My wife's cancer may be back.

Sorry all, I had to tell somebody. I can't post this on any of my mainstream blogs, can't talk about it on FB, can't tell others. .

I have spent my lifetime reinventing myself and trying to walk the Tao. I had to - the self I showed up with was self destructive, myopic, and weak. I am proud of my new self.

But I'm failing right now, because now I feel like the old days. I look at what's ahead, everything in the world, everything in my life, all the mistakes and failures and re-spawning obstacles and I just want to close my eyes and sleep forever. Its shitty but that's how I feel this exact second - just tired.


Ta daaaa.

with apologies,

ph