some pics i took for fun








so what do you think?

last post didnt work shitty just look at attachments

my old modeling pics

here we go

yay or nay

my last post made me feel like a loser and only proved I am one

As soon as Suicide Girls came out I wanted to be one
except on issue: confidence
I would have to rank with some of the most gorgeous women out there
I have many excuses like
I want to get my tatts first
Oh just a couple more piercings
and just 10 more lbs.
I keep losing weight yay my goal
but even if I am able to be a twig like some of these girls I will always be me
and me is insecure
I put up this front of confidence but really I am quite the opposite
pathetic huh?

I just had an EEG
which tests the brainwaves for seizure activity I have been blacking out... a lot
it's kind of scary I just hope the results are okay
I have had scary moments when it comes to blacking out
like ending up in the middle of traffic
this sucks because I will never be able to get my license if this keeps up
but hopefully one day they will stop and I will be okay

okay I didn't give the teacher my number
whoo
thank goodness but I think this crush is
over
but now I wait for my bf to get out of prison then
life will be okay
again

The Teacher:
NO NUMBER YET
SHOULD I DO IT?
Yay or Nay

I have a great boyfriend who I love dearly. But I cannot stop having sex dreams about one of my teachers and am beginning to have a crush on him. And it is obvious that he is into me but I am finding it harder and harder to control myself. My bf is prison so I haven't gotten any matress mambo action in months. He is like 38 and I am 18 but for some reason I am finding that hot at the moment. But it's only with him. I want to pounce on him but he's a teacher and those boundries should never be broken. I am thinking about giving him my numero when I leave the school. AAAGHGHGHGHGHGHHGH hormones why won't you stop.