HOLY SHIT ITS JUNE ALREADY!!!

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yes yes i'm being brave. I thought it was a good picture.

Saturday night. OMG! so I got a little drunk off tequila and Hawaiian punch. It was so fun. I haven't gotten drunk since new years. and I don't drink that often so just a little bit gets me wasted. Three couples all drunk and 3 of them are photographers. so here we have 6 drunk people and 3 cameras. The night started with margaritas and shots and there was a drunken naked pool jump in the middle, a sudden realization that I was a slut, some pictures that didn't look so good, and the night ended with a funny as hell condom run because "someone was getting pounded!" o man. But none the less frank had gotten sick around 4 in the morning spiking a high fever and we drove home (we had stopped drinking before 1 everything was fine. trust me I would NOT drive drunk.) But it was probably the most fun I've had in a while and I needed it after the week I had. I will try to get some of those pictures because it was funny as fuck. The way I got drunk was because there was a no swearing rule. Yeah right, me not swear! It was really fuckin hard. I have a potty mouth.

So to expand on yesterday's blog "My mother sucks fat monkey ass" this is why:

I'm at work and one of my kids parents brings back the phone and says "I was told to give this to you, its your mom" So i say hello, is everything ok? thinking something is wrong with one of my family members that have cancer or heart disease. my mother says yes. I found a $51 charge on my credit card and I have 24 hours to press charges. So of course I'm very angry because she accused me of credit card fraud. I said I don't even know your credit card number. So then she says I'm not accusing you of it frank had a package sent here. (Frank is my boyfriend and the package was a cable from microsoft that I ordered and was free. The only reason that I had it delivered to her house was so that I wasnt stolen off of my front porch.) so of course I am livid now because she accusing my boyfriend of using her credit card and buying a $51 something.

I told her that if she presses charges on my boyfriend for something that he and I had nothing to do with that I would be so furious she could forget that she even had a daughter. Frank doesn't even go down to their house because he can't stand them in the first place because they're bible thumping hypocrites that constantly judge other people. The last time she even seen him for more than 2 minutes was probably months ago. Christmas?

So anyway at this point I am raising my voice over the phone to my mother in front of 1. my coworkers 2. my kids and 3. my kids parents. This is not very professional. So I say i am not talking to you about this right now good bye and hang up the phone.

Maybe instead of throwing around accusations she should ask her husband or her alcoholic 24 year old son that is still living at home and using her for a free taxi service because he lost his license for drunk driving too many times. I am thoroughly convinced that the only child of my mothers that can do anything right is my perfect brother that lives in Albany with his fiance and just graduated college. Forget that I work my ass off to live day to day and that I'm out of my parents house, have a steady job, and the same boyfriend for almost 3 years. Yeah and forget that I pay my own bills too. Fuck off.

my mother sucks fat monkey ass.

Sometimes things happen that make you so so so so stinking unbelievably mad that you think you're gonna burst and then that thing that you were mad at tells you "I love you, I'm sorry" and it all goes away just like that. It makes me think that I'm just a big pushover. But I don't hear the words I'm sorry that often so when I do it's like the cloud goes away. But then I get pissed because I rehearse this big huge speech of bitchiness that I'm gonna slam in his face and it confuses me. Do I just not have the balls to say those things or do the words I'm sorry really make it better? And then he tells me it from his point of view and it makes me even crazier because it all makes sense and I'm left as just a bitch.

oh christ. well today is over and 2 more days of work and then i get to go to a college grad party and probably will end up getting drunk even though i don't drink. But it's a good friend and he wants frank and I to have at least one drink with him. which will lead to more drinks with him... It will probably be loads of fun. I'm really bored for some reason. Anybody else?

what i do when i'm bored. photo shop!! I really need to get my camera working again so I can put up some new pictures.... soon. maybe some ass shots. haha. oh damn i lost my phone. fuck i'm such a scatter brain... and a potty mouth. oops

just don't feel like me today.

Hmm. Useless tuesday wasn't really bad this week. Omg! I have this necklace with 2 guitar pics and a treble clef on it and the chain is broken which really sucks ass. this morning i woke up and had to search for all of it and put it back together. grrr...

I absolutely love my boyfriend. He's just so amazing. After he picks me up from work today he buys me candy!! Oh man candy is the way to my heart. haha. anyway he makes my world 5,000 % better just because he's in it... I'm a poet and I don't normally let people read my stuff. but hey, I'm feeling brave today so here it is:


Never
Laying down, falling down,
Will this floor become my home?
Everything's gone, the world is so cold
I'm left here all alone
Is this how I was when you found me?
Was this what you found in the storm ?
Because you saved me
I'm here today safe and warm
The world is no longer so cold
You've destroyed the many lies
The sky is no longer dark
I can see my reflection in your eyes
The tears no longer stain my face
Your hand has picked up this heart
And gently set it into place
Hold it and love it
And guard it with your life
And I'll stay by your side forever
Because you're love is there
I will never lose you. Never.

i need more tattoos. well i just need money so i can get my next tattoos. two of these on each side of my chest.

Hi.. so it has been a couple of days since I've posted anything. sorry. Lets see... Wednesday we did a fun little trike-a-thon at work. it was cute the kids brought their bikes in and rode them around in a circle to raise money for st. Judes children's hospital.

I have made 3 trips to my parents and franks parents house in the last 3 days and if I go again within the next week it will be too soon. Friday my cousin had her baby shower. It was fun except for all the people there are the people that go to my mom's church which are all my family so they're all nosy and snotty because frank and I are living together and not married. I really can't stand all the people that are supposed to be Christians. It seems that since they go to church they believe that they can judge anyone they want. meaning me. So i am in fact a sinner because I fuck my boyfriend. Sorry if that makes me a sinner than I don't want to be anything else. Lol sorry that was probably a little bit uncalled for. But for real they get on my nerves.

So then I came home on friday and went to bed as soon as i got home. Frank had to work on saturday and I just sat home not really doing much of anything until he got home. We had to go to his parents house on saturday because his grandma is up from philly so we went down to see her. which wouldn't normally matter but with gas being $4 a gallon it kinda sucked that we live farther away from our parents. Not that I would want to live any closer. so we went down and had loads of fun. haha. And once again made the treck back home just to go back down on sunday.

Sunday we had a family barbeque at franks parents house. I was fun. I made some delightful taco dip that I wish I had some of right now. But something was wrong with franks mom. She was upset about something. I dunno. I have been cleaning since I got up at 5:30 this morning. For some reason I can't sleep past 5-ish. And if I do I get really bad head aches. I dunno. I'm gonna go continue walking around the house with no pants on. have a Happy Memorial day!

So I am thoroughly convinced that Tuesday is the most useless day of the week. Allow me to explain: You have Monday, It's the first day of the work week so you have to have the first gloomy day of the week. Wednesday, it's the middle of the week woohoo the half way mark. Thursday, the day before Friday. Friday, enough said. And the weekend is just the weekend. But Tuesday is stuck right there for no apparent reason whatsoever.

There. Thats my Tuesday rant. Haha.

I got the crap beat out of me by a 4 year old today. He called me a Bitch, slapped me and kicked me. Oh man I had to count to ten quite a few times before I could calm down. He made me quite angry. But I guess it comes with the territory of being a daycare teacher...

Frank got his XBOX 360 Elite yesterday. It's pretty all black matches my living room.

Well I'm gonna go spend some time with his sexy ass...

Adios!