Lots of new special events.
So my long time boyfriend, and I have broken up.
It's not so bad though, mostly my choice. We just don't agree about a lot of things. About life and what's important and where we were going. It's going to be weird when he moves out all of his furniture, but I will survive, and hopefully go on to find someone that is more like me and who wants the same things I want.
I may already have found someone that is good for me. I don't know how serious it is, so we'll still say I'm single, but I think I really found a suicide boy. He's got crazy awesome tattoos and is very sexy. He came over to cheer me up cause he's a great friend, and well, you know.... I can post this here because people from my daily life don't look here... so the myspace and facebook pages are more cryptic, with you guys I can be myself.
Another reason I love Suicide Girls and the whole community here. You guys get it. Sexuality is not something that should be hidden. In my daily life, I have to keep that part of me hidden, but here I can admit to the way I am. What I like is being gorgeous. What I like is being sexy. What I like is this new boy. Why NOT? Why can't I just tell everyone I know? Well that's complicated... but I can tell you. And that makes me smile.
Finals week is coming up, and I'm a little stressed, but I hope to get another set done soon. Ex-boyfriend was pretty angry and restrictive about my Suicide Girls pics, so now I can take some new ones... I think I have a good idea. Once I test it out, you'll be the first ones to see it... I promise.
I have still been reading... but mostly for school. I did read something that I love lately. Atlas Shrugged by Ayn Rand is like my new bible. I know it's a pretty conservative philosophy, but economically I am conservative. Socially I am very liberal, but when it comes to my money, I feel like Ayn Rand has it pretty right. George Orwell wrote that the best books are the ones that tell you what you already know, and I totally feel that way about Ayn Rand. A lot of what she says in this novel felt like she was talking to me, which is beautiful.
I've also been reading some really sexy poems... like stuff by the Earl of Rochester and John Donne. Now, granted, some of John Donne's poems are considered "spiritual" but they aren't so spiritual. Go find his "Holy Sonnet #10" and try to tell me that it's about god... cause it isn't. If you take away the first line, there isn't even a reason to think it's about god. It's about sex... violent and real.
Not much else to talk about really so I'll leave you with a this
Promise you a new set very very soon... probably a very angry interesting one because that's how I'm feeling
You'll love it
See me soon
Ritsuka
So my long time boyfriend, and I have broken up.
It's not so bad though, mostly my choice. We just don't agree about a lot of things. About life and what's important and where we were going. It's going to be weird when he moves out all of his furniture, but I will survive, and hopefully go on to find someone that is more like me and who wants the same things I want.
I may already have found someone that is good for me. I don't know how serious it is, so we'll still say I'm single, but I think I really found a suicide boy. He's got crazy awesome tattoos and is very sexy. He came over to cheer me up cause he's a great friend, and well, you know.... I can post this here because people from my daily life don't look here... so the myspace and facebook pages are more cryptic, with you guys I can be myself.
Another reason I love Suicide Girls and the whole community here. You guys get it. Sexuality is not something that should be hidden. In my daily life, I have to keep that part of me hidden, but here I can admit to the way I am. What I like is being gorgeous. What I like is being sexy. What I like is this new boy. Why NOT? Why can't I just tell everyone I know? Well that's complicated... but I can tell you. And that makes me smile.
Finals week is coming up, and I'm a little stressed, but I hope to get another set done soon. Ex-boyfriend was pretty angry and restrictive about my Suicide Girls pics, so now I can take some new ones... I think I have a good idea. Once I test it out, you'll be the first ones to see it... I promise.
I have still been reading... but mostly for school. I did read something that I love lately. Atlas Shrugged by Ayn Rand is like my new bible. I know it's a pretty conservative philosophy, but economically I am conservative. Socially I am very liberal, but when it comes to my money, I feel like Ayn Rand has it pretty right. George Orwell wrote that the best books are the ones that tell you what you already know, and I totally feel that way about Ayn Rand. A lot of what she says in this novel felt like she was talking to me, which is beautiful.
I've also been reading some really sexy poems... like stuff by the Earl of Rochester and John Donne. Now, granted, some of John Donne's poems are considered "spiritual" but they aren't so spiritual. Go find his "Holy Sonnet #10" and try to tell me that it's about god... cause it isn't. If you take away the first line, there isn't even a reason to think it's about god. It's about sex... violent and real.
Not much else to talk about really so I'll leave you with a this
Promise you a new set very very soon... probably a very angry interesting one because that's how I'm feeling
You'll love it
See me soon
Ritsuka
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