Even in defeat I will not lose!! This used to be my motto, but lately when I lose I feel defeated. Have you ever busted your ass at work and the worst employee os rewarded? This has happened to me. The show I'm work ing now I pretty much run it yet, the laziest crew member, the one no one likes gets to go to Hawaii for 4 months. What kind of bullshit is this. Hollywood is the only business where you fail upwards.