i once read, and now believe, that suffering comes from our ability as rational beings to avoid dealing with the necessary pain of a situation. i don't know you or your story, my friend...or if this entry is for real, but the above is what i thought as i read your journal. if you know combat, or embraced combat rather, then you know the best thing about a fight is getting hit...the shock of life/pain and the knowing that it will fade, followed by the thrill of hitting back....harder. is there any real difference with the jolt of emotional pain? or the sequence that follows?

.....i don't know, man, here's to wishing you a good day. just wandering thru, and thought i'd drop a few words.

Ugh. Fuck that empty space. You have to try and find good things to fill it back up with that are already in you. I know you have them.
I miss our talks as well, then read that. I wonder how you are doing. Have you got the few emails i have sent??? Why don't you send me an email on your phone thingie.