IPOD
RADIO
WHy cant I just stay awake? Ive been up since about 11am yesterday, I dont like sleeping.
Sleep is a waste of time in life, I dont remember the # of years the average person sleeps away but I find it a total crock of shit that I lose years to something I cant remember, (i dont even have wild dreams or any kind of dreams that I remember 90% of the time so wtf?)
Anyways I'll probably be posting another philosophical/logical/personal feelings abut the world and life and ppl. soon so read if you find interesting otherwise if you're just looking for a laugh I'll make sure to just leave a funny link to a youtube vid. or something lol.
I see the past in one eye, the other only sees the future. Its like Im living in a dream I cant wake from.
I dont like when I accidentally think about you, I hate it when I dream about you.
Its unfair, I have no control of that, I never remember my dreams but once in a blue moon you show up and I wake up remembering. remembering a lot of things, and then compare then to now and "now" sucks. I dont know how you ruined me so bad but I hate you for it.
Off to work, yippie.
JUL 10, 2008 10:18 PM
Well, the only positive about having a broken heart is knowing that you have one and in knowing that you can love deeply or attach on a more substantive level. A fair number of people cannot, and to me that is truly a sorry state of existence. I know this doesn't help assuage what you're feeling post surprise dream ambush visit.....so I'll shut up now and slink away. 
JUL 15, 2008 12:09 AM
uhm u must read my last 2 blogs - my hubby wanted to make amphetamines for himself & the "friend" we just known for 2 months who had the chemicals was under observation yeah and so the police ran into our flat and the rest is history haha 
im an hopless optimist u had to know but anyway his pc and my laptop my camera was by the police for investigations..... (i have it back but my camera dont works grrrrr)
yes yes thats life - thx for your examples 
i read muuuch more then before the last month & go such a longer round with the dog 
Oh and yes for sure baby - book a flight just and come into our flat,
the door is open!!
