"3 times I made seargant
I'm not that kind of man
pretty much just as quick as I could
I'd get busted back to private again
cause taken orders never suited me
given em out was much worse
I couldn't ask them to get my freinds killed
so I took care of myself first
and I know that don't sound right
dont think too bad of me
that keeps me up nights
\what I could have done differently"

some lyrics from a band I am a huge fan of

these just happen to be in my head at the moment