Ok guys. Help me to understand something. Sorry, long blog.
On thursday evening, i went to see a comedians improv battle i was invited to. It was great. I only knew one person there, and after the show we went for a few drinks with the whole crew. I started to talk shit with one of the comedian girls and we laughed for hours. I felt we really connected, even if we didn't know each other at all. Even her twin sister told me later, that she felt we liked each other.
The bar was about to close and we exchanged e-mails and numbers. She wanted to check out links for my music and so i told her i'd send them soon. We left and told each other we should hang out again.
The next day, i send her an e-mail with the links; telling her i don't know yet what i'm doing this weekend but that i'll call her maybe or later in the week to see if she wants to have a drink.
She then replies telling me that she can't go out because she is working on a few film shoots but that she'll check out my links.
I'm sensing a bullshit excuse to not see me and i reply the next day something like "well ok, too bad. Take care."
She then replies, saying that she likes my music and stuff; and that if i ever need some illustrations (she's an illustrator too) she'd be interested.
So now i feel like answering "How do you not have time to go for just a fucking drink, but still have time to make illustrations for me?"
What do you think? Am i right to sense mixed up feelings there or what?
On thursday evening, i went to see a comedians improv battle i was invited to. It was great. I only knew one person there, and after the show we went for a few drinks with the whole crew. I started to talk shit with one of the comedian girls and we laughed for hours. I felt we really connected, even if we didn't know each other at all. Even her twin sister told me later, that she felt we liked each other.
The bar was about to close and we exchanged e-mails and numbers. She wanted to check out links for my music and so i told her i'd send them soon. We left and told each other we should hang out again.
The next day, i send her an e-mail with the links; telling her i don't know yet what i'm doing this weekend but that i'll call her maybe or later in the week to see if she wants to have a drink.
She then replies telling me that she can't go out because she is working on a few film shoots but that she'll check out my links.
I'm sensing a bullshit excuse to not see me and i reply the next day something like "well ok, too bad. Take care."
She then replies, saying that she likes my music and stuff; and that if i ever need some illustrations (she's an illustrator too) she'd be interested.
So now i feel like answering "How do you not have time to go for just a fucking drink, but still have time to make illustrations for me?"
What do you think? Am i right to sense mixed up feelings there or what?
Installed Mountain Lion on my iMac. It's ok, no big changes so far. If you have Messages on your iMac, iPhone or iPad and wanna text each other sometime, let me know!
I sometimes wish i could connect with people on a deeper level. Like, beyond the surface, daily stuff, personal issues and so on; just like woman to man or man to man etc. Just from one human to an other. We are so caught up in our daily routines, wearing all sorts of masks for ourselves or for others. I feel we could be better than this. Maybe this is a pipe dream, and we're just supposed to be what we are in this very moment. That might be very true. I guess i just wish someone feels the same way.
So what are the news? Well, things are looking not bad, and even maybe good as days are getting brighter here and a bit warmer.
I'm back on a light treatment for my rosacea, which seems to work. Slowly but surely. *knocks on wood.
I've been seeing a girl i met on internet, way younger than me (about 23), it's interesting.
For now she's a fuck buddy, but if my intuition is right; we might be more and like have "dates" and stuff...
though you probably wouldn't call it a date if you already fucked before, right? Late brunch? Late dinner?
Early dinner? ha.
I'm back on a light treatment for my rosacea, which seems to work. Slowly but surely. *knocks on wood.
I've been seeing a girl i met on internet, way younger than me (about 23), it's interesting.
For now she's a fuck buddy, but if my intuition is right; we might be more and like have "dates" and stuff...
though you probably wouldn't call it a date if you already fucked before, right? Late brunch? Late dinner?
Early dinner? ha.
So i just saw Silver Linings Playbook. Good film! Now i wanna dance with Jennifer Lawrence and hump her roughly while doing so!
So it's official...My iPhone's not working anymore, it was jailbreaked and i upgraded like a douche. Back to shitty Nokia for a bit, until i can get a proper iPhone or something.
For all the ones i had on kik, well we'll have to reschedule too.
For all the ones i had on kik, well we'll have to reschedule too.
Tonight, i went out in some bars with a couple of people i met on some french website that makes people go out together...sort of. It's hard to describe. Basically someone says "i wanna go out there in this bar" and some people just say "yeah i'll come" and then you just go along. It was fun, people were mostly cool.
Some girl just left because the first bar was too noisy and too crowded, even though we knew it and said we'd go somewhere else after a first drink.
Then, we got to a second bar, lively but with way more space and nice, so we stayed there for like 3 hours, maybe more...i had fun, drank a few beers, talked a bit here and there, was silent also for a while but it was ok.
And then i suddenly looked around, and saw other tables having fun and suddenly realised i didn't want to be here...i suddenly thought "this would be so much more fun with sg chatters" and it just kinda stabbed the moment. I don't know if i was just fantasizing things or something...The evening was alright, not too involving or crazy or anything; but not completely boring either...I guess it's hard for me to fit in.
Oh well, it's not like a sad thing; just trying to make sense of things happening you know?
Some girl just left because the first bar was too noisy and too crowded, even though we knew it and said we'd go somewhere else after a first drink.
Then, we got to a second bar, lively but with way more space and nice, so we stayed there for like 3 hours, maybe more...i had fun, drank a few beers, talked a bit here and there, was silent also for a while but it was ok.
And then i suddenly looked around, and saw other tables having fun and suddenly realised i didn't want to be here...i suddenly thought "this would be so much more fun with sg chatters" and it just kinda stabbed the moment. I don't know if i was just fantasizing things or something...The evening was alright, not too involving or crazy or anything; but not completely boring either...I guess it's hard for me to fit in.
Oh well, it's not like a sad thing; just trying to make sense of things happening you know?
