It's your journal, you can post whatever you like, luv! :hugs:

Sometimes I think back to when I was first depressed and I was just this lonely sad kid curled up on her bed crying.

Anyway, guess what? You have at least one real friend now, even if you're not around to talk to me a lot, I consider you a friend. So there.

I've been going through a very rough patch this last week or two. I'm getting better now I think. If you want to talk, PM me, okay? I miss having you around more.

A lot of us feel this way, most of us don't have the gall to post it on the internet. I have to say I have an amount of respect for you that you can be so open. I come from a German family and tradition, we ridicule each other and swallow it, which mostly results in alcoholic bouts of inanity. ANYWAY, my only advice is to keep on keeping on, one day at a time, move, move, don't stop moving, it works, I promise. You're a good man, everything will work out in the end. Also, read The Unfettered Mind by Takuan Soho. It discusses way to keep the mind moving. It really helps when your mind dwells on negative things. He's a major contributor to Zen Buddhism and Japanese swordsmanship if that makes a difference.

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