You know, reading all this stuff about the Harry Potter books coming out and reading comments about how reading is good and yadda yadda, it makes me feel kind of bad that I can barely even remember the last time I read a book out of my own free will for enjoyment. I've read...one book in my entire time at high school, Interview with the Vampire, that wasn't assigned to me for some English class. Is it because I hate reading? Not really. It's, and I feel horrible saying this, but it's because playing games, going out with friends, seeing a movie (often based on a book) is more interesting to me than actually sitting down and reading - whenever I try to sit down and read (and I have lots of books I would like to read) I tire of it and feel like I'm wasting my time and could be doing something else.
Now, what's so weird about that is when I was in middle school, I almost never DIDN'T have a book. Maybe it was because I had less friends, I was kind of a loner. I would go to the school library every day during break and lunch and read, because I really didn't have anyone I wanted to hang out with. I used to enjoy reading...then so many other things took over my interest. I wish it hadn't happened that way cause I feel like I'm missing out on a lot. Maybe in college I can change that...I'm going to try and change that. Then again, there are a lot of things I want to and plan on doing - let's see if they actually happen.
Read, play guitar, learn how to use Flash/other animation software...3 things I've wanted to bring myself to do for the last 4 years (guitar for a bit longer than that) and just can't seem to do it. It really does kind of make me feel bad.
And to top this off, I'm apathetic towards most political things. I haven't registered to vote yet, because truthfully, I'm not going to take the time to research each president, listen to the debates or get myself involved...so I don't feel like I'll have the decency to make a good decision. What I'll be doing instead...is sitting on the internet, playing Gamecube or some other PC game and avoiding the topic of politics almost entirely. I know I SHOULD care, it's my country, it's the laws I live under...but really, there's always gonna be money to get the hell out of here if something really pisses me off. I've always wanted to live in Japan or the UK anyway. They may not be better off, but at least I could make a choice to live there.
College is only a few weeks away...it really has gotten me thinking. I wonder how different I'm gonna be...I wonder if I will be different. The best I can do is wait and find out. I almost resent myself for living the way I do, so I'm kind of hoping I will change.
Now, what's so weird about that is when I was in middle school, I almost never DIDN'T have a book. Maybe it was because I had less friends, I was kind of a loner. I would go to the school library every day during break and lunch and read, because I really didn't have anyone I wanted to hang out with. I used to enjoy reading...then so many other things took over my interest. I wish it hadn't happened that way cause I feel like I'm missing out on a lot. Maybe in college I can change that...I'm going to try and change that. Then again, there are a lot of things I want to and plan on doing - let's see if they actually happen.
Read, play guitar, learn how to use Flash/other animation software...3 things I've wanted to bring myself to do for the last 4 years (guitar for a bit longer than that) and just can't seem to do it. It really does kind of make me feel bad.
And to top this off, I'm apathetic towards most political things. I haven't registered to vote yet, because truthfully, I'm not going to take the time to research each president, listen to the debates or get myself involved...so I don't feel like I'll have the decency to make a good decision. What I'll be doing instead...is sitting on the internet, playing Gamecube or some other PC game and avoiding the topic of politics almost entirely. I know I SHOULD care, it's my country, it's the laws I live under...but really, there's always gonna be money to get the hell out of here if something really pisses me off. I've always wanted to live in Japan or the UK anyway. They may not be better off, but at least I could make a choice to live there.
College is only a few weeks away...it really has gotten me thinking. I wonder how different I'm gonna be...I wonder if I will be different. The best I can do is wait and find out. I almost resent myself for living the way I do, so I'm kind of hoping I will change.