i need a cup of tea

ok so last night Alice and I went to see Motley Crue at the Manchester Apollo

Papa Roach were the support band and i thought they were pretty good
Motley Crue came on stage and their first song was Dr Feelgood, then Vince Neil anounced that they had some bad news, Tommy had a fucked up shoulder so wasnt playing with the band, his replacement was the drummer from Evanescence, i thought he did a very good job, Tommy was there and did make a couple of appearances throughout the night. there were loads of fireworks and general pyrotechnics that looked good. overall i thought the evening was very good and the Crue certainly didnt dissapoint, the show was fantastic.

I just have to say one last thing, Alice, thanks for going to the show with me last night, I Love you

i want the above pic as a tattoo

well the drum kit sold and was picked up yesterday, £75 which i dont think was a bad price, although i mniss it already i was glad it was collected the same day as it sold


i am not myself at the moment and if honest i fucking hate most of my life, i am even allienating the good thing in my life, you know when you have hold of something and its slipping this is how it feels at the moment, i dont know how to change things in my life for the better or to get back what i once had. i am not me and i have no control over anything in my life my medication doesnt seem to work like the tablets i used to be on maybe it might be time to go back to them, but then i think that perhaps after the couple of years ive been on my medication i might have become imune to them all and nothing will help me now. before i moved to Lancashire i had a break down which shook the fuck out of me and tok me ages to get through and get better, but i wonder if i am heading for another i get extremely stressed at the drop of a hat, even at work i find myself in need to cry and getting fucked off and stressed. i am finding it very hard to deal with things in general daily life, i am burrying my head in the sand every chance i get i am taking a back seat when it comes to making decisions and if i am honest i am shrinking in to my shell and refusing to deal with anything, i dont know what the fuck is going on with me or how things will end up, i want to run away and hide but know i cant

the one good thing i know is i am in love and it feels good but can i keep hold of it who knows i hope so
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time to update my blog me thinks

work this week has dragged like fuck and has been extremely hard and boring, i've not had much to do due to work undertaking its six monthly stock take.

for the past week i have had my drum kit for sale on ebay and so far it hasnt received any bids and doesnt look like it will sell, i need it to go as we dont have the room for it and i am unable to play them anymore due to my carpal tunnel syndrome in my wrists, which sucks a lot, my wrists are getting worse and restricting things i am able to do.

i keep forgetting to take my tablets which isnt good, i know i am on them for a reason and they do help but i hate having to take them everyday i hate admitting i need them and there is a problem.

I have a new music video in my collection thanks to imyourgodnow he has sent me a copy of the W.A.S.P video LIVE at the Lyceum, it was one hell of a surprise and will no doubt be played until it dies.

I am madly in love with xkillerx and i will do anything for her in life, but i do feel that i am not being 100% fair to her at the moment, i seem to be very moody and take it out on her every now and then, this is a side of me i hate and want to change for her and for me.

oh well thats enough rambling for now

this entry is just going to be a picture one im afraid

Hello everyone

so how is everyone doing?

Killer and I have just sold a couple of things on ebay, we are skint and need to get some cash, so we are selling off some things we no longer use. I am going to be selling my drum kit, i dont really want to do it and i just know i will miss it fucking loads, but i guess if i look at things logically, i dont use it that often and my fucked up wrists make it hard for me to play the thing, but i shall still miss it.

any way i must go now i need a cup of tea and need to get ready to watch the grand prix

before i go can anyone name me 5 Iron Maiden songs, sorry this time there is no choccie cake for a prize

well i still havent watched any Star Wars yet, Alice suggested we watched one of them last night but me like a light weight said i was too tired, Fuck I must be getting old!!!

I only got one vote for more naked bottom pics (Not even Killer voted.........guess shes overdosed on the real thing) so sorry no pics this time around, i can hear bashter crying now, hears a tissue dude.

I was going to write why i got fucked off at work today but i'd need to explain what i do and it's too complicated

oops I just farted!!!




thats me if anyone dares to try and wake me up (Ask Killer, she feels my wrath most nights) ever heard the phrase let sleeping dogs lie, well you should also let sleeping Zombies lie


I want to get back to doing things with my hobbies/interests but i need some serious motivation. I have also been writing a story for about fuck knows how many years but i dont seem to be able to carry it on or to continue my journal, yes i know i am one lazy fucker, so sue me.

why the fuck has some twatty knacker put in a letter to Kerrang magazine that they would like a poster of Avril Lavigne!!!!!!!!!!!?????????????????? what fucking right does she have to get her face in that mag????

Nothing else on my little mind at the moment i am way too fucking tired
Night night

don't forget your votes for pics of bottom

hey everyone

turkey for tea

can anyone tell I'm not sure what to write here today?

in my last blog i asked you to name a W.A.S.P. song thanks to those of you able to name more than one song and i must say the collection of choices were very good. The prize was going to be a huge choclate fudge cake but I'm afraid i have eaten it all in one sitting, sorry guys no choccy cake for you.

I'm craving watching the Star Wars films at the moment, i really want to watch them again. I also need to watch my Iron Maiden dvds too, i need my fix of Eddie and the boys.

Alice got a little cross and upset with me lastnight as i was tired and falling asleep so she got out of bed and came round to my side to kiss me, she got fucked for her trouble, anyway...........cant think of much else to put in here now

anyone know any good films to watch
anyone know any good bands to listen to, bear in mind my taste in music, i like Iron maiden, ozzy, slipknot, killswitch engage, metallica, megadeth, acdc, alice cooper, wednesday 13. but i am looking for some new bands to listen to can anyone name me any

bye for now dudes and dudettes

one last thing, if i get enough votes i will post more naked botom soon

we went to give it a name in Birmingham this weekend and it was great to spend time with Killer alone and away from the normal bollocks of daily life

there were a few bands that i liked and will be checking out soon, Mindless self indulgence were very entertaining and good, i did like the pink spiders although the sound quality was awful.

i am very annoyed at Killers mum and cant begin to tell you all how much she fucked me off, i cant really be arsed to give full details as i know the lovely xkillerx has given details in her blog

anyway we are back home now and the weekend is just a memory, it was a fun adventure and i am glad Al was by my side all the way, i will always do anything i can for her and although she feels she is a pain to me she really is not, i love you Killer and I will marry you one day.

ok got to cut the grass now, think I'll have a cup of tea or two first