sore throat

taking all defense support

go go "airborne" concoctions
go go vitamin c with rose hips
go go halls defense with vitamin c, echinacea and zinc lozenges
go go triple echinacea green tea

i can't get sick!

finals this week!

papers due!

so much to take care of!

got an internship at a production company in litchfield, ct

i'm going to be their bitch spring semester 2006
it's a quaint house in the backwoods
there was a gerbil in a ball running around the entire time
it kept crashing into my boots, it was weird
whatever, they have cats too
and a german shephard that got mud on my dress pants

so i'll be helping out on a film about dyslexia
logging and capturing DV and beta
updating the website, getting coffee
i'm one of what sounds like 4 other interns

it feels good to do something that gets you closer
to your ultimate goal
hopefully by june 2006 i'll be in orlando, fl
and working for a production company there
editing video, website bullshit, whatever
contributing to society

being home can rock,
unless you are in my actual town
how can it be that in such a small town
you can never come across the people you want

i heard your voice today, just as i remember it
but it wasn't my answering machine
and i couldn't pick it up
it was painful to know you were right there
for me to talk to
and i couldn't do shit about it
it's been over a year
but hearing you, seems like just yesterday
i can't seem to shake your ghost

in my town
there's sketchy old fucks in a smoky room
consuming dirty dust and cheap beer
spouting rambling useless tales
no amount of drunk could make me feel at home
in my own town

being home rocks.
drinking with the boys who i adore!
if there's a band to look out for it's ONCE BELOVED
their CD should come out in jan or feb 2006
and it is fucking sick
adam d of killswitch engage produced it
and my boy tyler, brother of joel in killswitch is guitar
other guitar is my beloved ex phil
sooooo good! i'm so impressed.
and i'm drunk
from drinking with them
western mass, it's good to be home....
for a couple days.

edited to add:
eating stovetop at 3 am while drunk is the BEST

finally good things are starting to happen!!!

got a call from the production company about an internship
they seem interested, my interview is next tuesday
AND
my friend FOUND MY KEYS!!!!
see, i knew i wasn't that bad of a drunken idiot!!
a broken ass armchair at my friend's apartment ATE THEM
seriously, i checked that thing twice
WITH A FLASHLIGHT
today it decided to shit my keys out
which is awesome cause i was just about to report
and get my locks changed, $200 saved
ALSO
the japanese twins are probably coming to my
THANKSGIVING DINNER
it's going to be the best thanksgiving ever if they come!
ADDITIONALLY
the hot russian kid in my digital class talked to me
sure, it was about the movie Madagascar...
but damn that kid is hot, i'll take it.

it's weird when people you hardly know
express that they've had a crush on you for years
sure they're drunk as hell
but it's weird.
not bad weird.
just.
weird.

so, i've been eating right and exercizing
and my TITS ARE DISAPPEARING!!!!
things are looking trimmer, but no pounds lost
and my TITS ARE DISAPPEARING!!!!

come back tits.
not that i had much to start with.

lost my keys and my ID card.
fuck.
stupid drunk me.
$200 to get a new set of keys.
college is fucking stupid.

so much to think about, and no time to do them.
eating right is such a chore.
schoolwork gets in the way of my art work.
this might be the last few months i spend with so many people.
but i want to keep my position in honors.

Italy in one month, three weeks, and one day

ow fucking cramps ow fuck.

favorite product slogan of the moment:
"children's pink, it does more than you think."

it's for children's pepto... but i feel like it'll drive pedophile's wild.