I don't keep this very updated. It's a good thing no one reads it anyway.
Nothing is happening in my life really. that's good I think. Low key, no drama.
Maybe that's why there are less "geezers" on here than young people? Nothing to write about.
We've attained an equilibrium in our lives that is less complicated.
We grow into the Tao?
Nothing is happening in my life really. that's good I think. Low key, no drama.
Maybe that's why there are less "geezers" on here than young people? Nothing to write about.
We've attained an equilibrium in our lives that is less complicated.
We grow into the Tao?
Privacy is a little bit of a difficult thing to come by in a family home. While it's easy enough to get my SG time when everyone else is on the opposite side of my laptop screen. Finding time for a little "self appreciation" is almost impossible.
So after perusing some inspiring images, and deciding that my new Galaxy III is up to the task, I decide that I'm going to run myself a bath, something I was planning to do anyway, and have a little alone time. "My wife and I have a date planned for later, but maybe if I get the easy one out of the way now..." I loudly announce to the household that "I'm going to have a bath does anyone need the bathroom first?". Every last one of them answers me "Nooo." "You're all sure," I say, "because it seems like every time I go into this bathroom (we only have one in this house. Putting the second one into the basement is on the list of things I've been wanting to do, but you know that's a lot of money) somebody...", I stare hard at my youngest for emphasis, " needs to urgently use the toilet.", I continue. "Nooo!", everybody answers me again in unison.
" Awesome, I am going to do this!"
I run a nice hot bath, and resume my viewing pleasure on the Android... I'm just starting to get into it, laying back, phone in one hand, myself in the other, when my wife announces that she has to pee after all. I've locked the door, but quick as can be she goes around through our bedroom to the other door, where the lock is easy to pop. I have just enough time to shut my phone down and stash it in the shower curtain.
The door opens... "Shit! She's going to wonder why I have my glasses on in the tub" I quickly stash them next to the phone and busy myself with washing my feet, bending over to hide my erection.
She sits down on the toilet and begins to prattle on to me about some inane thing she just read on the internet. Isn't this awkward. I could of course just reveal to her what I've been up to, with little embarrassment, but I'm hoping to resume the activity after she leaves, and it always makes me feel a bit awkward when I know that she knows what I'm up to. This is kind of my thing, and I like to keep it that way. After all, I've been sneaking around to do this stuff since I was 12, and you know what they say about old habits.
That plan is quickly shot anyway, as we are quickly by my 5 year old who has some nonsense question to ask. Followed shortly afterwards by the dog. "Is there any other fucking person who thinks they need to be in here? Can we call the neighbors?"
My wife reaches back for some paper to dab herself off after her tinkle and she brushes the shower curtain. "splash". "Oh shit! What the fuck?! Was that my brand new phone!!"... "Thank fuck, just my glasses." My phone has fallen the other way down through the curtain behind the toilet.
The erection is gone, my phone safely hidden behind the toilet, I wait out the crowd, and eventually everybody leaves. I have the bathroom to myself again.
I recover my phone, dry off my glasses. "I was bored with that ass fucking video anyway.", I tell myself, and I look for a new video to watch. "Oh my god! Look at this blonde with the killer rack and and the swollen torpedo shaped nipples. Holy fucking god! This is it, this is the girl of my dreams for the next 2 to 2 1/2 minutes". Now I'm really in to it. On my knees, big long strokes. 'Oh she's so hot. look at her suck that cock!".
"Dad! I need to poop!"... "Jeesus Fucking Christ, are you fucking kidding me?!" "God Dammit!" "Shit outside voice! .... Silence... "Weird. Guess he was just doing that to bug me?" "Welp, might as well finish frosting the tub surround"...
I'm all dried off, and feeling much better about myself. I find a bit of tuna casserole my wife whipped up, and starting dishing myself up. I can suddenly feel an intense glare at the back of my head. I turn around to face my wife. "I can't believe you wouldn't let your son,use the bathroom. And you swore at him!". "I thought he was just bugging me!", I attempt to respond. "Well, he's not been feeling well all day, and now you made him have an accident!"
So much for stress relief. And now I'm probably out that piece of tail I was hoping for later too.
Looks like I'm putting in that other bathroom.
Here in the north summer is rapidly coming to a close, overnight low's of 5C mean that frost won't be far off. The leaves will soon start turning.
We're going to have a fire in the backyard tonight. I think fires on chilly nights are little bit better, because the fire actually means something to you. Also this time of year we don't have to stay up nearly so late as it's starting to get dark already at around 8:30pm. Another reminder that soon I will be driving both to and from work in the dark.
It's a funny thing here in Canada how inundated we are by american media. It seems funny that even though we have our own political issues taking place the focus is still so much on the presidential election to the south of us. But, then again politics there really does have a big impact on our economy. Fun fact for those of you who don't know, but Canada is, at this time, the largest nation in the world, and yet we have a population slightly less than that of the state of California.
Here on SG, everyone is very liberal minded, it's pretty much an online "blue state". So this is largely preaching to the quire, but the Republicans really do amaze me, the fact that they can so openly and callously attack the poor and middle class, "i'm not paying for healthcare for poor people!", "education for the rich", and "organized labor should be abolished" (it's spelled labour here), and then try to blindside the public with social issues like abortion and their anti-gay agenda still expecting everyone to vote for them. I hope people are smarter than that. I really hope people realize that there is an actual war between the rich and the poor going on in this world right now, and that the republicans are not on their side.
It concerns me that young people don't educate themselves about politics, and don't get out there and vote.
Sometimes I think this world won't change until all the baby-boomers have died off, and then the rest of us can have our say again. By then I'll be in my late 50's. Too late by then? Maybe.
OCD can be a little tiresome to deal with sometimes.
I don't have it, my wife does, and I think she can have a stress induced panic attack over almost anything.
God help you if you actually make a big decision.
I bought a used truck today. I'm pretty happy with the one I got, it looks really good, but there is a little risk in every purchase. My wife can't deal with that though. Sometimes I can't deal with her.
Oh well, we'll make it.
Other than that, my grandfather died tonight. I guess I should have lead with that bit of news. He's been dying for two years though. He's been in the actual hospital dying for over a week now. I guess the one thing I've learned about dying is, that it will never be as pretty as it is in the movies. I'm pretty much cried out from when I said goodbye to him last week. I feel a little horrified knowing what he went through in his last few days, lapsing in and out of consciousness, and being disappointed every time he woke again. "Why won't this just end?", he'd say. They'd medicate him, and he'd fall asleep again. I don't think I want to go like that.
When the days comes I think I might just pull my car into the garage and shut the door.
I don't have it, my wife does, and I think she can have a stress induced panic attack over almost anything.
God help you if you actually make a big decision.
I bought a used truck today. I'm pretty happy with the one I got, it looks really good, but there is a little risk in every purchase. My wife can't deal with that though. Sometimes I can't deal with her.
Oh well, we'll make it.
Other than that, my grandfather died tonight. I guess I should have lead with that bit of news. He's been dying for two years though. He's been in the actual hospital dying for over a week now. I guess the one thing I've learned about dying is, that it will never be as pretty as it is in the movies. I'm pretty much cried out from when I said goodbye to him last week. I feel a little horrified knowing what he went through in his last few days, lapsing in and out of consciousness, and being disappointed every time he woke again. "Why won't this just end?", he'd say. They'd medicate him, and he'd fall asleep again. I don't think I want to go like that.
When the days comes I think I might just pull my car into the garage and shut the door.
Crappy Day
When it rains it pours... so they say. It seems sometimes like all the bad things happen at once.
I really found myself wondering how much more I could take yesterday.
I was just thinking I might trade my car in on a new truck, Mrs.Evil and I talked it over and she decided that it was an acceptable idea. As we looked into how much we owed on the car we found out that the dealership scammed us. There was, as a condition of the loan, a $5K insurance "job loss" insurance policy added into the financing. I was told that it would be refunded to me at the end of the loan term as long as I didn't use it. Well, it turns out that was all just a scam from the financing department. When we called the dealership to complain, it's suddenly under new management. So basically my car has $5000 more owing on it than I can get for it.
My ex-wife has served me papers. Child support is going to go up $200 more a month. I just took a job for less money so that I could be home with my family, and we will essentially be paying 25% of our take home pay to my ex. The same ex who just got back from Grande Caymen, and then wants me to pay her legal fees because she is facing financial hardships. That's the same ex who spent a week in Vegas before Christmas, Montreal last summer and Cuba two months before that. The same ex with the brand new car, two year old house and new SUV. Her and her husband make less combined than I make, and yet they are living a lifestyle I can't afford. It's enough to make a person climb out on a ledge.
Maybe it's a Sign
This same day, I'm feeling like I can't get any lower; a coworker got fired. On his birthday. It's hard to see a prideful, 25 yr old man cry. This same day, my cousin lost her boyfriend of 2yrs to a traffic accident. Dead, gone forever. What must that feel like. I can only imagine that she is devastated right now.
Buck up Mr.Evil, life could be much, much worse. You really don't need a new truck. You just want one. And Evil Jr. is an adult in 5 years. And you know you would do anything for him anyway. Little Evil is so happy to have you home every night. That makes it all worth it doesn't it. You'll be just fine.
When it rains it pours... so they say. It seems sometimes like all the bad things happen at once.
I really found myself wondering how much more I could take yesterday.
I was just thinking I might trade my car in on a new truck, Mrs.Evil and I talked it over and she decided that it was an acceptable idea. As we looked into how much we owed on the car we found out that the dealership scammed us. There was, as a condition of the loan, a $5K insurance "job loss" insurance policy added into the financing. I was told that it would be refunded to me at the end of the loan term as long as I didn't use it. Well, it turns out that was all just a scam from the financing department. When we called the dealership to complain, it's suddenly under new management. So basically my car has $5000 more owing on it than I can get for it.
My ex-wife has served me papers. Child support is going to go up $200 more a month. I just took a job for less money so that I could be home with my family, and we will essentially be paying 25% of our take home pay to my ex. The same ex who just got back from Grande Caymen, and then wants me to pay her legal fees because she is facing financial hardships. That's the same ex who spent a week in Vegas before Christmas, Montreal last summer and Cuba two months before that. The same ex with the brand new car, two year old house and new SUV. Her and her husband make less combined than I make, and yet they are living a lifestyle I can't afford. It's enough to make a person climb out on a ledge.
Maybe it's a Sign
This same day, I'm feeling like I can't get any lower; a coworker got fired. On his birthday. It's hard to see a prideful, 25 yr old man cry. This same day, my cousin lost her boyfriend of 2yrs to a traffic accident. Dead, gone forever. What must that feel like. I can only imagine that she is devastated right now.
Buck up Mr.Evil, life could be much, much worse. You really don't need a new truck. You just want one. And Evil Jr. is an adult in 5 years. And you know you would do anything for him anyway. Little Evil is so happy to have you home every night. That makes it all worth it doesn't it. You'll be just fine.
You ever sit back and realize how many popular songs are about transgender prostitutes?
I had a real bad day at work a few days ago. And a one day battle with depression as a result. I can't imagine people who have to live with that feeling all of the time.
I am so thankful I have the ability to work through it and move on. I'm still not 100% four days later, but for the most part I feel pretty good.
I am so thankful I have the ability to work through it and move on. I'm still not 100% four days later, but for the most part I feel pretty good.
