huzzah! me download ticket arrived yesterday, i was quite fraught as i had looked at my bank ballance and had £130 more than i expected early friday morning... leading me to believe that my ticket transaction got cancled or something. but no! huzzah!

one and a half more days at work and i am free to celebrate me 25th in the best way i know how. in a field, with me mates, getting wasted. w00t i say!

oh my... i may have had a small sample of what download is going to be like... and my god these small white discs are doing me the word of 'posotive outlook' good! huzza! it may take a small ammount of narco\tics to make me feel good, but it was so, oh so worth it...

bloody internet has been all screwy for the last few days *kicks ntl* that and i've been working to much again - granted i think working at all is to much - so broke atm, 2days till i get payed, well one and a lil bit as i can get me money at midnight on thursday and luckily (?!) i finish about work about midnight as well, which will be nice.

download is so close i can taste the chemicals already...

ahhh, two days off. don't have to be in the pub. feels so god damned good.

was sober on friday for the first time in about 5 years... on a friday night that is... which was a bit odd, Q was boring as ever, just amplified a bit more. but it wasn't too bad talked to a few people i havne't talekd to in a while, and was probaly a bit more coherant than usual.

download is just over 2 weeks away. 1/2 my party bag is sorted at an extortionate price but hey, your only 25 once...

ok so maby i'm not so okay with being single. thought i was... i am generally fine being alone, you know, can do what you like, no regrets, no comitments, no nagging. been single for 3 or 4 years now, has suited me - well apart from the odd mental brekdown here and there - just fine, but recently i feel myself wanting a bit more than voluntary lonelyness, shame there is no-one i'm really intrested in - and i'm stuck in the same place due to never having a goddamn night off - not that it would matter anyhoo.

anyhoo, 60 hours so far this week, fun fun fun.

I am so in charge of the pub this week. mmm a 60 hour week... this will be fun, with a capital UN.

scarling last night were cool last night. i may have fallen asleep on the way home, woke up in amazingstoke, got a lift home, and fell asleep some more. which was nice, except the fact i hadn't done the tills at work

bit of a random night. Disco was at the pub tonight, think i may have scared her a lil (having a 6'4 drunken bloke staggering upto you and saying hi freaks most people out). thefailinglight decided to sign up tonight. i brought Jeniferever another year here. i've been talking to my ex for the last hour and i still love her to bits but that is fine and am over it. all in all it's been one goddamn odd night.

bah, stupid friday... to much coke, to much vodka. no-one to spend it with. ah well, could be worse i spose...

all in all i feel i work far to much at the pub, fucking split shifts all the goddamn time. sure it gives me money, but quite frankly it's just annoying... not like i'm gonna leave to go anywhere else though as it's a reasonably easy job that pays shit but it's bearable... jebus, too fucked, tis 8am and i should be asleep but nevemind.

too much booze this weekend... as someone said "dude, that's entering 'abuse' teritory" all i can say is, i like booze, it makes me drunk. not always a good thing though...

tho on the upside, umm... there was something...

ahh, skips, thats it. i like skips, don;t think i've had them sice i was about 7 or something, found some in the garage... as in petrol station, not my garage.

ok, so over the last 4 days i have shown far to many people my cock... somewhere around 60 i'm guessing, disturbing.

didnt end up seeing God Is An Astronaut, which i'm sure will annoy me at some point.

GIANT KINDER EGG!