I am cooking a turkey...... I have never done this before I hope it doesnt task like poo.

Well my friend said he was sorry today and so were friends again. He said that he didnt know how to act or feel because this was the first time I turned him down. Which is very true I all ways say yes to him so I can understand I threw him for a loop when I said no.

I am completely alone. My best friend the one I do everything with spend the most time with has ended our friendship. Why you may ask well its because he is selfish and I have never minded it, that's the way he is and I put up with it because he is my friend. So this is what happened Sun he txts me asking me if I got the info for one of our friends anniversary party, I told him I didn't and he asked me to go with him I had to decline because I had to finish my projects for school he said that if I didn't go then our plains to go out on Tue would be canceled I told him that was fine and now he isn't speaking to me and told me we are not friends. I think this is total bull shit. I guess we weren't as good as friends as I thought if all it takes is this one thing to end our friendship.

On a happy note my student adviser loved my projects and one of the administrator ladies looked like she was going to cry she loved them that much so that really made me feel good that I have found what I am good at and now I can run with it.

Well I'm back from my trip and I am sorry for those that live in Vagina but I hate that state I have never experienced so much poor customer service it was crazy every restaurant, store the employees were either rude or just plan incompetent. I missed California so much and am very glad to be back. But on the flip side I did get to meet some pretty cool people from all over the U.S.
I lost my ipod which makes me very sad, I had sooooo much music on it and its all gone. I had a gift bag with me on the plan ride home and I put it in my over sized purse so I could grab my luggage and the bag must have fallen out and no one turned it in and now I am out 65$ worth of souvenirs, a book, my ipod and a pack of gum I wanted to kick my own ass for not being more careful with my stuff.

Hello all... this will be my last blog for about two weeks I hop on a plain tomorrow morning to go to VA for work so I am going to make this blog count I hope you are ready.



I am a proud owner of the Puscifer CD V is for Vagina this album kicks ass. I am not one to put things eloquently so I am just going to come out and say it the album makes me want to Fuck. I was listing to it in my car and I caught myself squeezing the stirring wheel, Maynard's voice is like an aphrodisiac its crazy. So if you haven't checked it out yet you totally should. My favorite tracks are #4 Momma Sed, #5 Drunk With Power, and #6 The Undertaker. I love it when music can take a hold of you like that I use music to channel my emotions for example when I am depressed or had a bad day I pop in a Nina Simon CD and I let her deep voice and her strong vibrato melt away my pain. I channel my sexual energy threw Tool, NIN, Spider works, and Puscifer. I know I have already mentioned it but Maynard's voice so so powerful it just takes a hold of me he is my Pied Piper.



Okay now I am going to play the soap box game.

Today I was doing my running around to get some things for my trip and I went to the local book store to get a book for the plain ride (I purchased The Collected Erotica I will let you know if it is any good when I come back). So I am waiting in line to pay and the employees behind the counter are talking about this man who had past out in the parking lot and they had called the paramedics, and as I was walking out of the store the medics are there and everyone in the shopping center is standing around watching. All I could think of as I was walking to my car was what is wrong with people that we have to stare at someone else who is in need. Its bad enough that this poor man is having trouble that he collapsed in the parking lot but now he has an audience how embarrassing. And not only that his embarrassment doest stop there because all the people who saw what happened and watch the medics take care of him will be sitting around the dinner table eating talking about it, then tomorrow at work they will be telling everyone what happened. Give me a break it is so sad that we have come to, that this would be so exciting or topic of discussion at this poor mans expense. This is why I tell people I don't care if my head is cracked open and you can see my brain don't call an ambulance I will drive myself to the hospital.





Well that is all I have, take care miss me while I am gone.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!!!










Enjoy your parties and what knots. I am suppose to go to Hollywood for a party but my friend who wants me to go is going to be there before me so I will have to make the drive by myself and it will be late so I am thinking of making some excuse so I don't have to go.

Today I went to the movies I watched Saw IV, I thought it was good I cant get over the acting it is so under developed. And I would say this one was the most bloody compared to the other Saw movies. My friend said he didn't want to say he liked it because then he is sick. I told him I guess I am because I like movies like this. I love slasher films and other horror flicks I think its fun to scare yourself and a lot of them are funny. Take Nightmare on Elm Street for example, Freddy has the best one liners. I have a friend who since we were kids has been my horror movie buddy we use to rent all of the movies for like Nightmare on Elm Street, or all the Friday the 13th and if the movie rental place was out of one of the movies we would rent one of those cheesy horror movies you know the ones with like the 3d cover Uncle Sam Wants You Dead. Anyway we would stay up all night watching them it was so much fun especially since my friend gets scared very easily so in between movies during bathroom break I would hid and scare her, I loved it.

Hello all you lucky people you, Can anyone guess what famous cartoon lady said that? Well today is going famously I met with my adviser for school to change my major and it went very well I don't have to many hoops to jump threw. I was a fashion design major but I feel that going into that field boxes in my creativity so I am changing to visual communications I think it will allow me to spread my creative wings and give me more room to play. I am counting down till tomorrow night I leave for Las Vegas, friday is my B-day so I am going to live it up Vegas style. LOL

Still no sleep for me I think I am up to 3 weeks going on 4. I am glad I am finding things to do in my sleeplessness I have started to knitt a scarf I have been painting, laundry so I guess thats good right.