dont really know who reads blogs but i have to get a bit off my chest

sometimes i feel as if i am the last
last of all my friends and family to get married still hasn't happened for me
last to know she was leaving me for someone else
last to know she was already sleeping with someone weeks before she left
last to get an invitation
be it family gatherings parties with friends weddings

the one that bothered me the most is i was the last to find out that a former girlfriend
had passed more than a year before

i know that i bring it upon myself as far as family goes
but its beginning to put me into a bit of a funk
or maybe a depression
i just don't really want to be around anyone anymore

do they make a pill to cure me of whatever it is that makes me so forgettable?
or perhaps a magical elixir that can give people more respect for feelings?

enough for now
i feel a bit better