white hot heat, rapid pulse,
insatiable animal hunger,
visions of taut skin,
chasm of emptiness and longing
fighting off tangled sheets,
each shallow breath
increasing,clawing, twisting,
electric hum of radiant energy
motor running hot
enveloped in steam mist,
arched spine taut as a bow string,
falling back lazy, jungle cat draped,
secret smile

so i went to this meeting today for my new job. I get there and there is a whooole lot of people there and more kept walking in. I would say there was probably like 40 people there. Granted some were hostesses, bussers, bartenders ect. but a lot were servers. So I guess they hired a bunch and they are going to weed a lot of people out. So they have no training manual or any kind of human resource framework at all set up. They said if you don't show up and no one covers your shift you are fired. There is no uniform they told us just to wear plain polo shirts and khaki pants. I guess they are training us for 3 days next week and then 3 days the week after that. There was no mention of whether we are getting paid for training, They did not have menus to give us yet they said they will have them next week. The whole thing seems like they are flying by the seat of their pants.....sigh. However....... I have an interview on the 7th with Quail Hollow a hotel/resort by me. They called me this morning I would give my left tit to work there. So if that pans out I am going to give up this whole restaurant bullshit. Right now I have to think up a scheme to make money until then. The only money I have coming in is my child support money I get 100.00 dollars a week for that...Yard sale maybe...I dunno.

bawls! I was drinking wine in my bedroom and knocked the dam glass over. spilled the wine (the last I had

left)and broke the glass. I only have one good wine glass. I got it from a wine tasting thing at a food
expo out here. I am totally pissed off. I am not finished getting drunk and now I am sans wine glass.

. At least it was white wine instead of red that would have been disastrous. I need to go back to

work soon. I am losing my marbles! I have been going to the library every day, sleeping, and

getting drunk. not exactly productive. Oh yea and I forgot

looking at porn...lmao. I need to get out of the house....big time.

I am really poor right now because my new job doesn't start for a few weeks. So I went to my sisters house to

clean her house because she said she would pay me. She neglected to mention her air-conditioning was broke

and it was like 800 degrees in her condo. Her boyfriend bought her a dog as a graduation present. My sister

should not have a dog she is probably the laziest person alive. The dog had peed all over the carpet in her spare

room and she wanted me to clean it. It was hot all balls and it smelled horrendous. I almost died. I was trying to

clean the rest of her house and she had no cleaning products, rags or paper towels. I was wiping down her

coffee table with bathroom cleaner and a coffee filter! Her dog is really cute though. It is nice to visit a dog and

not half to deal with cleaning up after him everyday. His name is Vito. He's a pugle. >>>>

I got a job hurray! I am slightly skeptical because the guy asked me virtually nothing in the interview. He just looked at my resume. Commented on how he liked to hire people from where I used to work because it was always busy there and they knew how to hustle. Then he told me I was hired to come in for orientation next week. The place isn't open yet I found out so I have to wait two weeks to start. I guess I will just eat PB and Js until then. I have one more check coming from the lizard.....i guess I can scrape by a few weeks. I'm just nervous of how the business will turn out to be there. The fact that the guy asked me pretty much zero questions concerns me. I don't know if he had the hots for me or he just wanted any warm body to work there right now. It will be an adventure I guess. I can always look again if I have to.

What happened to chics doing interesting sets on here? sheeeesh It seems like all I have seen lately is girls in beds, in living rooms, hotel bathrooms......yawn. I feel like a married person. *props to the girl who did the tribute to hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy. That was cute.* The girls have been cute don't get me wrong. But I need something freaky weird to come down the pike here. I have a jaded palet.

I have an interview tomorrow! hurray! It is for a place called " Hiroshi's pub". Kind of an unusual name. It is new just opened. I am not sure if it is for a bartending or serving job I was so excited I didn't ask. I applied online yesterday and the guy called me for an interview today. The website they have just has a picture of their logo and the positions they are hiring for they haven't put anything else on it yet. So I hope this place is decent. It is in beachwood a fairly wealthy sort of area, so that's good at least. WISH ME LUCK!

I have just realized I am typing to people more and interacting more than I am looking at naked chics on here lately..........something is wrong with me!!!! lmao They keep running this commercial for "No Reservations" (My favorite show ever) and they always put little snarky quips by Anthony Bordain in them. My new favorite quote form him is "Hey wheres my knife , why didn't I get a knife? What if I wanna get a little stabby" I want a shirt that says this

aaaaaaaarg! i really hate people sometimes. I was at work today and I was sort of " in the weeds". They cut the two servers downstairs so it was just me and one other girl in the dining room and they were seating us like every five seconds. I had a table of four people two had this sash things on I guess they just graduated. I said to them "oh did you just graduate i did too" because I just had. I took their order. Got their drinks. refilled their drinks in a timely manner. Their food came out fine. I got them all the condiments they needed. I took away their plates when they were done. Then i cashed them out. They asked me for a box. I forgot for a second cuz i had a lot of shit going on. I brought it to them a minute later and apologized all over the place. I see the one lady at the table talking to my manager on the way out. Shit i'm thinking what did I do? I asked him and he said he would talk to me about it later. So I know i'm in trouble and I'm sweating it out all night. So i go to leave and he says the people said I was unfriendly the service was slow and I was unattentive. WTF!!! I got them every thing they needed! I was not super friendly and smiley because I was getting my ass kicked at the time. So I had been in trouble for other stupid things before like not putting out sugar caddies, forgetting to put away shit , various dumb bullshit. So now I am in danger of being fired because I have been in trouble too many times. All because I wasn't smiling and clicking my heels for these people. I DON'T WANT TO BE A SERVER ANYMORE. THE GENERAL PUBLIC IS A BUNCH OF LOUSY ASSHOLES! ok anyway.......I hope I don't get fired that would suck right now.

I had the weirdest thing happen to me today. I was driving home from work tired and miserable. i had only made eleven dollars in tips; hardly worth me getting out of bed. Anyway, I was driving the long haul home and I here someone honking next to me and I look over and this dude is blowing a kiss at me. I was perplexed thinking maybe he thought I was someone else. So he starts yelling out the window " Your beautiful, gorgeous.. you really are" I just started laughing. He says " I'm sorry i didn't mean to embarrass you" So I drove away. He waved at me one other time up the road. It just really made me feel good though I don't get hit on that much these days and was feeling old since my birthday. So thank you random weird man wherever you may be. LMAO