I really think I might need to look into medication to stop myself from obsessing and worrying over things sometimes. Granted, the thing I'm freaking about right now is actually tremendously important, but still, others tell me and I can sense myself that I really need to just fucking chill at some point.

Sometimes, I think that like anyone who may have some kind of actual mental tweak, if I found a way to take the edge off I'd suddenly realize that my brain was actually working at a completely fucked up level, and I'd wondrously awake to realize what "normal" people experience, and damn myself for not doing something sooner.

Then I think I'm being crazy, and that I'm clinging dangerously to the prescription-popping solution that seems to be growing larger and larger in our culture, and it turns me off, and I just say fuck it...Circle Jerk of logic, thou hast bested me once again.

-For now, at least there's scotch. That's a pretty good prescription for mind-numbing relaxation right there. If only I could use it at work.

Dave