I need some friend advice. I got into a fight with my basically only friend the day before more birthday and I am pretty sure that I didn't really do anything wrong and it's her fault, but she is blaming it on me and didn't even wish me a happy birthday and hasn't even talked to me at all.

Any advice? There's a lot more to the story but I'll let you know if you message me.

My New Years resolutions:

1.) Lose 25 pounds (or more)

2.) Graduate college

3.) Get into grad school

4.) Make friends

5.) Get a summer job

Hm. So far, that's all I can think of. Well, of course be nicer and spend more time with my family and boyfriend and the friends I do have!

HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL!

It's the first night of Chanukah and I'm at my apartment alone, studying for finals. 1 week and I'll be home for the holidays. I can't wait.

Happy Chanukah!

I <3 Kemper

I can't believe how bored I am... this is the most boring week ever. I don't even have any homework to keep me occupied but everyone else does so there is nothing to do. AH. I just want it to be my birthday. And then the week after is spring break and I'm going to Vegas with my boyfriend! <3

Check out Kemper's new set! It's fucking AMAZING!!!

Why does everything good that happens to me get taken away?? I hate how I get happy and then go back to being sad and hurt. I feel like I can't ever have friends cuz something will happen. I feel like I was a mistake. I need someone to talk to.

Talk to me if you want to.
It would be greatly appreciated right now...

Horrible, horrible, weekend...
I'm feeling an intense cocktail of emotions... I'm sad, angry, jealous, confused, depressed, pissed, ugh. I don't even know anymore.

My 21st birthday is coming up and I am sooooo excited. That's like the only thing I am excited about these days. I am still so annoyed with my roommate but care about her and I don't want to hurt her or move out cuz that is such a hassle so I just have to deal with it and it sucks. I still need friends. I am bored all the time and I unno how to meet people. =[

At least I have my boyfriend...
and suicide girls =]

Project runway is on in 30, I'm pretty fucking excited for that too!!!

Finals are finally over. I am getting so anxious for my grades! So far, I have gotten an A+ in Hebrew, but that was expected because I knew Hebrew before going into that class. I just have 2 psych grades to find out but I am so nervous! But last night, I kinda felt better... this is why...

Me and my boyfriend Brian went out to lunch at Panda express yesterday. When I opened my fortune cookies, I got the best fortune I could get for this time, "Your hard work is about to pay off". I was so stoked off it and texted my friends and it gave me a little boost, even though it's just a little piece of paper, it was nice to see that and make me feel like maybe all the hard work I put into this quarter will pay off and I'll get good grades. But that's not all... my parents wanted to take us to dinner and my dad really wanted Chinese food, so we just said ok, we can have Chinese food 2 times today, lol. So we ate and when we were getting the check I showed my mom the fortune I got from earlier and she thought that was really cool. Then, I picked up a random fortune cookie on the table and opened it and my fortune said, "Your hard work is about to pay off!" HOW FUCKING CRAZY IS THAT!!!! I couldn't believe it! Everyone at the tables fortunes were completely different but I got the SAME fortune I got earlier at a completely different restaurant with completely different fortune cookies! I really hope this means my work will pay off and I really will get good grades. Here is a picture of the fortunes, the picture sucks but you can still see that they are completely different and say the same thing (sept the second one I got said congratulations at the end but that's even better! It like KNEW I got that fortune before!)


I had to share that cuz it was the craziest thing ever!

I really need new friends. I feel like I only have 1 true friend who I really really truelly like and want to spend time with (besides my boyfriend, he's the one thing I'm really happy about). I feel like all my other friends I care about a lot but I don't really like them, that sounds really bad but I unno it's true. I unno what to do. I feel like everyone here already has their group of friends and I just don't fit in anywhere, I'm too intimidating I guess. I wish I was more self confident and extroverted so I could easily just go out and make friends and everyone would like to be around me. I really need to work on that.

On another note, Dexter is probably the best show ever and if you haven't watched it and want to go to megavideo.com and search Dexter s0XeXX (the X is the season # the the episode #, this season is season 4, so if you want to watch season 4 episode 1 search for Dexter s04e01).

Finals are next week..... fuuuucckkkk... I have been working my ass off and have all A's right now, hopefully I can ace my finals and get my first 4.0 in college.

I have my first Christmas tree! I'm Jewish, so I've never had one but my roommate got us a small fake tree that we decorated and it's very exciting to me! There is a menorah there too though!!

OMG New Moon is tomorrow night! I feel like I have been waiting for soooo long and it has finally arrived! I pre-ordered my ticket like a month of a half ago and I am going to wait in line for like 3 hours tomorrow night so me and my roomy get good seats! I can't wait. I'm so fucking excited. I love Taylor, the guy that plays Jacob, he is soooo sweet and fucking hot for a 17 year old. But I am totally a Jasper fan. He will always be my #1 Twilight love. <3 Well, I will post a blog after the movie and talk about how much I loved it! <3