I know I sound like an old man, but even though it's early, I really should be in bed. Since I will be getting up at 4 am to go to work tomorrow. But I'm not tired since I slept in til nearly 2 today. Oh well, who needs sleep anyway? haha. On a good note, I finally broke down and bought a legitimate camera so I can start doing some photography work. It's always been a hobby, but now I can actually start printing some of the pics! I bought a Nikon D5000 with several accessories, $1500 later, I got to leave the store. I doubt that I'll ever be good enough to sell any pics, but it's something that makes me happy, so why not? Anyway, off to bed for me, hope all is well with anyone who reads this.

So, you may start to see a trend in my blogging the longer I am a member. This blog def gives me a place to vent about girls, and any advice you want to give is always welcomed. I've never had any problem getting women, and no, by no means to I lie or manipulate. And to some extent, this is where the problem lies. You see, I tend to wear my emotions on my sleeve, and let everyone know what I feel, even if it is not what they want to hear. I was primarily raised by my mother and 3 older sisters, so it has been instilled in me that under no circumstances should I harm a women physically or mentally. However, due to my upbringing, I have a problem. I love women, and no I'm not saying I'm gay or anything, I'm saying that I fall in love with every women that I am intimate with. I know it sounds bad, but it bothers me. It causes me a lot of undue stress, especially when I know that it's going no where from the start. However, there is on instance that differs from this. There is a girl whom I have been friends with for several years now. We have never had sex, but I can say without a doubt, that she is the only girl I have been completely head over heals in love with. I have shared details of my life with her that no one else knows. I have never felt that comfortable with anyone in my life. And we have amazing chemistry together. We were out once, and the store clerk asked if we were newlyweds because of the way we acted together. But every time a semblance of an idea arises about us dating, she freaks out and it typically ends in a fight. She says that she doesn't want to ruin our friendship. She has even gone so far as to try and set me up with her friends so she'll have a valid excuse. But I refuse to do so. Now tell me, what better things than friendship and apparent chemistry to start a relationship on? Oh, and the icing on the cake. My job requires me to travel for long periods of time. So last night she texts me and we are chatting when she tells me that she is tired of being single and that she wants me to come home. I told her that I wouldn't be able to come home for at least another month and that we would talk about "us" when I got back. Then this evening, I get a message from her saying that she wasn't sure how what she said made me thing that she wanted to be in a relationship. And her reason for sending it to me was to confide in me as a friend, and it was the fact that she was drinking is why she didn't state that. So instead of instigating yet another fight, I just told her to forget about it and to stop confiding in me with things that could be mistaken. But what the fuck do I know? I do know that this blog is becoming entirely too long, so I'm not going to proof read it for errors and omissions. So you will have to forgive me, and if you have any thoughts on the matter please let me know.


-Dave

So, I just wanted to share something that scared the shit out of me yesterday. I was lucky that I didn't lose my job. Where I work, we have an over abundant amount of security. Everyday I go to work, I am subject to having a random vehicle search. They are checking for weapons, explosives, drugs, and alcohol. The rules are so drastic that they can fire you for having empty alcohol containers in your vehicle. So, naturally, I occasionally check and make sure that I don't have anything in my truck. But yesterday, when I went in, I was randomly checked, and the security guard found an empty beer can under my seat. He told me that he found it and he had put it back, and that I needed to throw it out ASAP and let me in. If my superiors find out about it, we would both get fired. It scared the hell out of me because even though I hate my job most of the time, the money is freakin' amazing. I've become accustomed to my expensive lifestyle and I really don't want to give it up. That is the first time I've come close to losing my job, I've even told a few of my superiors to go fuck themselves! And I wasn't a bit concerned about being fired. But it's all good now. So I had to celebrate last night and go out and get wasted! And now I'm hungover

It's been a while since I've written anything. Sometimes I just feel the need to disappear off the grid, you know, no internet and no cell phones, just to make sure that I'm not completely addicted to 'em. However, today I found out that I have to go to Phoenix for the next 4 months! Unfortunately it's for work, which won't leave me with much free time to have fun. It will be nice to spend the winter in a warmer climate. But I will miss the snow. Anyway, besides the stress of the last minute phone call, I am really excited to go. I will have some free time to fill, so if anybody knows any clubs and bars, let me know! I'm always looking for new places to go!

So today this girl I used to mess around with stopped by my place today. I just recently moved and I don't remember giving her my address, so I have no idea how she found me. I guess I'll hafta interrogate our mutual friends...lol. But anyway, a lil back story here. Her and I have been messing around for the past several years. When we met, she had a boyfriend, but wasn't very loyal, if you hadn't already guessed. About a 6 months ago, she finally told her bf that she had been cheating on him. He, like any intelligent human, broke it off with her. After doing so, she didn't want to speak to me. Recently, they got back together, and now I get calls from her a few times a week. Seriously, what the fuck is going on with her? I would appreciate feedback from some of the girls on here. Since I am a man of questionable morals, I rarely tell her no. But I would like to get some insight as to why she feels the need to cheat.