All of those...
Jennifer L, David G, David L, Linda B, Phil K, Rich M, Dodson C
All of these people touched my life. All of them loved me in their own way. All of them made me a better person. All of them taught me something about life and myself. All of them are gone.
There are times in my life that I have a hard time understanding what to do next. Today is one of those times. I lost another friend. Someone that I loved and cared about isn't here anymore. I will never get to hear them laugh again never get to tell them what they really meant to me, never get to return the things that they have given me. And at the moment I'm kinda lost.
I'm sitting here remembering the different things about my friend that made them so special to the people around them, like myself. I'm thinking that the line "they will always be with you, in your heart" fucking sucks cause that's whats hurt, my heart. But then I think about the other people that I love and those that love me. I think that they are still here. That they would take away my pain if they could. That they still have things to teach me. They still have this person to help improve upon.
I still have two parents that have taught me more about life through their own mistakes than their triumphs. I still have a sister that knows more than almost anyone about me and has never once refused me anything. I still have my wife, who has been the solid ground that I have stood on more times than even she knows. And they have me.
They have me to be the solid ground and the shoulder and the mistake maker/teacher. They have me to give love to and receive love from. They HAVE me. Yes, I'm hurting, and hurting a lot today but that's ok. Because the only reason that I hurt is because someone allowed me to have them, at least in part, and they had me in return, and nothing can ever take that away from me. Thank God for what we have, even after its gone.
I love you David, you will be missed.
Jennifer L, David G, David L, Linda B, Phil K, Rich M, Dodson C
All of these people touched my life. All of them loved me in their own way. All of them made me a better person. All of them taught me something about life and myself. All of them are gone.
There are times in my life that I have a hard time understanding what to do next. Today is one of those times. I lost another friend. Someone that I loved and cared about isn't here anymore. I will never get to hear them laugh again never get to tell them what they really meant to me, never get to return the things that they have given me. And at the moment I'm kinda lost.
I'm sitting here remembering the different things about my friend that made them so special to the people around them, like myself. I'm thinking that the line "they will always be with you, in your heart" fucking sucks cause that's whats hurt, my heart. But then I think about the other people that I love and those that love me. I think that they are still here. That they would take away my pain if they could. That they still have things to teach me. They still have this person to help improve upon.
I still have two parents that have taught me more about life through their own mistakes than their triumphs. I still have a sister that knows more than almost anyone about me and has never once refused me anything. I still have my wife, who has been the solid ground that I have stood on more times than even she knows. And they have me.
They have me to be the solid ground and the shoulder and the mistake maker/teacher. They have me to give love to and receive love from. They HAVE me. Yes, I'm hurting, and hurting a lot today but that's ok. Because the only reason that I hurt is because someone allowed me to have them, at least in part, and they had me in return, and nothing can ever take that away from me. Thank God for what we have, even after its gone.
I love you David, you will be missed.
I am so sorry to hear about your loss as well.......And I'm so sorry that you are dealing with all of this right now...my thoughts are with you and I wish you nothing but peace. I also wanted to clarify my blog: I posted the video just as a joke and there is one for the DNC a well (Democratic National Convention). Just go to you tube and look up DNC in a minute. That being said, I feel that all sides of the issues are welcome, and I don't encourage or discourage folks---rather I provide information. I hope we can agree to disagree....
Haha! That sounds like my parents. Small things like keeping a house tidy and how to relate to kids rather than big mistakes like being a methhead or robbing a petrol station. Whenever they do something that bothers me, I just think, I am not going to be like that when I'm older, those crazy loons!
I never stopped missing the people I lost. After awhile it isn't as bad as it was. But it still sucks. I read The Lovely Bones, and I really wish that Heaven exists and its exactly like how it is in the book, or better. I don't understand the point in people dying, but I guess its not their fault. Stupid death.