now it is really late ! it s 2L48 in the morning . A long time ago i used to work nights subconsciously i am nocternal.
being bit b a vampire hooker at a party helps to . lol ( i wsh !) i just finished watching sme episodes of black butler on netflix . no matter how old you are your never to old for anime . I am a huge fan of fiction and fantasy. Anime has a shitload of it . This time i did not get to go any were or do anything . I was at barnes and nobles the other day.
saw a map of st fransisco . I love sf so i think that next time i go to barnes and nobles i will buy the map . I mailed all the paper work for my ca state private investigators license . I really hope they take it . They asked for a w-2 a certificate of arson investigator and a list of cases . What else more can they ask for ? A previous employer vouched for me isn't that enough ?
am so not looking forward to taking the test either 150 questions !!! HELP ME !!! i mailed the package on thursday so i will know in a few days what my fate will be . I don't really have a lot to say . I have not done anything extrordinary since my last blog . I was sad coming home , There was a huge mess for me to clean . I suppose that now at least part of the stress is over . I was SO stressed out about getting the w-2 form signed . I am very happy that is over.
I don't know how many people know this but i had a book published and i can say with certainty , I AM OUT OF THE WRITING BUSINESS !!!!! i got a few publishers calling me and i pretended to be some one else ! i am out and out for good !!! I also own a porn site I hope i can get members on that site that would really help . can tell the seasons are changing . We are now starting to use the heater and it is raining . Winter is now here and is in full force ! i hate hot weather !!!!! I now finally have another testemonial ! i have two ! yes my numbers of testemonials has doubled yay for me !
being bit b a vampire hooker at a party helps to . lol ( i wsh !) i just finished watching sme episodes of black butler on netflix . no matter how old you are your never to old for anime . I am a huge fan of fiction and fantasy. Anime has a shitload of it . This time i did not get to go any were or do anything . I was at barnes and nobles the other day.
saw a map of st fransisco . I love sf so i think that next time i go to barnes and nobles i will buy the map . I mailed all the paper work for my ca state private investigators license . I really hope they take it . They asked for a w-2 a certificate of arson investigator and a list of cases . What else more can they ask for ? A previous employer vouched for me isn't that enough ?
am so not looking forward to taking the test either 150 questions !!! HELP ME !!! i mailed the package on thursday so i will know in a few days what my fate will be . I don't really have a lot to say . I have not done anything extrordinary since my last blog . I was sad coming home , There was a huge mess for me to clean . I suppose that now at least part of the stress is over . I was SO stressed out about getting the w-2 form signed . I am very happy that is over.
I don't know how many people know this but i had a book published and i can say with certainty , I AM OUT OF THE WRITING BUSINESS !!!!! i got a few publishers calling me and i pretended to be some one else ! i am out and out for good !!! I also own a porn site I hope i can get members on that site that would really help . can tell the seasons are changing . We are now starting to use the heater and it is raining . Winter is now here and is in full force ! i hate hot weather !!!!! I now finally have another testemonial ! i have two ! yes my numbers of testemonials has doubled yay for me !
Ok it is late . I did not know weather or not i was even going to do an update . I just came back from a well needed trip !!!!I so fucking needed to get away i so fucking needed a distraction ! I went down to the bay area . First I went down to paolo alto . I was visiting a friends sister who i am very close too and one of her friends .
They both go to stanford and they had a football game against washington . It was their home coming and believe me it was FUCKING PACKED !!!!! i am talking about bumper to bumperstop and go traffic down university road . When we got there there were people from all over the fucking country !!!! a shit load of alumni ! They all had there jerseys on they were having a picnic it was crazy . We picked up the girls and we went to a french rrestarant . After that we went to the WORST FUCKING concert EVER !!!!!!!!
It was an outdoors concert , there were no seats left we had to sit on the fucking ground . I am not royalty but i am too cool to sit on the ground during a concert . I attend a concert i expect there to be seating available . But this is the bay area and you know what that means ? YES POTHEADS EVERY WERE !!!!!!! i never touch the stuff i don't like it around me there were clouds all over . The concert fucking sucked but i was relieved when it was over. And it was for the bridge school .
Today we went to san fransisco and we went on a hikking rtrail near the beach . That was fun !!! so over all i had a great time but last fucking time i ever go to an outdoors concert .
They both go to stanford and they had a football game against washington . It was their home coming and believe me it was FUCKING PACKED !!!!! i am talking about bumper to bumperstop and go traffic down university road . When we got there there were people from all over the fucking country !!!! a shit load of alumni ! They all had there jerseys on they were having a picnic it was crazy . We picked up the girls and we went to a french rrestarant . After that we went to the WORST FUCKING concert EVER !!!!!!!!
It was an outdoors concert , there were no seats left we had to sit on the fucking ground . I am not royalty but i am too cool to sit on the ground during a concert . I attend a concert i expect there to be seating available . But this is the bay area and you know what that means ? YES POTHEADS EVERY WERE !!!!!!! i never touch the stuff i don't like it around me there were clouds all over . The concert fucking sucked but i was relieved when it was over. And it was for the bridge school .
Today we went to san fransisco and we went on a hikking rtrail near the beach . That was fun !!! so over all i had a great time but last fucking time i ever go to an outdoors concert .
Ok , uh maybe i should write blogs more often . It used to be one every week but then i would read them and i figured that they were not long enogh so now i write one every two weeks .Last wedesday was my birthday . I did not really do anything specail or crazy . I just spet a night with a proffessional women . I ride with professional women from time to time . Weather or not that is moral or ethical is up for debate . I personally don't think there is anything wrong with doing that . But i guess people have different opinions .
I saw the movie contagion . I have to say big waste of time and big waste of money . I was waiting for the movie to be over shortly after it started . One thing that gets me was it mentioned h1n1 . THe whole swine flew scare and how it raised peopl's fear for nothing . If there was one thing i already knew from the movie . was the importance of washing hands . YES washing hands is important so we do not start a plague that wipes out a significant number of the population . That is a very important lesson .
I changed the way i feel about birthdays . t used to be something i really looked forward too , Now it does not even matter . I had this party but it was not much . My present was a much needed and appreciated gps . I hate getting lost i really,really do . I am trying to get my new hersy private detective license and i need 5 signatures to show that i have the moral competency to be licensed as a private detective . Over ther it goes through the state police . I read in yahoo news that the people in italiy threw trash at the cast of jersey shore . I guess ilalians know trash when they see it .
WHat i can't get around is the fact that they rreleased amand knox . They released a murderere . I don't care what any one else says or thinks she is guilty and they just let a murderer out !!! Dna is easy to get rid off all it took is some bleach . I saw that once on a tv show . This women in arkansas she was convicted of kililng her husband with a hammer . Naturally her friends and family did not believe she did it . People would be surprised what the people they know are capable of doing .
I saw the movie contagion . I have to say big waste of time and big waste of money . I was waiting for the movie to be over shortly after it started . One thing that gets me was it mentioned h1n1 . THe whole swine flew scare and how it raised peopl's fear for nothing . If there was one thing i already knew from the movie . was the importance of washing hands . YES washing hands is important so we do not start a plague that wipes out a significant number of the population . That is a very important lesson .
I changed the way i feel about birthdays . t used to be something i really looked forward too , Now it does not even matter . I had this party but it was not much . My present was a much needed and appreciated gps . I hate getting lost i really,really do . I am trying to get my new hersy private detective license and i need 5 signatures to show that i have the moral competency to be licensed as a private detective . Over ther it goes through the state police . I read in yahoo news that the people in italiy threw trash at the cast of jersey shore . I guess ilalians know trash when they see it .
WHat i can't get around is the fact that they rreleased amand knox . They released a murderere . I don't care what any one else says or thinks she is guilty and they just let a murderer out !!! Dna is easy to get rid off all it took is some bleach . I saw that once on a tv show . This women in arkansas she was convicted of kililng her husband with a hammer . Naturally her friends and family did not believe she did it . People would be surprised what the people they know are capable of doing .
time for a new blog and this time things have been happening . So much i don't know where exactly to begin. First of all i can not log into my twitter account any more . I forgot my password and for some reason the captchas i keep typing do not seem to be working . I hate fucking HATE captchas !!!!!!! i want to scream every time i see one ! On a plus side my website is back up and running my website http://www.worldamatuerporn.com . but be warned that site is NOT like sg !!!!! it is a hard site !
Psyche wrote in her blog that penetration sites are not allowed ! i think they should be allowed !!! i personally would love to post some my self . I really wish that lorelei would be an official sg photographer again ! she totally deserves it ! there was a time when i wanted to be an sg photographer myself but i quickly changed my mind !!!
I don't think i can take the rejection or take all the hard work . on the negative side my private investigators license application was fucking rejected ! it says experience with an investigation agency counts as experience and that is what i fucking did !!!! i can appeal this i am going to fucking appeal this even though you can still FULLY operate as ine without a license if you have a business license corperation license or are employed by one it is still a good way to protect yourself .
I hear this bullshit line " life is what you make of it " I fucking hate that statement !!!! There is so much bull shit that goes on that you have no control over so many times people go through the " now what do i do " it makes me want to say shut up ! every time i hear that statement . I try to staiy neutral in most situations . I find that staying neutral and controling your emotions helps you think . I think ok i have an out of state license . if i can get a second state license from jersy , five years documented investigative experience back round test NO state exam a letter from my employer that will help
I also thought about using my porn site to help me get into the bail bonds industry . i was chased away by an incompetent boss who did not give a shit about his business ! he was reckless care less and unreliable . he would tell me be at the office at 6 pm . i arrived at 6 pm and waited and waited for him he would not show up !!! that is a problem because that business is associated with putting bad people BACK in jail. It is 50-50 50 percent getting people OUT of jail put they don't do what we ask them to do they become a liability we hear rumors they skip .dont show up for court their ass is back in the slammer and it made me think . If i can't trust him to let me do my job , how the fuck can i trust him to help me bring back a fugitive ?
If i can go back in the business i will be more picky about who i work with . I read this book modern day bounty hunting it has a sample bail letter and a contract i would not pick up any one without a signed contract . I am applying forinvestigation jobs at law firms and insurance investigator i fixed my resume . I did want to go to truck driving school but after an orientaition i learned it was not for me !
Psyche wrote in her blog that penetration sites are not allowed ! i think they should be allowed !!! i personally would love to post some my self . I really wish that lorelei would be an official sg photographer again ! she totally deserves it ! there was a time when i wanted to be an sg photographer myself but i quickly changed my mind !!!
I don't think i can take the rejection or take all the hard work . on the negative side my private investigators license application was fucking rejected ! it says experience with an investigation agency counts as experience and that is what i fucking did !!!! i can appeal this i am going to fucking appeal this even though you can still FULLY operate as ine without a license if you have a business license corperation license or are employed by one it is still a good way to protect yourself .
I hear this bullshit line " life is what you make of it " I fucking hate that statement !!!! There is so much bull shit that goes on that you have no control over so many times people go through the " now what do i do " it makes me want to say shut up ! every time i hear that statement . I try to staiy neutral in most situations . I find that staying neutral and controling your emotions helps you think . I think ok i have an out of state license . if i can get a second state license from jersy , five years documented investigative experience back round test NO state exam a letter from my employer that will help
I also thought about using my porn site to help me get into the bail bonds industry . i was chased away by an incompetent boss who did not give a shit about his business ! he was reckless care less and unreliable . he would tell me be at the office at 6 pm . i arrived at 6 pm and waited and waited for him he would not show up !!! that is a problem because that business is associated with putting bad people BACK in jail. It is 50-50 50 percent getting people OUT of jail put they don't do what we ask them to do they become a liability we hear rumors they skip .dont show up for court their ass is back in the slammer and it made me think . If i can't trust him to let me do my job , how the fuck can i trust him to help me bring back a fugitive ?
If i can go back in the business i will be more picky about who i work with . I read this book modern day bounty hunting it has a sample bail letter and a contract i would not pick up any one without a signed contract . I am applying forinvestigation jobs at law firms and insurance investigator i fixed my resume . I did want to go to truck driving school but after an orientaition i learned it was not for me !
It is a new dawn it is a new day and i am feeling better . I can feel the days of summer has already passed when the seasons start to change i get this strange and unexplainable feeling . I remember for years and years the ending of summer was a painful reminds of another long and difficult painful school year . I Look back and i wondered how i was able to survive , my school years were the worst . I will never understand how people can say they wish they were children again .
I don't know what to write not much has happened . yesterday i went to the greek festivel in the sacramento convention center . they have it every year and it never gets boring . They had a man who was kidnapped and he was selling his book . at first i wanted to buy it but i figured it would be too depressing . As the days go by the time of finding out if bsis accepted my application for the state private investigators license comes closer . I am really not looking forward to take the test i will have to start going back on adderall that should help me pass the test .
In order to pass i am going to need to get a 70 percent or better . I hope it works i really really do . I am planning to go back to las vegas again . either in november or in december whenever i have enough money saved up . the food at the festival was great i really love gyros . However i went a little bit overboard on the desert next time i will try to use a little more self control . I want to see the movie our idiot brother but at 13 dollars a ticket that is too much . I don't understand it , with netflix you think they will try to compete with them they would charge less , Instead the prices for movie tickets are like our ages . They keep going up and up . they never go down . I remember when they were 7 dollars they moved it up to 9 and people started to complain .
now they are charging 13 ? bull shit !!!! the last movie i saw was bad teacher that was hilarious !!!!! I write a blog every two weeks so come the 18th i hopefully will be able to tell you if my application was accepted or not .
I don't know what to write not much has happened . yesterday i went to the greek festivel in the sacramento convention center . they have it every year and it never gets boring . They had a man who was kidnapped and he was selling his book . at first i wanted to buy it but i figured it would be too depressing . As the days go by the time of finding out if bsis accepted my application for the state private investigators license comes closer . I am really not looking forward to take the test i will have to start going back on adderall that should help me pass the test .
In order to pass i am going to need to get a 70 percent or better . I hope it works i really really do . I am planning to go back to las vegas again . either in november or in december whenever i have enough money saved up . the food at the festival was great i really love gyros . However i went a little bit overboard on the desert next time i will try to use a little more self control . I want to see the movie our idiot brother but at 13 dollars a ticket that is too much . I don't understand it , with netflix you think they will try to compete with them they would charge less , Instead the prices for movie tickets are like our ages . They keep going up and up . they never go down . I remember when they were 7 dollars they moved it up to 9 and people started to complain .
now they are charging 13 ? bull shit !!!! the last movie i saw was bad teacher that was hilarious !!!!! I write a blog every two weeks so come the 18th i hopefully will be able to tell you if my application was accepted or not .
ok it is official ! my website for the book i got published has been expired . Am i going to delete it ? YES !!!! it never did anything for me . I never sold a copy , i am not going to admit defeat instead i will go in another direction . My book is contracted not to go out of printing so i might still one day be able to sell a copy but not right now . I wrote two sequels for the book . Right now they are on a disc . Will i get them oublished ? i don't know .
You can say ,i should and it will be a tragedy if i did not . ON the other hand , who is going to help pay the publishing costs ? any one ? cause i sure as fuck am not going to pay all 100 percent of the publishing costs. That is for sure !!!!! and i don't think any one else is either . So i came to an epiphany , that writing is not a real job. The thing that gets me is all of the marketing i paid for . that was a rip off , you can say life is what you make of it . Bullshit !!! people who say that are not on the same page as i am . Do they know what it is like to have a book published and not sell a single copy ? no , until they do save your philosophies i don't give a shit .
I hate the saying , life is what you make of it , that saying does not help it does not help it does not do anything or change anything . a few years ago i made a huge mistake , of joining a readers club for magazines i never read . 5 years now the
y have been siphoning 60 dollars from my account every month . and i could not cancel . The last check they took from me should be the last check that i need to pay .
I do not know what the fuck is taking so long for bsis to review my application for my private investigators license !!!! IT really pisses me off !!!! the check for the live scan went through , and that has to go through the fucking fbi !!!!! i wrote the checks at the same time one goes through one doesn't ? what the fucking hell ? what kind of bullshit is this ???? i did not get a denial letter either . I did apply for a ride along program in the sacramento city jail . I did get a denial letter for that .
IN all likelimess it is because i spent time in a psychiatric ward . I was only there four about 48 hours . they let me go before the seventy two hours was up . Are they going to hold that against me for the rest of my life ? what the fuck ? Seriously what the fuck ? why do police oficers have to hide behind there fucking badges think there more important than any one else think there lives are more important than any one elses and then lie and bullshit caliming , " it is for your safety . " sorry sir you can't go through just yet you still need to wait . "
WHAT THE FUCK AM I WAITING FOR ???????????
" OH , i am sorry , are you a pscychiatrist ? " NO ? WELL THEN THAT IS NOT YOUR FUCKING CALL !!!!! righ now i am very bitter, pissed off and frusterated . I feel like i am trying to find a way out ran down a hallway found a door and some one is telling me ,
You can say ,i should and it will be a tragedy if i did not . ON the other hand , who is going to help pay the publishing costs ? any one ? cause i sure as fuck am not going to pay all 100 percent of the publishing costs. That is for sure !!!!! and i don't think any one else is either . So i came to an epiphany , that writing is not a real job. The thing that gets me is all of the marketing i paid for . that was a rip off , you can say life is what you make of it . Bullshit !!! people who say that are not on the same page as i am . Do they know what it is like to have a book published and not sell a single copy ? no , until they do save your philosophies i don't give a shit .
I hate the saying , life is what you make of it , that saying does not help it does not help it does not do anything or change anything . a few years ago i made a huge mistake , of joining a readers club for magazines i never read . 5 years now the
y have been siphoning 60 dollars from my account every month . and i could not cancel . The last check they took from me should be the last check that i need to pay .
I do not know what the fuck is taking so long for bsis to review my application for my private investigators license !!!! IT really pisses me off !!!! the check for the live scan went through , and that has to go through the fucking fbi !!!!! i wrote the checks at the same time one goes through one doesn't ? what the fucking hell ? what kind of bullshit is this ???? i did not get a denial letter either . I did apply for a ride along program in the sacramento city jail . I did get a denial letter for that .
IN all likelimess it is because i spent time in a psychiatric ward . I was only there four about 48 hours . they let me go before the seventy two hours was up . Are they going to hold that against me for the rest of my life ? what the fuck ? Seriously what the fuck ? why do police oficers have to hide behind there fucking badges think there more important than any one else think there lives are more important than any one elses and then lie and bullshit caliming , " it is for your safety . " sorry sir you can't go through just yet you still need to wait . "
WHAT THE FUCK AM I WAITING FOR ???????????
" OH , i am sorry , are you a pscychiatrist ? " NO ? WELL THEN THAT IS NOT YOUR FUCKING CALL !!!!! righ now i am very bitter, pissed off and frusterated . I feel like i am trying to find a way out ran down a hallway found a door and some one is telling me ,
I did my weekly tarot card reading on monday , It is amazing i have been reading my own fortune with my tarot cards for almost nine years now . I started when i was 19 . I will be turning 28 in october . Now i can fully state that birthday parties are something i can do with out . i do not like them ! most holdidays are designed as an excuse to be greedy . you turn a year older and what do you want ? presents presents and more presents and expect every one to give you presents . as it is for a birthday party and christmas .
I see birthday parties different now . ever since i started to wear my dnr bracelet it is a bigger reminder that tomorrow is never guaurunteed . I live for the day each day as it comes , where do i see myself ten years from now ? can't say i may not be breathing one year from now . People say that other people with that kind of mentality do not have any future goals . well that is falisy . you can still live for today take each day as it comes not think about tommorow and still have future goals . MY future goals is to get my state private investigator license . Even though a licens is not necessary to operate a lot of doors will be closed if you do not have a state license i get that and all the doors will be open ! I have been sending my cover letters and resumes for insureance companies but so far no responses . it is what it is .
I checked the yellow pages for attorneys . first i checked for sacramento . in sacramento alone their is 100 pages dedicated for just attorneys and twenty pages for insurance companies . people need insurance , they also need some one to make sure that every claim is true and genuine , fraud is out their and ramped. in trouble times people will do what ever it takes to gain money , legaly or not . I read a book about cone artists . the author wrote about how you can get a fake police badge order a counterfiet pen go to a bank dressed up and in disguise ask people to withdraw money saying your a special agent with the department of us treasury ask them for their personal adress mark the money with the pen say it is counterfeit and walk away with the money . DO NOT DO THAT !!!!! GETTING CAUGHT DOING THAT WILL LAND YOU IN JAIL WITH SERIOUS CHARGES AND A CRIMINAL RECORD FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE !!!!!!!
Second of all the us treadury will never make you do that ! they do n ot ask people to withdraw money from their account say they are conducting a counterfitting investigation mark the money and walk away with it . Third of all even if they did you would NOT have to cooperate with them ! if that does happen tell some one in the bank IMMEDIATELY and call the police . you hand them the money they drive off with it disappear and you never see them again . A good con artist would not operate in their home city . like the movie the sting 1 and the sting 2 . I got that book from paladin press there are still a few pages that i have not read yet . I used to love paladin press but lately i read more books from delta press . I ordered two more books from delta press one was how to build silencers and the other one was how to cheat a polygraph test.
Personally i would NEVER takea polygraph test and i could clearly say NOR SHOULD ANY ONE ELSE EVER CONSENT TO A POLYGRAPH TEST !!! I also have another option incase that does not work . I saw a truck driving school one to take and get a class a driving license . IF i can get a grant that would be cool . I would have to go during the week and show them my driving record . the class begins the eighteenth of august so i still have time to mail my application to bsis and see what happens . On a sadder note , one of my favorite places is closing . We had a borders near my house were i would hang out a lot . now borders is closing they had a cafe where i would order food and eat read and now they are closing the cafe is closed and they
have signs saying that everything must go .
I am sure barnes and nobles are happy to see borders close but i hope they do not close either !
I see birthday parties different now . ever since i started to wear my dnr bracelet it is a bigger reminder that tomorrow is never guaurunteed . I live for the day each day as it comes , where do i see myself ten years from now ? can't say i may not be breathing one year from now . People say that other people with that kind of mentality do not have any future goals . well that is falisy . you can still live for today take each day as it comes not think about tommorow and still have future goals . MY future goals is to get my state private investigator license . Even though a licens is not necessary to operate a lot of doors will be closed if you do not have a state license i get that and all the doors will be open ! I have been sending my cover letters and resumes for insureance companies but so far no responses . it is what it is .
I checked the yellow pages for attorneys . first i checked for sacramento . in sacramento alone their is 100 pages dedicated for just attorneys and twenty pages for insurance companies . people need insurance , they also need some one to make sure that every claim is true and genuine , fraud is out their and ramped. in trouble times people will do what ever it takes to gain money , legaly or not . I read a book about cone artists . the author wrote about how you can get a fake police badge order a counterfiet pen go to a bank dressed up and in disguise ask people to withdraw money saying your a special agent with the department of us treasury ask them for their personal adress mark the money with the pen say it is counterfeit and walk away with the money . DO NOT DO THAT !!!!! GETTING CAUGHT DOING THAT WILL LAND YOU IN JAIL WITH SERIOUS CHARGES AND A CRIMINAL RECORD FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE !!!!!!!
Second of all the us treadury will never make you do that ! they do n ot ask people to withdraw money from their account say they are conducting a counterfitting investigation mark the money and walk away with it . Third of all even if they did you would NOT have to cooperate with them ! if that does happen tell some one in the bank IMMEDIATELY and call the police . you hand them the money they drive off with it disappear and you never see them again . A good con artist would not operate in their home city . like the movie the sting 1 and the sting 2 . I got that book from paladin press there are still a few pages that i have not read yet . I used to love paladin press but lately i read more books from delta press . I ordered two more books from delta press one was how to build silencers and the other one was how to cheat a polygraph test.
Personally i would NEVER takea polygraph test and i could clearly say NOR SHOULD ANY ONE ELSE EVER CONSENT TO A POLYGRAPH TEST !!! I also have another option incase that does not work . I saw a truck driving school one to take and get a class a driving license . IF i can get a grant that would be cool . I would have to go during the week and show them my driving record . the class begins the eighteenth of august so i still have time to mail my application to bsis and see what happens . On a sadder note , one of my favorite places is closing . We had a borders near my house were i would hang out a lot . now borders is closing they had a cafe where i would order food and eat read and now they are closing the cafe is closed and they
have signs saying that everything must go .
I am sure barnes and nobles are happy to see borders close but i hope they do not close either !
the website of the book i got published is going to be retired . it has not been performing the way i wanted it too . I plan on getting my other books i have on a cd published but after that i am going to have to give up on it . I have not been selling enough to earn a proper income .I am very dissapointed but it is what it is . Can't believe it is the 24 of june . I llok back on all the years i has to go back in school some time in august and i have to say i have no idea how i possibly managed to have done that !!!!! i hated school so much and it hated me very much .
There are too many people in my house in my house right now it became a fucking hostile . The trash keeps piling up more and more . I seem to be the on;y fucking person who gives a shit !!! I have to take out the trash every fucking day . The trash comes on friday morning it is only sunday and the can is already fucking full !!! I got my cover letter and my resume printed now i just have to mail it to an insurance company . I watched this show a long time ago caught in the act and there were poeplewho got caught on camera commiting insurance fraud . That is what inspired me to do it . I have been criticized again and again about having certain people on my friends list from this site .
FUCK THEM!!!!! i will have who ever i want on my facebook page . I put it on private for several reasons !!!!! they say that people have had difficulty finding jobs or getting in trouble by putting shit up on posters . Well if more people had theirs private it would not happen . I read a book inside the book it said " there are to ways to go through life , the kitten being carried by its mother , and the monkey who swings from tree to tree . neither one of them is right or wrong . " Personally i would be the cat as lazy as it sounds i think that would be best for me . But to an extent i am also the monkey who swings from branch to branch when i am not being taken on where i want to go .
I am so bored and sick of having all these people in my house i am loosing my fucking mind !!!! i don't know how i am able to survive !!!! I need to go , i need to get the FUCK out of here even if it is in a fucking hotel in roseville or sacramento i just need to fucking go !!!! i have been depressed lately the medicine i am taking is not full proof but i am not going to take a bigger dose . I have been thinking about buying a pocket bike but they are illegal to ride on the streets and side walk in this shit state . Last friday we had a goodbye party . Some one very close to me is moving to north carolina . It was a great party but i am really sad this person is leaving !
There are too many people in my house in my house right now it became a fucking hostile . The trash keeps piling up more and more . I seem to be the on;y fucking person who gives a shit !!! I have to take out the trash every fucking day . The trash comes on friday morning it is only sunday and the can is already fucking full !!! I got my cover letter and my resume printed now i just have to mail it to an insurance company . I watched this show a long time ago caught in the act and there were poeplewho got caught on camera commiting insurance fraud . That is what inspired me to do it . I have been criticized again and again about having certain people on my friends list from this site .
FUCK THEM!!!!! i will have who ever i want on my facebook page . I put it on private for several reasons !!!!! they say that people have had difficulty finding jobs or getting in trouble by putting shit up on posters . Well if more people had theirs private it would not happen . I read a book inside the book it said " there are to ways to go through life , the kitten being carried by its mother , and the monkey who swings from tree to tree . neither one of them is right or wrong . " Personally i would be the cat as lazy as it sounds i think that would be best for me . But to an extent i am also the monkey who swings from branch to branch when i am not being taken on where i want to go .
I am so bored and sick of having all these people in my house i am loosing my fucking mind !!!! i don't know how i am able to survive !!!! I need to go , i need to get the FUCK out of here even if it is in a fucking hotel in roseville or sacramento i just need to fucking go !!!! i have been depressed lately the medicine i am taking is not full proof but i am not going to take a bigger dose . I have been thinking about buying a pocket bike but they are illegal to ride on the streets and side walk in this shit state . Last friday we had a goodbye party . Some one very close to me is moving to north carolina . It was a great party but i am really sad this person is leaving !
TIme for an update . http://www.conyaandscott.com . I really want to get my second and third book published.
I already have some ideas for the fourth book but i am no where near ready for that . I am planning to get my
driving record tomorrow from the dmv . I have a back up plan in case this private investigator thing does not work out . This writing this is not happening but that does not mean i am giving up on it . I will never give up on that just need to prioritize .
There are tons people who grow up grow out of party mode have a house and have a family . well not me ! i LIVE in party mode on the other hand i am responsible about it . I am a libra so i jump from one extreme to another !
I am getting my resume printed right now so i can apply for insurance companies as a claims investigator . I took a course in insurance claims and i got certified as an insurance claims investigator . if that does not help me get a job with an insurance company i don't know what will . you see tv shows and movies about private investigators . Well in the real world it is not like that never was never will be.
I see this show 48 hours on missing persons . It is about all the people who go missing in chcago . I have mixed feelings about that show . I took another course in missing persons investigator and got certified as a missing persons investigator and claims investigator . on one hand i can see the difficulty on finding some one missing in chicago . On the other hand I see how all the police handle the assignments . On the last episode one of the officeres tried to give some one a polygraph test . I can not stress this enough , say NOTHING to the police and NEVER take ANY polygraph test . Every time i see some one talking to the police i shake my head close my eyes and i ask my self , " what the fuck are you doing ? you are digging a whole for your self ! " the prisons are FILLED with people who said the wrong thing to the police.
After watching that show it made me think . suppose it was me ? suppose i woke up one day and i decided to take a powder and just dissapear . Drive in my car and just keep going farther and farther . Lots of people do that . The thing is taking a powder is NOT illegal . Most officeres HATE to look for missing people even though they would never say that . I whatch a lot if shows on the investigative discovery channel . maybe a little too much . well i can't help it i have gotten private investigations in my dna i developed it years ago .
Last blog i mentioned about taking the state license test . in ca you do NOT NEED a license per say to opperate, the only thing is you look more professional if you have a state license and all the doors that were locked will now be open . these past few days have been a fucking nightmare ! i hate all this fucking heat ! the fourth of july was fun i bought fireworks and i got a rush lighting them ! it is sad they don't sell fireworks year-round in this state . but some states private ownership of fire worms are illeagal ! hahahahahaha!
I already have some ideas for the fourth book but i am no where near ready for that . I am planning to get my
driving record tomorrow from the dmv . I have a back up plan in case this private investigator thing does not work out . This writing this is not happening but that does not mean i am giving up on it . I will never give up on that just need to prioritize .
There are tons people who grow up grow out of party mode have a house and have a family . well not me ! i LIVE in party mode on the other hand i am responsible about it . I am a libra so i jump from one extreme to another !
I am getting my resume printed right now so i can apply for insurance companies as a claims investigator . I took a course in insurance claims and i got certified as an insurance claims investigator . if that does not help me get a job with an insurance company i don't know what will . you see tv shows and movies about private investigators . Well in the real world it is not like that never was never will be.
I see this show 48 hours on missing persons . It is about all the people who go missing in chcago . I have mixed feelings about that show . I took another course in missing persons investigator and got certified as a missing persons investigator and claims investigator . on one hand i can see the difficulty on finding some one missing in chicago . On the other hand I see how all the police handle the assignments . On the last episode one of the officeres tried to give some one a polygraph test . I can not stress this enough , say NOTHING to the police and NEVER take ANY polygraph test . Every time i see some one talking to the police i shake my head close my eyes and i ask my self , " what the fuck are you doing ? you are digging a whole for your self ! " the prisons are FILLED with people who said the wrong thing to the police.
After watching that show it made me think . suppose it was me ? suppose i woke up one day and i decided to take a powder and just dissapear . Drive in my car and just keep going farther and farther . Lots of people do that . The thing is taking a powder is NOT illegal . Most officeres HATE to look for missing people even though they would never say that . I whatch a lot if shows on the investigative discovery channel . maybe a little too much . well i can't help it i have gotten private investigations in my dna i developed it years ago .
Last blog i mentioned about taking the state license test . in ca you do NOT NEED a license per say to opperate, the only thing is you look more professional if you have a state license and all the doors that were locked will now be open . these past few days have been a fucking nightmare ! i hate all this fucking heat ! the fourth of july was fun i bought fireworks and i got a rush lighting them ! it is sad they don't sell fireworks year-round in this state . but some states private ownership of fire worms are illeagal ! hahahahahaha!
http://www.conyaandscott.com i always start all of my blog like that . Now to clear my head and just look back and reflect on everything that has happened since my blog entery . Well first of all after a shitload of thought i ordered a do not resuscitate bracelet from colonial medical . I have hear so much horror stories of people who go into comas and come out with brain damage or come out as cripples . Well that is not what i want . The bracelet says do not resuscitate on the inside not the outside so you will have to turn it over to read what it says.
I personally feel relieved now that i am wearing it . This is something that i am going to have to wear every day but i can live with that .
I have been watching new york ink . Ami James used to own a shop in miami florida but he moved up to new york. I know what happened in new york they legalized gay mariage . it is what it is , there was one episode of ny ink were ami got into a fight with one of his employees . For those who don't know ami james served in the
isreali special forces . How stupid would any one want to be in order to fight someone who served in the military
special forces of any country .
There was a time in my life when i wanted to learn how to pierce but that time has long passed . I am not sure how i would operate in the shop enviroment . There is a lot of drama in that show the only time i do not
like drama is when i am a part of it . Today started out a little bit rough . I was asked to help clean a fuking closet which took about an hour . I so hate being asked to clean right after i get out of bed that is NEVER a good thing . I found out i am able to take the california private investigators exam . I know a link were they will send me very helpful information . I watch perry mason i can imaigine what it must be like to have work for a law firm conducting investigations . I have a license in colorado so if a law firm excepts that i am still good to go. 150 questions is a fucking shit load of questions . 50 questions sound about right Nevada has 50 questions but requires 5 years instead of three . New york requires 3 but also has an exam .
I personally feel relieved now that i am wearing it . This is something that i am going to have to wear every day but i can live with that .
I have been watching new york ink . Ami James used to own a shop in miami florida but he moved up to new york. I know what happened in new york they legalized gay mariage . it is what it is , there was one episode of ny ink were ami got into a fight with one of his employees . For those who don't know ami james served in the
isreali special forces . How stupid would any one want to be in order to fight someone who served in the military
special forces of any country .
There was a time in my life when i wanted to learn how to pierce but that time has long passed . I am not sure how i would operate in the shop enviroment . There is a lot of drama in that show the only time i do not
like drama is when i am a part of it . Today started out a little bit rough . I was asked to help clean a fuking closet which took about an hour . I so hate being asked to clean right after i get out of bed that is NEVER a good thing . I found out i am able to take the california private investigators exam . I know a link were they will send me very helpful information . I watch perry mason i can imaigine what it must be like to have work for a law firm conducting investigations . I have a license in colorado so if a law firm excepts that i am still good to go. 150 questions is a fucking shit load of questions . 50 questions sound about right Nevada has 50 questions but requires 5 years instead of three . New york requires 3 but also has an exam .
