age: 29 (Mar 28, 1982)
MEMBER SINCE: April 2008
occupation: Full-on Librarian, bitches!
most humbling moment: My cat. That's it. A cat can always make you humble.
sign: A very non-Ares-like Ares.
crush: Well, my goodness. Aren't we nosy? Maybe it's you...
makes me happy: conflict, failure and rejection because it means you're actually getting somewhere.
i lost my virginity: but I should have sold it.
makes me sad: routine, that cute guy who turns out to be a Jesus freak, the chick who is totally straight, having only one cookie left...
into: nothing You're into, being contrary, weaponry, shiny things to take back to my nest, breaking men with my thighs. Figuring out the Universe.
gets me hot: I can find something hot about 90% of the people I meet that makes me pant with desire...
stats: Ha. Ask some weight-conscious tart if you want numbers. I yam what I yam.
heroes: Still looking. Hard to find someone as interesting as they appear online or on film or in music as they are in real life.
Which meant everything else in my life halted...completely.
Except, of course, the existential meltdowns. Those come like clockwork. I had a moment the other day where I was lying awake in bed and imagining the fear I will feel at the moment of my death. I could spend my whole life preparing for that moment but, unless I've been indoctrinated into some religion and have blind faith or I'm dying for someone I love (doubtful on both accounts because I don't believe in shit and I don't have a heart), I will be so afraid when the nothingness engulfs me. There is no hope for any of us- none of us get out alive. And there's nothing out there to really provide any comfort.
My best chance is to die for a cause, I think. But what? Politics and religion make no sense to me...so, I'll have to die for a non-cerebral cause, like cute shoes or a bookstore discount. Because we all end up being nothing anyway, so what's the difference? Dying for shoes is as noble as dying for a religion that is full of leaps of faith and no proof because the result is the same: you become nothing.
They will be the cutest fucking shoes on the planet, though. Fuck.
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