There are so many days that I feel hopeless, angry, hurt and frustrated all at once. I am constantly reassuring myself. Being a parent is tough so many decisions to make and you never know if you've done a decent job until it's over.  I have one child who is outgoing, fun, and just all around normal and I hate to use that word, hell  usually I'm the first to say there is no such thing as so called normal but when you have two children that are so different they seem worlds apart there's almost no other way to describe it. You see my challenge, or blessing depending on the day,in life is to raise a so called "normal" child and a child with an autism spectrum disorder and a mental illness.  Some days I don't know how I make it. But today I received a saddening reminder of how blessed I am to have such beautiful and gifted children no matter the challenge. They bless me everyday with their presence and unconditional love.

There are so many days that I feel hopeless, angry, hurt and frustrated all at once. I am constantly reassuring myself. Being a parent is tough so many decisions to make and you never know if you've done a decent job until it's over.  I have one child who is outgoing, fun, and just all around normal and I hate to use that word, hell  usually I'm the first to say there is no such thing as so called normal but when you have two children that are so different they seem worlds apart there's almost no other way to describe it. You see my challenge, or blessing depending on the day,in life is to raise a so called "normal" child and a child with an autism spectrum disorder and a mental illness.  Some days I don't know how I make it. But today I received a saddening reminder of how blessed I am to have such beautiful and gifted children no matter the challenge. They bless me everyday with their presence and unconditional love.