I haven't been on this website in god knows how long. I wouldn't have even gave it a thought if my friend Brandon didn't say something about it last night. Well I will not be renewing my membership this year so I probably only have a few weeks left before my membership is canceled. I guess I won't miss it all that much, since I am never on here. Well its been a slice, who knows, maybe I will be back someday! <3

I'm backkk!

I got a email from Missy saying she wanted me to come back to SG

so here I am!

HOLLA!

hey. It seems that the beginning of all of my blog entries start with "I haven't written in awhile" because it takes me forever to update in here. Between this, Myspace, Live Journal, and Xanga it gets kinda hard to update everything. I mean I should just copy and paste the same journal entry everywhere. I don't have many people that read along anyways. Its moreso to vent.

I guess a lot of stuff has been going on lately. I mean everything is great with me and my wife, she is amazing as always. She has had to be here more for me lately than usual. I just had a biospy done on my cervix last friday because I have abnormal cells. Turns out I more than likely have dysplasia. Its what my doctor said but I don't think he wants to say it for sure until the test results come back, I am pretty sure that is what the case is. Having a biopsy done on your cervix isn't the most comfortable thing in the world =/ I am glad brittany was there though and I am also happy that she is mature enough to handle all of this. After the test results come back I will know whether or not they will have to freeze my cervix. I am nervous because dysplasia is closer to being cancerous than not, and especially because I am at such a young age. I am only 20 years old for gods sake. Who knows how bad it can get. I know I shouldnt worry but I can't help it. =/ This upcoming friday I also have to get a breast biopsy done for what they think is a tumor. Right now its just a "lump" I don't want them cutting into my breast but oh well. gotta do what you gotta do, right?

I will update sooner or later.

wish me luck. pray for me. do whatever you do. I need it

got a new tattoo the other day.

its my wifes name.

were forever.

I don't even really know why I am writing in here. I know that practically no one reads it. Or do you? and you just dont comment? I shouldnt have spent money on this useless site. All I do is look at pretty women all day and envy them. Maybe I could be an SG if I really tried, but now SG is bigger than ever and its harder than ever. Oh well.

Me and britt are still going strong, three months into the relationship. Never thought I could fall this hard for someone so fast. Its incredible and scary all at the same time. I just can't wait until we can move in with each other. I know what you are thinking.. three months and she is already thinking about moving in with her. I don't care, I love her and I want to spend every moment of my free time by her side. Thats all there is to it. point blank. ect.

its seven a.m. and I dont think I have been up this early in a long ass time. I should get my ass out of bed and do something productive but I am pretty sure that won't happen. I wish I could go back to bed because I feel this headache coming on.

I guess this is my update for now.

stay classy.

sometimes I feel like I am horribly obese. I know I am not that bad but there are other times that I feel like if I don't stop my lifestyle now then it will take a turn for the worst as I get older. I know everyone has their insecurities. I just need to get my ass in gear and stay motivated. I need to change the way I eat, start excercising. It will atleast make me feel better about myself because I am actually trying to do something. I am not going to become anorexic or bulimic. shit. I love food. I just need to find better stuff for me. Diabetes runs in my family and I dont need to put myself at any higher risk for it than I already am blehhh.

gosh. I can't wait until today is overwith so I can go see my baby. I hate working, I hate not being able to see her. I am so happy that next month I will have hardly any closes. praise the lord. I can't take this anymore. and these summer hours. can go to fucking hell.

on a lighter note. my tattoo is healing up nicely. so thats always good. I guess things are finally calming down around here. 6 months to go. until I can come home to my babies smile everynight <333 gah. i'm counting down the days.

holla

ashley got a new tattoo today.

booyah. and it hurt like a bitch. other than that, I have been having a great weekend hanging with my baby <33 gah. I love her so much. well im bout to go make some tacos. leave some love <333333

todays my moms birthday, and I still haven't gotten her gift yet. I will get it this weekend though.

another thing I am thinking of starting this weekend is, my chest piece. im not sure of what i want yet, but I am itching for a tattoo. Badly. I can only go so long without feeling those needles pierce my skin with beautiful colors I know its going to cost alot, but I figure hey..I'll just have to do it in bits and pieces.

I can't wait for this weekend because hopefully I will get to spend some time with Brittany. I have missed her this whole freaking week. Stupid work. stupid rules. well im outta here.