I always feel like time is moving to quickly for me to adjust and grow up.. does anyone else feel like that?

I'm turning 21 this year and I just don't feel it.. I do however want more responsabilities such as a place of my own, a new car, to become a paramedic, and get married to my fiance.. (I know that kinda knocks my eariler comment out seeming those are all pretty grown up things to think about) but i'm scared that I wouldn't be able to handle any of those things plus it costs money, something i just can't seem to save good amounts of at the moment
Most people think i'm crazy to be engaged 'this young' but i'm absolutely in love, been engaged since I was 19 don't care what others think

I wish i could just fall on a pile of money somehow, I know exactly what i'd do if i did.. savings account, build some interest on it make some money..

Don't know why i'm blogging this all to be honest, i'm really bored, really tired, wanted to write something and this was going through my mind..

Not that anyone reads my blogs anyway heh.. what about some random hilarity?