my arm is in a cast and its throbbing...aching....it comes off next week so its not a fucking big deal....but its got me thinking..sitting here, the lonely bug creep creep creeping down my body..into my body....i think my heart could of used a cast....i should of been able to go the doctor and have it set....a solid shield with written instructions on its care....i thought i had it all figured out....then whoop there it is....and im dropping it like its hot. (how many song lyrics can i use in one blog as metaphors of my life)......
oooo...whiny lil me.....its early morning and i havent slept which is really not unusual for me and i have this art project in my head, i have this song in my head, i have this costume in my head, this drawing these words and i want to create something better, something beautiful but my wrist hurts and i dont know where to start and where all of this ends. .....


i want burning man. i want to go out for coffee with my friend in sf and ramble about our silly lives til we are blue in the face.....i want peaceclaritylovecreativitysexfirepassioncalm.