Duh, wtf....I am seriously getting pissed. I have wanted to be a Suicide Girl for so long and have the chance to finally get a hopefuls set up, but here comes my mom being the voice of reason and telling me that I shouldn't do it and it's against God and everything he has planned for me and that he's not going to protect me anymore if I do this shoot. WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?! It's not like I'm going to stop believing in God and stop reading the bible. I'm just getting more and more pissed and I knew I should have never told her about this damn thing in the first place! I am 24 years old and can make my own choices. I'm sure there are plenty of SG's on here that believe in God and go to church and still do their shoots! It's driving me insane because I was so excited and happy for this opportunity and now she has me all depressed and feeling like shit about it! Fuck my life! I really feel like I could just jump off a bridge right now and completely be ok with that. Now I'm unsure about what I want to do and I have always been sure of the Suicide Girls. I am going to be a youth leader at the church and if the kids found out I was doing this I'm sure they'd be like, wtf? I thought you were like, good and shit and then they see this pop up somewhere and feel like I'm the biggest hypocrite ever. FFFFFFUUUUUUUCCCCCKKKKKK!!!!!!!