I think soon I shall be posting more drawings and such on here, I just get on so late I barely feel like writing though i think apart from beautiful girls there are smart ones and you can't turn me on with out being all smart or at least I won't treat you like a human lol

Been lately having pretty good days. had a movie night and watched eyes with out a face. Which is an intense movie. We would have watched more but we went out and drived about went to some dude venue and left with the quickness. while in the car I took my friends guitar and played songs, knew no requests lol I would be like I know a dylan song, ok do you want a niel young song or leonard cohen? don't like leonard cohen. why cause you have not heard of him or don't like him. never heard of him. played danced me to the end of love and that was alright.

I also played daniel johnston though my friend was like I hate him. I thought it was the usual I hate his voice shit or like his songs but sung by others and I lied and was like I sing better then him, I realized later she confused daniel with that jerk jack johnson or what ever his fuck face name is. My friend loved it. as we drove my friend asked for some thing and I was singing loudly and proudly as usual she went for the knob on the radio and laughed and said I was trying to turn the music down it was funny and cute.

I'm starting to talk to her so much more but I am always affaird I am too much for people because I am for most and my speed is mother fucking quick. I talked to her about a few things and she's like I am impressed at how well you know you're self. she was trying to get me drunk which worked and I was like do I become faster only I'm fearlessly fast and don't care that most can't keep up (which sober I am a speed demon imagine faster and more intense) we are both such film nerds and I'm glad I'm having some one nice to talk to, but I'm starting to like her may be? well I am. but she had a break up but seems over him because she was like I tried breaking upo monbths ago and wanted to lol. not that I asked she told a friend of mine and I was attentive to the detail.

Also trying to make time for messages and friends and a little flirting her lol. and posting some art work later on. I bought my self an album that has Penn jillette playing music and billy west (from Ren and stimpy ) I mean come on who wouldn't be icurious to listen.

spent some of my day playing snes classics like home alone and joe and mac

Well tomarrow I'll write to some girls tell some one they have nice tits or some thing lol or give them a VAg pat ( look it up on urban dictionary its the funniest shit ever alomg with dick offset)

so after masterbating, I looked out my window and out there was a women in her undies and a long t shirt on, like 6 cop cars and a fire emgency truck passed by and I watched and watched never found out what happened lol but it was defintely weird

I don't think any one will get that my head line is a from a skit from the state lol that i like i hate the song

I often wonder what people really consider as punk cause I'm a dorkasaurs and well I can't settle for the popular punks, though I think I like more of an attitude and DIY then any thing. I mean I liked green day can still listen to them if you don't pass certain albums but I like Fugazi and thinking fellers union local 282 (which weren't punk but a weird san franisco band) seems some times people are into umm pop punk or the same bands :/ though hey theres a good group with towns van zandt all over it, not punk but good passion. I can't bare a life with out a dinosaur jr. though some people here seem really cool and like my type. even the dudes seem cool, which makes me want to take out all the sex crap from here cause it's always weird I don't want to come off as a creep I just want to have some one to talk about what we enjoy umm that isn't a guy lol, some one once told me I can write erotic novels obviously not apparent since I'm being all nerdy and shit.

there never enough room to talk about the music i like and why. I really want to met more people with their music game on here, people who like no wave post punk slint, contortions , gang of four , this heat, june of 44, rodan, birthday party, deer hoof, may be some one from fl or nj that'd be nice too

well today I decided to break my little shield from some one and tell her I missed her, she said she missed me too but was going to sleep and to text her tomarrow. I go On face book and there she is making me feel stupid that i told her I missed her :/ I should have disappeared for a month instead it was a week but its hard when you talk to a person like every day when you loved them and thought well what if I wouldn't lol. she said she couldn't talk too me a week ago cause of drama and that she'd text me in a few days which was the next day. instead of a sorry or some thing i got a how was your flight I didn't answer.

We wenet from close friends and loves to close friends and now like causal friends and I need to keep my distance cause when i need to be cuddly she isn't but if she needs to I am. she's been through a lot but I think it pisses me off that she says what she liked was our friendship though she got jealous when i talked about other girls and one time like a sly fuck I got her jealous with her self to show her she has value, she's actually one of the sweetest girls I know. but again it pisses me off the girl spent 3 years with a fat ugly fuck who did some fuck up shit to her that I considered hurting this son of a bitch real bad for. and me who is actually not fat cute and she tells me so and the best cuddler from what she says and best massages not even a month.

I miss her as a friend too though, we were friends for a good while but I'm not over her and some times may be she doen;'t help.

I thinlk I'm mad my week was great i know hers was a bit aweful and i let myself miss her and my heart was pounding a bit as I asked my self should i can I? will I handle it and I'm not sure if she slept or not but it seemed not

SO I just made my profile. probably should edit it so it does not sound crazy. I actually decided to put my dumb Mug on this site, may be get that I'm cute or some thing, yes, Men like hearing that too. though lately i've been told a few times. But you know when you know few art kids and you're weird to every one else they star or call you out. like the past two days I was walking around florida not a walking place cause you need a car for every thing but theres a shooping center across the street. and two days in a row some lame car passes by calling me a Faggot. unless there're trying to say that I might look like alan Ginsberg I don't think they are correct, though I am more like a lesbian ( a girl who likes girls ) mainly cause I like riot grrl and probably kmow too much about feminism to be macho or cause i have some what of a soft side and I'm kind but you know don't step all over me, I do have a back bone. Any way I don't live in Brooklyn or clifton Ohio where people are nicer and brighter into art and films and you have a higher rate of meeting awesome people. (ohio is less hipstery or pretenous and the people are way more kinder)

So my hopes are to find friends make be flirt. rarely are there cool girls with tattoos cool colored hair and when they are some times they seem they are not appricated yet here is a whole site. like a jean sebeger buffet or some thing.

I feel some times i don't look "rock" enough, but I am totally into art love tattoos but have none. I think I like them better on others and thought about being a tattoo artist. I only posted a few drawings due to the fact that they didn't save right to be posted up from my facebook here, but here's to tomarrow.

I expect to find art lovers and film lovers and music and passionate people to be friends with and to love a little too.