Awesome. I think I shall do the same. I do work out a bit, but I also have horses which is a ton of work. Shoveling horse poo is great for the abs.

Nahhhh I love getting inked!
Thanx anyways cute... Im gonna get inked yeey!

I have 5 at the moment, but hopefully some of them will die off soon. That's mean, but 2 of them are really old.

Deal. My horses eat a lot, and shit even more. How about your birdies?

Aw cute. I used to have a kakariki parrot. I loved him, but he was such a slob.

That's a cute story. I have to think of a cute horse story now.

At least you have a plan!

I want your plan

im thinking about making this tuesday " TUB Tuesday"

well im getting some of the images back from the B&B trip soon, and the pink packing peanuts, so its kinda a salute to that theme. ahh the game, i guess ok, ill post pix from it next week. ya im up late rdiing someones signal from my airport.

yeah things are ok here. been hanging with my friends alot. he hasnt called at all, this makes me sad, i want to know how he is doing and we left so many things unsaid. i have to go back tomorrow night to sleep and then go to work. its going to blow. i dont know if he will be there, i know i am going to be a big bundle of twitching crying nerves. i feel very panicked everytime i even think about going back.

i dont know if he will be there tomorrow. i am scared that he will be and i am scared that he wont. i really dont know what to do with this situation. i still want to be with him, its terrible. i still feel like we can work things out, maybe like take some time apart and figure things out and then get back together. i just dont know. then again what if things get so fucked up (big potential for this to happen) and we never speak again. it weird his journal just says bleh (piercedspork), i suck for checking it i suck for checking my email several times today hoping i would have gotten a letter asking if i am ok. i just dont know. ARG. sorry for spilling this all on you. i wish i had a dvd player in my room here, i would so be watching james and the giant peach right now.
sorry for writing a book, i am just so frustrated right now.

i do love him dearly, i can see him in my future, he is a good guy. maybe we are a little to alike in some ways. i have no clue what he wants right now, i dont even know if he will talk to me ever again. i am not willing to go right back, after the heartbreak i am going through there is no way i could let myself just go back and risk getting hurt like this again. i need him to have the time and put the effort in this relationship like he did before. he used to send me oodles of text messages and leave me wonderful voicemail messages. now that he works full time+ and is so stressed about everything i got pushed back to 4th in his list of priorities. solimond described me best when he said that "A joy to be around, MLEis equal parts radiance, inspiration, and sadness. The comparison I most often come to is to is that of a flower. Not in some overly dramatic or romantic fashion, but in the sense that a flowers are sources of extraordinary beauty, but must be cared for and attended to, lest they wither away. " its true. he let me wither and that is sad.

it didn't really hurt much. towards the top, where the fuse is, that hurt a bit. but it went by quickly. so overall, not much pain at all.

How was it? You really make sense to me. Thanks for the comment. I always want the greener grass. It causes problems.