hit me up if you're keen. Boys, if you wanna come along... You have to wear a dress.

So looking forward to normal sleeping patterns and free time again!!!

And I now have time to get started on my Ball costume!!! So excited to catch up with everyone again AND now that I don't work on Sundays... I can party into the wee hours with everyone and not have to worry about getting out of bed at a sensible time!

Errol has finally settled into my house and I'm sure he now believes its HIS house... And that's ok with me. He looks funny all shaved except his head and tail. So damn cute!

I start level 6 at pole tomorrow! Still loving it!!!

Anyways it's almost work time. Will be back here a little more now that I'm not working all the time.

Have a great day.
zn:xx

i'm eating eucalyptus drops like they're going out of fashion... not because i'm unwell... but because they are super delicious to me right now!

errol cat is being very snuggly tonight. if he hadnt peed on my bed when he first arrived here, i'd consider letting him in to my bedroom again to keep my toes toasty. we have some training still to do. he is learning that litter box use gets him a reward. peeing next to the litter, does not.

i have a blister under the callous on my right hand from teaching some spins at pole tonight. frick! i start crossfit tomorrow and i'm going to have to use gloves so as not to make more blisters. gah!

bedtime now... i have to get up son for work. i NEVER do days... and now i have 2 weeks of them. i'm all backwards with my timing. awake when i should be asleep... asleep when i should be awake... i'll collapse in a heap when its all done... but i'll have a nice bank balance and possibly a new tattoo, if i can get around to drawing something up.

g'nite

zn:xx

Girlie pamper day at mine, sometime after the 19th of march... Who's in? Pedicures, wine and food. And decent company!

I desperately need a pedicure. And to shave my legs. Also a hair cut. Well just a trim, actually. My hair is the longest it's been in years! Woo!

I'm thinking about getting a new tattoo in a few weeks. After the craziness of the next two weeks at work (parade day and paddy's day and all the days in and around those two days!). I just have to decide what I'm going to get. It won't be big. Not this one. Maybe I'll get something on my arm or my ribs can't wait!!!