the lonley angle

if i can change one thing about my self i guess i would be to not be a lonner. ive been like this sence i was a kid. i really dont like a lot of people i find myself pushing them away for my own selfish reasons. a wise man said to live honestly is to live selfishly. what do i want? i guess i want love... but not ordinary love i want a friend who knows and accept me for who i am... idk anymore i sound all emo hahah. but on the bright side of things being alone has tought me that i dont love the sound of my voice id rather hear whats going on around me that way i learn from others. i am very wise besause of this its just that i also dont really know how to talk to people well i guess im just growing old and its getting old