Nice to come back and most folks are still here. Of course, it's a given that all of the ladies are freakin' gorgeous and are absolute gems. Where the hell did Rys go?

Wow. It's been 2 years since last I was here. I guess all of my old friends have moved on. I hope things have gone well for you all.

Down

Falling,
through the folds of despair
Clawing for a hand-hold
Clutching only the air

Minutes turn into hours,
which turns into years
My sanity, I question
Blink back the tears

My solid Soul would keep me still
An anchor in this wretched squall
The piece of my soul that you've stolen,
condemns me to fall

Mood

Clench your teeth,
ball a fist.
Not sure why,
you're so fuckin' pissed.

Isolation.....
is what you crave.
Though, Reality says
it's only in the grave.

Take a deep breath
and count to 5.
Your health is fine
and you're alive.
Some souls depend on you;
don't ever forget it.
Kill this mood,
bit by grisly bit.

Rush

Your mind's eye reflects
the world around.
From the spinning night's sky,
to the depths of the ground.
Your shadowed quest is spotted
as you swiftly travel.
The inner demons lash at you
and you start to unravel.
A shake of the head,
once, then twice.
A surge of adrenaline,
seems as your body's vice.
Fighting through it all, you make it through.
Industrial Hell it is,
yet some call it "Work" too.

Ever have something very sad and negative to say to someone who you care about? For almost 2 weeks, I've pondered how I was going to approach this person. Feels like I've bottled up a ton of crap and it's killing me. I'm forced to act different around this person, despite how I feel inside. I hate being freakin' phoney too.....makes me such the hypocrite since I hate fake-ass people.

BTW, someone asked what I was doing in my pic....I was draining the main vein...so to speak (yes...left handed too).

Day 23.....I've almost run out of food and my water supply seems to be tainted. Help will arrive soon, I'm sure of it.