i got a new puppy 5 and a half weeks which is a legal but someone found her wandering in their back yards..gonna call all the vets in the am someone has to be missing her..we know shes a terrier mix just not sure what..a love and a peanut though!! still acquainting her with taylor my pug but were getting there.the cat could care less so crazy. yesterday i was thinking how lonely ive become in my existence and poof her comes a puppy. any advice im all ears..also were still trying to figure out her breed so if u recognize her please let me know
xoxox
me

today tell someone you love them..remind them..
r.i.p. dj am..so sad we lose so many people to drugs and we see it but human nature we all believe we are invincible and it will never be "me". so ive gotta make some new friends sometime soon. i feel like they are few and far between anymore. i found out today that the nursing program i was hoping to get into is ridiculous and doesnt help out their students..great my stomach turned and then i realized ill never survive or want to dump that much money into a program ill never survive. now time to look for a new one. only time will tell in the mean time got two books in the mail today. how teach your self anatomy and a microbiology book. fun times.. still need a photographer near philly if anyone reads this and knows one please let me know

nothing really exciting going on..my schedule got flipped around this week and im having a hard time remembering what day it is..so weird. missed the blink show tonight soo sad.. yea i odnt know i wanted to write but am kind blah right now. sucks
night
me

soo i think im gonna try out the timer on my camera tonight and take some pictures. i came home from work today and was just soo beat i feel asleep for 4 hours..rough..so i got a text from a friend saying he lost a close friend and its heartbreaking. i hate when u ponder questions that will never be answered. that is the uncertainty of life. you could work your ass off and the next day everything be shattered. i guess its just one of those things we have to remember when making tough decisions. that life is so complex and can be so short. its all about finding a balance between complelty rebeling and having to pay for the actions later as i am doing with school and my career path..and actually living life not confined to one set of rules.what can i do but take time reflect and life and take everything as a lesson. ive been learning so much about myself and life lately its scary.
xoxoxox
me

ps..dear mets. sorry u just lost your star picther..but well do it again next year..thats kick ur ass out of the season

If the sun doesn't rise
We'll replace it with an H-bomb explosion
A painted jail cell of light in the sky

a miracle oocured today..i sat down and drew and it felt amazing. being doing the whole vegetarian thing trying to get back into the swing..this vegan transition is definitely going to be ummm a transition. if there was only cheese that tasted good id be golden until then this is going to be a struggle. started listening to some thursday old school..war all the time how i missed these songs. i must have been through such a rough patch and not realized it at the time. crazyness. crazy how life can change so much and u not realize it until ur past those parts.

that the ink fills in our fingerprints
and the silouhette of your own face becomes the black cloud of war
and even in our dreams we're so afraid the weight will offset who we are
all those breaths that you took have now been canceled in your lungs.
last night my teeth fell out like ivory typewriter keys
and all the monuments and skyscrapers burned down and filled the sea.


btw..love this tea..yes id marry it if i could
for now my loves
xoxoxox[

where to begin..if i ever sound like a winny bitch let me know! im watching project runway reading my new vegan book. going to try to do this again but the right way. drove around the world today.had to go to south philly to get my package with this vest i bought but hate but was originally 140 and i snatched it for 35..dont know what to do. anyhow summer is over still haven't seen the beach.. blahhh..very excited though i bought deathproof today for 6 bucks! i also got a crap load of paint and canvas for cheap so im super stoked to start painting again!! its been way too long! got two free tickets to the phillies this saturday dont know what to do with them yet.. hope everyone is having a good day!
mauh!
xoxox

Feel it comin' in the air
And the screams from everywhere
I'm addicted to the care
It's a dangerous love affair
Can't be scared when it goes down
Got a problem, tell me now
Only thing that's on my mind
Is who's gonna run this town tonight...
Is who's gonna run this town tonight...
We gonna run this town

We are
Yeah I said it
We are
This is Roc Nation
Pledge your allegiance
Get y'all black tees on
All black everything
Black cards, black cars
All black everything
And our girls are blackbirds
Ridin' with they dillingers
I'd get more in depth
If you boys really real enough
This is la familia
I'll explain later
But for now let me get back to this paper
I'm a couple bands down and i'm tryin' to get back
I gave the other grip, I lost a flip for five stacks
Yeah i'm talkin' five comma
six zeros
dot zero
Here it go...
Back to runnin' circles 'round niggas
Now we squared up
Hold up

Life's a game but it's not fair
I break the rules so I don't care
So I keep doin' my own thing
Walkin' tall against the rain
Victory's within the mile
Almost there, don't give up now
Only thing that's on my mind
Is who's gonna run this town tonight
Heeeey-hey-hey-hey-hey-heyyy
Hey-heyyy-hey-hey-heyy
Heeeey-hey-hey-hey-hey-heyyy
(Is who's gonna run this town tonight)
Hey-hey-hey-heyyy

We are
Yeah I said it
We are
You can call me Cesar
In a dark Czar
Please follow the leader
So Eric B. we are
Microphone fiend
It's the return of the god
Peace god...
(Auh! Auh!)
And ain't nobody fresher
I'm in Mason
(Ah!)
Martin Margiela
On the tape we're screamin'
Fuck the other side, they jealous
We got a bankhead full of broads(?)
They got a table full of fellas... (?)
And they ain't spending no cake
They should throw they hand in
'Cause they ain't got no spades...
My whole team got dough
So my bankhead is lookin' like millionaire's 'fro

Life's a game but it's not fair
I break the rules so I don't care
So I keep doin' my own thing
Walkin' tall against the rain
Victory's within the mile
Almost there, don't give up now
Only thing that's on my mind
Is who's gonna run this town tonight
Heeeey-hey-hey-hey-hey-heyyy
Hey-heyyy-hey-hey-heyy
Heeeey-hey-hey-hey-hey-heyyy
(Is who's gonna run this town tonight)
Hey-hey-hey-heyyy

It's crazy how you can go from being Joe Blow
To everybody on your dick, no homo
I bought my whole family whips, no Volvos
Next time I'm in church, please no photos
Police escorts
Everybody passports
This the life that everybody ask for
This a fast life
We are on a crash course
What you think I rap for
To push a fucking Rav-4?
But I know that if I stay stun-ting
All these girls only gonna want one thing
I could spend my whole life good will hun-ting
Only good gon' come is as good when I'm cumm-ing
She got a ass that'll swallow up a g-string
And up top, unh...
Two bee stings
And I'm beasting
Off the riesling
And my nigga just made it out the precinct
We give a damn about the drama that you do bring
I'm just tryin' to change the color on your mood wing
Reebok
Baby
You need to drop some new things
Have you ever had shoes without shoe strings?
What's that 'Ye?
Baby, these heels
Is that a may?
What?!
Baby, these wheels
You trippin' when you ain't sippin'
Have a refill
You feelin' like you runnin', huh?
Now you know how we feel

We gonna run this town tonight!


this song makes me just go out in philly and chill..

soo..this thursday blink 182 and weezer are playing in philly..ihave to work and am pissed i want to see travis barker so bad..on other notes i really want and should do a set soon..i cant find a photographer in philly maybe im just looking in the wrong places..but isnt that the story of my life??
hope everyone has a good weekend ill be working but hope everyone else gets to enjoy

xoxox me

im doing it again..2 blogs one day but today i need to..so i get to work after i get pulled over on the way after some kid said id work his shift and i get woken up with chaos anyway..our cook goes i got the winning ticket and i look at his powerball and it hit me today is the 19th and my stomach sank. it would have been my lil cuzins 21st i wanted to throw up. when we were younger we were always together..he had his issues and as i grew up i became more annoyed and just couldn't take it. i just kinda kept to myself.well ill never forget the day im standing in the kitchen adn the phone rings and my aunt is hysterical on the other end. my aunt takes the phone from me grabs my uncle and runs out the door. he killed him self a week b4 his 13th birthday over an exchange of pills he had nothing to do with but witness and get blamed for. to this day i wonder if the 2 girls realize their actions and i can never imagine the fear he felt. nor can i even picture the chaos that would haveb een for this kids 21st. i guess he got me with the annoyance of the fine i got today. jsut a little reminder hes always there. i dont like dwelling on the past it just punched me in the face today!

so i say down and just read everything i need to do to get into this nursing program..im looking at a good two years ahead of me. will it be worth it hell yeah i just have a mission ahead of me which looks like building the wall of china would have been easier. so i just ordered some books on amazon to start teaching myself anatomy and microbiology. im so afraid im going to fail at this and end up being a waitress for the rest of my life . i dont like thinking of the negative but seriously what else is left?