Yup. Signed back up. Graduated from school. Got a job to pay for my SG. Found out I wasn't graduated.

I get back to find out I've been cleaned out of several groups and not others. No offense taken, of course. I've been a light user anyway. I've gone though several phases of my life on here. Most of the people I knew best are gone but this website is my most consistent online presence. My longest record anywhere is here. It's kind of hard to leave that behind. I'm certain my grandkids, if I have them, will delight in finding it.

The power of bewbs.

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Study for the midterm tomorrow or sex. What would you choose?

For the record I support #OWS. Here's why..

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I got to hang out with Michelle Tea while a friend helped film segments from Valencia. I told her about the meaning of Lambda in engineering circles (also in HL2). She's a one-time Lambda award winner and mega nominee.

It's kind of sad to be moving away from Valencia St. I vow to return as soon as I graduate and get an artificial intelligence job. Then I'll make enough money to live in the Mission and become an art patron.

My poly girlfriend broke up with me because she is in love her trans-woman girlfriend. I think it's for the best. We're both fluid and our fluidity simply went away from each other. For me a little less queer, for her a little more as one example. So this sweet apartment is not amenable to having a roommate that you don't sleep with, and must go.

With my studying of things computational in school I haven't had time to look much, and I got a place close to GG park. I feel as though this is just one step further away from finding a rad girlfriend (there are so many candidates in the Mission!).

And my iTunes broke so my terror alert system is broken too. Also I hate Boy in Static and long walks on the beach (I'd rather hike the hills).

Also Its kind of weird to have these crushes on certain SG's over the years (since 2004 or close to) Seriously 1/2 decade long crushes? Is this a type of media disease?

I'm single and I'm only ever around college girls because I am at school all the time. Lets hope that some of them are fun to be around.

Is it me, or is "the social order" just multiplying in dimensions? More ways to be cool/uncool etc? I'm kind of getting mind blown when I look at some people's facebook page.

I don't think there is anytime outside of college (except for celebrities, reality TV bachelors, millionaires, and good men in devastated or famished communities) where an average guy like me can be the "man-prize" for which women compete.

Also under these circumstances, I know who I privilege matters.

Last time I posted that my shrink confessed to having feelings for me. I should probably elaborate lest I become branded as quixotically assigning emotions to people.

Two weeks from last Friday my therapist told me that in the session prior she realized she really cares for me. She said she couldn't remember anything we talked about but she could only remember "the feelings she felt", and that that has never happened to her before. Meanwhile I had been telling her that I thought she was attractive and that I had desire for her, thinking I could say anything.

A woman that I hooked up with since, who was also a therapist, got really turned on by the idea that I was seducing my therapist but asked me not to go through with it, because it would destroy her credibility as a therapist. I have been wondering if she is correct.

Anyway last Friday she assured me that the therapeutic relationship would remain. Still she seemed jealous and guarded when I told her about the therapist I dated, and animated when the subject was how I felt about her.

Maybe it's good..she's motivated to help me. I don't get fancy cuts but if I did I'd want to pick a stylist that I thought was attracted to me. So maybe there is a similar benefit.

Maybe it's bad ..she might be unable to remain objective. If I can't tell her about my desire for other women. That is certainly a potential problem.

All I have to say now is WTF, OMG and LOL!

How's it going? It seems like the college girls are stalking me, finding me on FB and stuff. Meanwhile I work on schoolwork like a crazed financial industry lobbyist.

I spent all night with a survivor that wanted to be seduced which was exhausting but hopefully a positive experience for her, and a good test of my limits.

Oh yeah and my therapist said, more or less, that she's in love with me. Yipekiyay!