First off, much love to the lovelies and gentlefolk who even read these demn things... sometimes I put a lot of thought into them, sometimes not so much, but either way it's incentive for me to actually communicate since other than those rare individuals I see once a year or every 5yrs (or every 10yrs) the only regular face-to-face communication I have is with co-workers on weekdays and my spawnlings every other weekend
SO... thanks for putting up with my inanity, rantings, and whatever else has suddenly thrust itself into my brain that particular week/day/moment
anyone who has friended me on fb has seen how I'm getting annoyed with the prevalance of terrorism as well as the ignorance of many of those posting about it, so I won't delve deeply into it here - all you have to do is go online and some ignorant asshat is on an anti-muslim rampage or focusing only on Daesh/IS and ignoring the other religious atrocities that are ongoing
...there, got that out of the way...
I finally worked a recent week where I clocked in under 50hrs *whew*
things are slowing down/settling as I've gotten a little caught up and some of the recent insanity has settled...
things aren't done by any means, but I think they're a little more controlled and while they'll never reach an even keel due to the nature of the business, they'll at least be less overwhelming (for now)
In the past week I had sudden "lonely" moments of realization, where the aforementioned fact that I have virtually no face-to-face social life outside of work hit me
it never hits me "hard," as I've always been "that guy" who does things of his own accord and if people I happen to know are there, so be it, otherwise no biggie...
BUT sometimes that year or 5yrs or 10yrs seems to be a much longer time than it actually is, I admit
( I know that seems long as it is to most people whose circle of friends are either ever-present or within spitting distance, but the majority of my friends are well over 100miles away and I've seen a mere few of them once or twice the past decades
so this is "normal" for me - and it doesn't normally hit me this hard how long those periods are )
weirdly, every time I moved to larger areas - tiny town to small town, small town to mediocre town, mediocre town to big city - one would think the sheer increase in number of people would make the possibility of meeting people increase
unfortunately it's been quite the opposite... which is odd since I'm admittedly fairly unusual and the smaller the town the more "normal" the people claim/try to be and I stand out more as an "outsider"
*shrugs*
oh well and no worries
I'd say at least I haven't had strangers immediately cross the street lately when they saw me laugh/smile - but I haven't had any strangers even talk to me lately, so maybe I've seen all the people I will in this particular locale?
memoria dreams brought up some horrible remembrances regarding ex-g/fs, so that probably led to at least one of those "lonely" moments, demn it...
but, hey, I'm well aware of how my life's relationships actually work - only 4 in over 20yrs and only 1 that lasted over 40days and didn't involve cheating
so I have zero expectation of that falling into my life anytime in the next few decades ( and, no, those relationship sites I revisted have given me the same results as last time - nada, zip, zero, zilch )
I met the apartment complex's new assistant manager today, so that made me smile - she appears happy and personable... and she's very cute...
helped, of course, that I get along great with the complex manager and the introduction was pretty perfect *laughs*
( though it embarassing how she talks me up as "the perfect tenant," which I am assuredly no such thing! )
ANYways, now I'm just waiting for groceries to show and preparing for a largely quiet, empty weekend now that the weather is too cold to go for random walks
but, hey, Jessica Jones is now on netflix so I can bingewatch this weekend - I'll try to keep my expectations on the steady so I'm not disappointed, but I sincerely hope it's great :)
Farethee well for now, lovelies and gentlefolk, and keep your fuzzy selves enjoying what life has to offer and enjoy!
a week's twits ::
11/15 :
sadly I remember the days of hickies, bruises, scratches, & bite marks - as I listened to a g/f trying to explain where they came from :(
11/16 :
"[N0bama] says 'Isis,' so that's what you should say"
he also says 'affordable care act,' so I'm going with internationally used IS or ISIL
sorry, but I'm unquestionably going to side with the internat'l community over our president's b.s.- who most countries think of as a joke
11/17 :
"they were just peaceful protesters"
illegally blocking traffic on an interstate, throwing bottles and other objects at squad cars and punching officers...
I think we have a MUCH different definition of "peaceful" and understanding of protester vs criminal
when you hate-on all muslims due to IS/Daesch & 9/11 but say the xtians in CAR "aren't real [xtians]," do you aknowledge you're a dumbass?
11/18 :
Welcome to Endless Rain Day 3... bloody, endless rain - and, oh look!, when the rain finally stops the temps drop to pain temps again - yay
11/19 :
always freaks me out when the wind is blowing strong enough/t perfect angle to blow open the deck door - at least I was awake this time!
11/20 :
BWW for lunch, met new (cute!) complex assistant manager, waiting for groceries, & intend to binge-watch Jessica Jones - a'yep I'm good :)
Quote Of The Week ::
"So I tell the swamp donkey to sock it before I give her a trunky in the tradesman's entrance and have her lick me yarbles!"
watched recently :
via netflix/hulu:
Heroes: Reborn (1st Season)
Grimm (5th Season)
Game Of Thrones (4th Season)
What We Do In The Shadows
Supergirl (1st Season)
Agents Of SHIELD (3rd Season)
The Flash (2nd Season)
ownedflix:
Star Wars: Return Of The Jedi
Pixels
Disney's Descendants
Disney's Tinkerbell
X-Men: Days Of Future Past
The Mortal Instruments: City Of Bones
The Hangover: Part III
Vacation (2015)
-thom Wolfox sR Rhose
unusualist - I have yet to find a religion and/or spirituality that fits my own personal beliefs... other than, of course, the fact I am a (fallen) god.
( y'just now figured out that I'm basically a non-practicing hedonist? "if it feels good, do it, if it feels bad, you're doing it wrong" )
( "I believe in the proven power of willpower and the truth we are the gods we created. No one being created this universe and its wonders." )
( "the words of wisdom I follow will be the words I've written myself based on the life and experiences that I have Lived, Enjoyed, & Survived" )
( "I live not for tomorrow nor yesterday, but for the day in which I dwell - today. Today is who I am, I know not who I'll be tomorrow, nor am I who I once was. Aspects of yesterday may remain into tomorrow, but I'm never completely the same, for each day I live, I learn and this knowledge changes me, rebuilds part of me, and I am anew." )
( "may the platelets of justice travel the bloodstream of villainy, clog its arteries with honourable vengeance, and induce a coronary of truth" )
( "we are all inmates in the same asylum, some of us are just better at bribing the guards" / *breathe ... relax ... kill ... rinse ... repeat* )
( "Who do I think I am? thom Wolfox sR Rhose, official slaveboy, SchmooGod of the MidWest, and RedKnight of Pattern - amongst other names, why?" )
( "In a previous life I was the engine block to a '56 chevy, I lost my heart to a Volkswagen Bus... er, wait - or was that a '57?" )
( "I may not be the brightest orange in this bag o'donuts, but I know vasoline when I smell it!" / "Godfuck Me, Jesus!" )
"Just fear me, love me, do as I say, and I will be your slave..."
"Oh, man. I'm sensing something very canadian about this place..."
"It's all true, god's an astronaut, Oz is over the rainbow, and Midian is where the monsters live..."
Jax : "yay for you, do you want a cookie or a bozo button?"