I am really sick of being poor....the problem is once you get in a rut like I'm in it is so hard to pull yourself out. I don't get it, what do I have to do here just to have enough money for a pack of smokes or to keep my lights on???????? FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKk
I want to feel something, I want someone to feel me....I sooooo need to be felt........just touch me!!!!!!!!!!
So my best friend kills himself, one of my other close friends dies of cancer, Peter Steele dies, and my back is screwed up so bad I can't hardly move and all in less than a week...wow awesome....God is a kid with an ant farm
I am seriously teetering on the edge!! People are driving me crazy...I have been in about half a dozen states in the past week...two sick family members...non stop running...constant ever mounting stress...absolute insanity. I believe I have reached the peak, I have climbed the highest mountain....and here I stand on the edge, pebbles crumbling at my feet as I lose what little bit of footing I have left. Anyone got a rope?? I haven't decided whether I want you to tie me off so I don't fall or hang myself with it...Find me a rope and I'll decide later....
Got roped into cooking...when all I really wanted to do is relax...Why don't people understand the meaning of relaxation?? When you work ridiculous amounts of hours a week..shouldn't you just be able to come home and flop??? COME ON...I need a new career...Hell I need a new life!!!!!!!!!!!
Ugh...I hate being irritated....but it's just gonna be one of those days I guess. I need to get my ass up and off this computer cuz there are about a billion things I should be and have to be doing, but yet I sit here...go figure 
