At present I am feeling well and truly underwhelmed by life at the moment. Neither happy not sad, though when it does shift its usually in the direction of sad. Time is supposed to be this great healer but I'm beginning to wonder how much time will have to pass before I don't have the feelings I have. Distractions are all well and good but they are just distractions and I don't know what I need to do to get at the real heart of the matter. I guess I'm feeling a little isolated living in Southampton not really knowing anyone. A fact I'm fully away is partly my own doing but meeting people on my own has never been my strong point. I have good friends but they're spread far and wide and sometimes it would be really nice just to be able to meet up for a quick drink without having to travel so far.
linnova:
I don't know what you're feeling bummed about, but I'm sure that whatever it is, slowly you will find happiness. When I was going through a tough time, I found this quote that really stuck with me. Now I apply it to a lot of aspects of my life... "In the beginning, the waves are 100 feet tall and crash over you without mercy. They come 10 seconds apart and don't even give you time to catch your breath. All you can do is hang on and float. After a while, maybe weeks, maybe months, you'll find the waves are still 100 feet tall, but they come further apart. When they come, they still crash all over you and wipe you out. But in between, you can breathe, you can function. You never know what's going to trigger the pain. It might be a song, a picture, a street intersection, the smell of a cup of coffee. It can be just about anything...and the wave comes crashing. But in between the waves, there is life." <3
tomlowe242:
That's a really nice quote. Thank you for sharing, I can really relate to it. To be fair the waves are pretty far apart which I think is why it takes me by surprise when I find myself feeling that pain again