I got this message from Jake tonight on myspace that said "Hey, I love you and I miss you so much."
Boys confuse me so...
I don't think either of us want to be apart. We just feel like it's best right now. But we can't let go.
And I refuse to let go. When I fall in love, I fall and don't get up.
Boys confuse me so...
I don't think either of us want to be apart. We just feel like it's best right now. But we can't let go.
And I refuse to let go. When I fall in love, I fall and don't get up.
[20:03] Jake<3: i feel terrible for leaving u like this chelsea
[20:03] xburlesquegrotesquex: Sweeatheart please don't
[20:03] xburlesquegrotesquex: I just want you to feel happy
[20:03] xburlesquegrotesquex: or at least as much as you can
[20:04] xburlesquegrotesquex: relieved if that works better
[20:05] Jake<3: im gonna go i dont feel good im sorry if i hurt you
[20:05] xburlesquegrotesquex: I'll miss you.
[20:05] Jake<3: i dont know if ill ever talk to u again but i will miss u so much
[20:05] xburlesquegrotesquex: I love you Jake
[20:05] Jake<3: i love you too chelsea bye beautiful
[20:06] xburlesquegrotesquex: Bye gorgeous boy....
Mutal.
But definitely over for what seems like for good....
and one day I hope we will be together again.
Physically and emotionally.
I think I'm going to go cry some more.
[20:03] xburlesquegrotesquex: Sweeatheart please don't
[20:03] xburlesquegrotesquex: I just want you to feel happy
[20:03] xburlesquegrotesquex: or at least as much as you can
[20:04] xburlesquegrotesquex: relieved if that works better
[20:05] Jake<3: im gonna go i dont feel good im sorry if i hurt you
[20:05] xburlesquegrotesquex: I'll miss you.
[20:05] Jake<3: i dont know if ill ever talk to u again but i will miss u so much
[20:05] xburlesquegrotesquex: I love you Jake
[20:05] Jake<3: i love you too chelsea bye beautiful
[20:06] xburlesquegrotesquex: Bye gorgeous boy....
Mutal.
But definitely over for what seems like for good....
and one day I hope we will be together again.
Physically and emotionally.
I think I'm going to go cry some more.
$@#%@$#%DfgtesT#$%$#Q
Fucking God I hate boys!
No offense to my lovelies out there.
I'm just fed up.
He hasn't done anything else... but I just... argh.
I don't ever TALK TO HIM
Mother fucker!
Come back to fucking Ohio God damn it!
....
Sorry... I'm rather pissed....
On the bright side, I am ordering the Fuji Finepix s9000 tomorrow and I'm super excited about that.
Fucking God I hate boys!
No offense to my lovelies out there.
I'm just fed up.
He hasn't done anything else... but I just... argh.
I don't ever TALK TO HIM
Mother fucker!
Come back to fucking Ohio God damn it!
....
Sorry... I'm rather pissed....
On the bright side, I am ordering the Fuji Finepix s9000 tomorrow and I'm super excited about that.
I shot an estimate of five rolls at the wedding - one black and white, four color. The film alone cost around $45. Eck.
So just to check I went ahead and had the B&W film developed and they are just beautiful. I was so relieved.
Now I am just scared about the color shots... haha.
Nothing going on lately. Just work and sleep mostly.
Did I ever mention I got back with Jake? I know, I know. But I can't help it. I love him too much. He made a promise the come visit as soon as he could afford it
I should of taken a nap when I got back from the wedding... ah, well.
I feel like I never get enough sleep anymore. I am always tired.
Hm.
Well - that's about it.
<3
So just to check I went ahead and had the B&W film developed and they are just beautiful. I was so relieved.
Now I am just scared about the color shots... haha.
Nothing going on lately. Just work and sleep mostly.
Did I ever mention I got back with Jake? I know, I know. But I can't help it. I love him too much. He made a promise the come visit as soon as he could afford it
I should of taken a nap when I got back from the wedding... ah, well.
I feel like I never get enough sleep anymore. I am always tired.
Hm.
Well - that's about it.
<3
Blah, back to work today after two days off.
First day off was rather well spent - new photos developed, a good show at HYAMP (local Punk venue for those of you who forgot), and Taco Bell with Tristan.
Yeah. That was pretty awesome.
Second day... nothing too exciting, but I did get to discuss further about the wedding pictures with the bride and groom.
And now... I have an hour before I need to take a shower and get ready to go to work. Then leave.
I have to close. I ALWAYS have to freaking close. And sometimes I don't even get out until 12:30am. It sucks.
But a job is a job, and there are many rare cases where you are just that excited to go to work EVERY DAY.
Speaking of work... did I mention that I've decided to go into Forensic Photography? So, yeah.
That is all.
First day off was rather well spent - new photos developed, a good show at HYAMP (local Punk venue for those of you who forgot), and Taco Bell with Tristan.
Yeah. That was pretty awesome.
Second day... nothing too exciting, but I did get to discuss further about the wedding pictures with the bride and groom.
And now... I have an hour before I need to take a shower and get ready to go to work. Then leave.
I have to close. I ALWAYS have to freaking close. And sometimes I don't even get out until 12:30am. It sucks.
But a job is a job, and there are many rare cases where you are just that excited to go to work EVERY DAY.
Speaking of work... did I mention that I've decided to go into Forensic Photography? So, yeah.
That is all.
