Dang it..just when one of my classes are ending and I'll have more time to be on here my account is up...and do I have money for it's renewal?..No. :{/....see you soon (hopefully) SGland!

Semester has started and I feel like me again. Going to school allows me to have an identity other then..that chick walking with the stroller of twins. Not saying i don't have pride in mommy-hood, but it's nice to be seen for something more than that, to be asked questions other than "how old are they?" "are they identical or fraternal"..blah blah etc. etc.!! I'm taking Sociology and (finally) was able to get into Intro to Psych. My Psych. instructor is a practicing psychologist rather than just a college educator and is helping me figure out what relm of Psychologoy i want towork in!...I'm pretty sure what I want to do is get my Bachelors, work as a Social worker, while going to get my Master of Social work degree...which the county will pay for the schooling while you work for them!...and from their i'll be able to help people in the system with their mental woes :{)

update on Levi and Canon? they're already 15months..very talkative, very close to walking and got their FIRST HAIRCUTS!...they look like little men :{D

haven't been in SG land lately...went camping with my fiance and the boys for 6 out of the 7 full days. It was beautiful!..but it also was starting to get cold and i was getting really guilty about having to baby wipe my sons' cold tush!....My birthday was on Father's Day this year. I was also born on father day....which is kind of ironic being that i didn't grow up with my biological father. Sometimes i wounder if that was hard for my 18-yr-old mom..having me on that day. But i've known my biodad for..i wanna say 4 years now..and i love knowing that part of my family :{).
The next event i'm looking forward is this month on the 29th!...the LOJ Masquerade...i will be dressed as an owly elf and have successful convinced , my fiance to rock some elf ears too :{P. I'm planning on having a blasty-blast..and Matt is planning on drowning me in Jose Cuervo..my arch enemy of whom i have not seen for easily 5 years (for fear of a remake of what happened LAST TIME i had 10 shots >.<)
Photos will hopefully fallow..i tend to suck major ass at remembering to capture images of said precious moments.

<3

Well the interwebs ate up my first post so i figured i'll try again but just the much shorter version!..we've managed to collect and barrow nearly everything we'll need for the Big Sur camping trip at the beginning of June with the help of family!...but now that that issue is pretty much out of the way a new one has arisen...leaving my class parking lot the other day i realized the car has hardly any traction at all when going up hill!...so i'm pretty much fully depressed and thinking we won't be able to go unless we can find some used tires to buy that we can afford in time for the trip, it'd mean so so so so so much to me if we actually can make it to this trip!!!...i feel like both me and the fiance need this type of time away from everything else and have some good fun with some good family. Here are some pics to show you a taste of what i hope to look forward to in the near future.....








i'm considering making a chip-in account ;{P

I'm in the mood to pretty myself up and take some pics but It's difficult to do with a point-n-shoot camera..we'll see if it happens..and if it does ya'll will know :{)

I've been fairly depressed lately about financial woahs...so sick of looking for a job and not finding one!...My family has been going camping every year at Big Sur for around 45 yrs...i've only gotten to go 3 times on account of me not knowing my biodad until recently. last year i was too far into my pregnancy with the twins and this year me and Matt are so set to venture into the world of camping with two 1 yr olds running around!...But we've been so consistently broke we haven't been able to collect ANY of our camping gear..i bought a huge tent for around $200 bucks at Wal-mart that I had to return for the cash back to pay bills last month...so now we don't even have that..so lame...but i'm trying to keep my head up and am gunna look into collecting bits and pieces from any family (or friends?) that have camp gear!

There's a masquerade ball in L.A. we'll be going to this June that I'm really looking forward to ..have all my outfit stuff collected in my brain but now i just have to buy it :{)

What are you looking forward to in the months to come?

...oooh yeah...and can i barrow your camp gear? :{P

i was digging up some stuff from storage and reunited with my Canon FT..that i bought long ago for a class i had to eventually drop out of because i couldn't find batteries to operate it!...it reignited some depression in not being able to find substitutes batteries since mercury ones are obviously no longer in the making. BUT i was looking online and it looks like "zinc air" batteries for hearing aids MIGHT do the trick..it also might cause all of the aperture settings on the camera to constantly be off. I think it'll be worth a try.....all that aside i'm really trying to figure out how to get out of my infinite loop of daily boredom...i feel trapped in the living room watching the twins all the time and it's just ridiculous because i have paint supplies and blank canvas, scrap fabric and my sewing machine...and a love for crafts!...i guess i always just put it off because i hate painting knowing that i'll have to put everything down and jump up to stop them from climbing and falling etc. every five seconds...sigh...this post was pointless rambling..sorry if you read it! :{P

UGH! so sick!,,,i have a stuffed nose, swollen tonsils, pounding headache :{/...but what's worse is the boys have a lil cough too. I guess it's better that their first cold is now and not when they were even younger?...i feel bad for them even though they're acting dandy.....oh yeah and they're already almost a year old!...May 8th is coming by fast...and soon to fallow I'll be 23 in June -_-...i feel old...i miss sg and chat but really haven't had the energy to do anything but full attention on the boys lately..peace out <3

I'm so sexually frustrated lately it's retarded. For a while I was really in the "mood" but the last month or so I'd have sex at least 3 times a day if I were to have it my way....but with Matt's new job and now his physical therapy he'll be doing every Wednesday we will never get to be intimate...grandmothers are huge cock blockers too of course. He just doesn't get it that all a girl wants is to be tied down and taken advantage of. Is that too much to ask? I certainly don't think so.

Quick Update:
Matt did his training and his first day of work is this Tuesday :{D
We will be staying in our current house for one more year rather then having to runaway with our heads cut off.
Levi is attempting to stand every five seconds while Canon is attempting to climb over him.

I'm happy...I feel like things are finally coming around..looking forward to getting my tax return so i can buy some camp supplies for the yearly Big Sur trip..including a humongous tent big enough to fit two pack n plays and one inflatable bed.

My current life dilemma is figuring out how to be able to continue to go to my classes while Matty's gone at work. And just adjusting to how I'll manage to drop him off at work with babies and all so I can have the car during the day.

I feel good and lucky :{)

what's new with me?...lemme see...i've been taking a history class at chaffey and today was my first day for my late start keyboarding class....that's gunna be a fun one!...we've finally gathered up all the info on the foreclosure of the house we rent and we've got three options as fallows: 1.) do a 1 yr contract paying around $1950 instead of the previous $1500 2.) keep living here rent free until the place is sold..after it's sold we'll have 3 months to find a new (Hopefully finally fucking permanent) home 3.) "cash for keys" move out as quickly as possible leaving the house nicer then when we moved in and they'll help pay towards our deposit. The thing is that this house is two stories and my grandma has a pace maker..she cant live here alone, but she wants to stay here..i dont wont to feel obligated to stay if we get the chance to find our own place but her health isnt the best ..but it's never going to get any better either. Matt 's waiting for a call back from his new "boss" to see when he'll start training..either this or next thursday. i'm trying my hardest not to get excited in case anything happens....but if this all works out our income has the potential to basically double...meaning obviously we would be able to live on our own and have plenty of room to wiggle and get furniture, supplies, etc......PLEASE KEEP US IN YOUR THOUGHTS. i want more then anything in my heart to be able to finally have a place i feel is stable enough to make my home....to finally vent out all this pent up nesting instincts i've yet to use up for the boys' bedroom...and just enjoy living with my fiance without all the complications that come up from living with other family members as well....well that fun thought vomit...i have a headache...goodnight for now <3 hope life's treating you all well :{)